One step forward, ten steps back.

[TrinUC]

Hi, I'm very sorry for your loss. With time we will all heal, I feel like a hypocrite saying that because I can't even get myself to believe it.
I'm also very sorry about you sharing your due date with a woman you know, my sister is pregnant and I was 4 weeks further along than she is so I have been avoiding her as well. I know I will compare her progress with what mine should have been. I feel bad because my sister is trying to support me, but I can't bring myself to see her now. This is a very hard thing to go through and I'm very sorry that you have to experience this..

Thank you for replying. I replied on your other thread but again I am so sorry for your loss. It must be so hard for you with your sister being pregnant. I can't imagine that and I understand completely why you are trying to avoid her and each milestone she reaches will be hard for you. Life is very unfair and I hate that you have to go through that. You will receive great support here and will meet a great bunch of people.

You're very welcome and thank you. Yeah, I started my own thread because I didn't want to disturb your thread and take it away from you. Yes, it is very hard with her being pregnant.. she came to visit me yesterday and I could barely look at her. I don't mean to be soo cold towards her, I wish nothing but the best for her and her unborn child, especially since she lost her first daughter when she was 4 months old, but I can't bring myself to touch her or hug her because I will feel her belly.

I've recieved a lot of support since I started here yesterday and all of you are wonderful women and I am very sorry any of us had to go through any of this, it's not fair at all. I feel like a 3yr. old claiming things aren't fair, but they really aren't..

How are you doing today?