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Mitchi - congratulations on 15 weeks and Team Pink x

Ella - keeping fingers crossed for you, it's still early for the scan, I was told by sonographer they don't always see much before 7 weeks (at a 6 week scan), hoping it all works out(but I know how stressful it is) . Glad the hcg came back higher x

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Ella-this is an article based on research done on Bhcg and what can be seen via ultrasound https://www.babymed.com/blogs/dramos/which-serum-hcg-level-should-you-see-pregnancy-ultrasound
I have heard Drs say a fetal pole may be detected after Bhcg reaches 10000. You are still quite early. I have everything crossed for you!!

 

[ginny83]

I had a scan with this pregnancy at 6 weeks and all we saw was an empty sac! a week later at 7 weeks there was a fetal pole with heart beat

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

Thanks all! The balance is such a struggle. At the moment I'm trying to tell myself - nothing has gone wrong yet, and it might yet go wrong, but just take it one day at a time.

If we get a heartbeat we tell mine and DH's parents. They would be over the moon. Praying!!!

 

[LeeC]

Update. Thank you all for the well wishes.

Had my final IV infusion my blood is still only at 10.4 and my heart rate was 121, it was 112 resting yesterday. I'm quite annoyed as I thought my heamoglobin would have been in the normal range after the amount of iron I am getting, plus I am also taking prescription Vit C to help with absorption.

Anyway, have been given a provisional date for membrane sweep 2nd March, hospital appt Fri, 4th March for gel and to go in Sat am for induction.

I'm not happy with these dates as that will put me at 38.4 potentially 38.5 before I am even induced. I'm worried about the size of baby and delivering over 38 wks being 42 and not in the best of health right now. Yesterday I had a really bad day, felt faint all day and heart was racing, I ended up having a bit of an anxiety attack that baby had stopped moving again and the feeling of panic was just awful.

I've seen a CPN about my anxieties and I think she was also hoping to speak with the clinic.

I'm going to call them now to see if they will consider taking me this weekend or at latest 1st March for induction.

As per usual need to read back and will respond xx.

 

[LeeC]

Hey Wookie, yes I know girl in York, I have been speaking to her about her condition on FB, I'm sure she was tested for anaemia but was given the clear. It's such a shame she is still struggling now after the birth of Alex. I think she told me she was hoping to try some medication once she has finished nursing to see if it gets her heart under control.

Loeylo, yes the tachycardia is a pain, were you also breathless and dizzy? I struggled to even make it up the stairs, had to rest half way!! How are you doing now? Did I read on here you are contemplating number 2?

IVV, massive congrats on twins.

Rapt, I know...... It seems like no time since we were on the RM thread, seriously where has the time gone. Yes, you can use OPK's, do you have an update? Eeeek.

Congratulations Ella, good luck.

Dairy, thanks for thinking of me, hope you're well.

Mitchi, I remember you from the RM thread also, congrats Hun.

xx

 

[Tasha]

Lee, I was told between 10 and up is considered normal in pregnant ladies. Need a catch up soon. Sorry. I'm tired all the time atm xx

 

[LeeC]

Tasha, that's spooky. I started emailing you on FB about 3 hrs ago, wanted to ask you something. Hopefully I'll get it finished before the Walking Dead lol....
My haematologist wanted me over 12.5 because of previous PPH and anaemia after ectopics and surgery.
I'm not surprised your tired Hun, hope all is ok your end. I can't believe how much Orion is growing, little cutie.
How is your anaemia these days? Xx

 

[loeylo]

Loeylo, yes the tachycardia is a pain, were you also breathless and dizzy? I struggled to even make it up the stairs, had to rest half way!! How are you doing now? Did I read on here you are contemplating number 2?

I was the exact same. I initially put it down to work (I didn't finish until 38 weeks, my commute was 1hr by bus plus a 40 minute walk each way, so I was fairly shattered!) but yes, almost constantly dizzy, I even had scary visual auras, loss of vision, tingling down one side, and I saw stars whenever I stood up. Blood pressure was always perfect but my heart rate was never under 105 at rest. They wouldn't induce me until due date. I was also sick whenever I physically exerted myself, which I'm sure was due to my heart rate!

Yes, crazy as it sounds, I'm contemplating #2! My OH isn't ready to talk about it yet but he knows I am not getting another prescription for birth control. I have 5 months left. We will possibly use natural methods for a few months after that, depending how my OH feels!

 

[dairymomma]

Hope-If you feel that strongly about being induced earlier, I'd push for it. Would talking to your hematologist about this help and would it add more weight if he called your dr as well? FX you get your induction moved up and all goes perfect for you. As for me, I'm doing pretty good. Due to some recently discovered hereditary disorders and my MTHFR diagnosis, I'm being referred to a hematologist. I see him in April and there's a chance I'll be seeing a genetic counselor around the same time too. So more testing, not much ttc, and just generally waiting around mostly.

Ella-It's not uncommon to not see a fetal pole that early. The fact that you saw anything at all is really great news and the yolk sac shows there's growth going on. It's hard to not worry about every little thing but hang in there. A few more days and I bet you'd have seen bubs and a hb. Do you have a followup scan in a week or so or any more bloods to see how things are going in that respect?

 

[Hope39]

Hope-If you feel that strongly about being induced earlier, I'd push for it. Would talking to your hematologist about this help and would it add more weight if he called your dr as well? FX you get your induction moved up and all goes perfect for you. As for me, I'm doing pretty good. Due to some recently discovered hereditary disorders and my MTHFR diagnosis, I'm being referred to a hematologist. I see him in April and there's a chance I'll be seeing a genetic counselor around the same time too. So more testing, not much ttc, and just generally waiting around mostly.

Ella-It's not uncommon to not see a fetal pole that early. The fact that you saw anything at all is really great news and the yolk sac shows there's growth going on. It's hard to not worry about every little thing but hang in there. A few more days and I bet you'd have seen bubs and a hb. Do you have a followup scan in a week or so or any more bloods to see how things are going in that respect?

I think you mean LeeC, lol xx

 

[Hope39]

Loeylo, yes the tachycardia is a pain, were you also breathless and dizzy? I struggled to even make it up the stairs, had to rest half way!! How are you doing now? Did I read on here you are contemplating number 2?

I was the exact same. I initially put it down to work (I didn't finish until 38 weeks, my commute was 1hr by bus plus a 40 minute walk each way, so I was fairly shattered!) but yes, almost constantly dizzy, I even had scary visual auras, loss of vision, tingling down one side, and I saw stars whenever I stood up. Blood pressure was always perfect but my heart rate was never under 105 at rest. They wouldn't induce me until due date. I was also sick whenever I physically exerted myself, which I'm sure was due to my heart rate!

Yes, crazy as it sounds, I'm contemplating #2! My OH isn't ready to talk about it yet but he knows I am not getting another prescription for birth control. I have 5 months left. We will possibly use natural methods for a few months after that, depending how my OH feels!

The gp gave me a months supply of birth control and I didn't bother taking it

As soon as he said I possibly won't have a period I didn't fancy messing with my hormones as we want to try for no 2. I'm still breastfeeding so sort of using that as birth control

 

[dairymomma]

Yeah, I did mean Lee. Oops...

 

[loeylo]

Loeylo, yes the tachycardia is a pain, were you also breathless and dizzy? I struggled to even make it up the stairs, had to rest half way!! How are you doing now? Did I read on here you are contemplating number 2?

I was the exact same. I initially put it down to work (I didn't finish until 38 weeks, my commute was 1hr by bus plus a 40 minute walk each way, so I was fairly shattered!) but yes, almost constantly dizzy, I even had scary visual auras, loss of vision, tingling down one side, and I saw stars whenever I stood up. Blood pressure was always perfect but my heart rate was never under 105 at rest. They wouldn't induce me until due date. I was also sick whenever I physically exerted myself, which I'm sure was due to my heart rate!

Yes, crazy as it sounds, I'm contemplating #2! My OH isn't ready to talk about it yet but he knows I am not getting another prescription for birth control. I have 5 months left. We will possibly use natural methods for a few months after that, depending how my OH feels!

The gp gave me a months supply of birth control and I didn't bother taking it

As soon as he said I possibly won't have a period I didn't fancy messing with my hormones as we want to try for no 2. I'm still breastfeeding so sort of using that as birth control

I am on the mini pill so only one hormone, I actually conceived my second pregnancy when I was on it and my cycles returned straight away when I finished it before. I really wish I wasn't on it but my OH didn't want to risk another pregnancy so soon after my c section, but I am honestly just as broody as before I had her!

Tbh I think I need to address what the need to be pregnant again so soon is caused by. I guess I feel a bit robbed of enjoying pregnancy and I also had the exact opposite of the birth I had hoped for.

My issue definitely isn't falling pregnant, I'm so fortunate to fall pregnant if a sperm gets anywhere near me (so far anyway) its just staying pregnant that is my issue.

 

[InVivoVeritas]

I'm coming to terms with the idea that having so many losses means that I'll be permanently broody for another baby. It always feels as though my family isn't complete, but I think that's because of the babies who aren't here when they should be.

These two will absolutely, definitely be my last.

 

[LeeC]

Hey all. At last progress with the hospital.

Induction booked for Tuesday, going in to hospital on Monday at 8.00pm for Prostin Gel. Shitting myself tbh but also very excited. Just want it over.

Yes, I think you meant me Dairy, when I first read that I thought Hope had an announcement to make!!

Hope, I got pregnant 3 times while breast feeding, in saying that my periods returned 4 months after having Morgan. Are you going to start TTC soon, I'm excited for you all over again xx.

Loeylo. I know how you feel, I felt completely cheated by the pregnancy and birth experience but believe me I haven't found it any easier the 2nd time round, this pregnancy has been physically and mentally exhausting and tbh I am scared shitless about the labour/birth after my last experience. I am reassuring myself by thinking that at least this time they are prepared for the worst so hopefully there won't be an emergency situation and also nothing can compare to holding that little baby and the joy parenting brings. Completely worth it x

IVV, this is also my last. After 15 pregnancies and at 42 yrs old I am done. Hubby will be getting the op shortly. I just said to Tasha earlier that it somehow seems strange knowing this is the end of such a long struggle. I'm hoping to fully enjoy my last ever weekend of being pregnant.

 

[Mitchi]

Good luck Lee!

 

[Hope39]

Loeylo, yes the tachycardia is a pain, were you also breathless and dizzy? I struggled to even make it up the stairs, had to rest half way!! How are you doing now? Did I read on here you are contemplating number 2?

I was the exact same. I initially put it down to work (I didn't finish until 38 weeks, my commute was 1hr by bus plus a 40 minute walk each way, so I was fairly shattered!) but yes, almost constantly dizzy, I even had scary visual auras, loss of vision, tingling down one side, and I saw stars whenever I stood up. Blood pressure was always perfect but my heart rate was never under 105 at rest. They wouldn't induce me until due date. I was also sick whenever I physically exerted myself, which I'm sure was due to my heart rate!

Yes, crazy as it sounds, I'm contemplating #2! My OH isn't ready to talk about it yet but he knows I am not getting another prescription for birth control. I have 5 months left. We will possibly use natural methods for a few months after that, depending how my OH feels!

The gp gave me a months supply of birth control and I didn't bother taking it

As soon as he said I possibly won't have a period I didn't fancy messing with my hormones as we want to try for no 2. I'm still breastfeeding so sort of using that as birth control

I am on the mini pill so only one hormone, I actually conceived my second pregnancy when I was on it and my cycles returned straight away when I finished it before. I really wish I wasn't on it but my OH didn't want to risk another pregnancy so soon after my c section, but I am honestly just as broody as before I had her!

Tbh I think I need to address what the need to be pregnant again so soon is caused by. I guess I feel a bit robbed of enjoying pregnancy and I also had the exact opposite of the birth I had hoped for.

My issue definitely isn't falling pregnant, I'm so fortunate to fall pregnant if a sperm gets anywhere near me (so far anyway) its just staying pregnant that is my issue.

I think I have just enjoyed Oscar so much that I have this terrible urge to have another soon. Maybe it's because I should have two boys , but then I think If isaac was here then Oscar probably wouldn't be, bittersweet really . Some days it really hits me and I miss isaac terribly, I've been thinking about him a lot lately as his 2nd birthday approaches, I think about him everyday anyway but it just seems like more of my day I'm thinking about isaac

i had a c sect too so have to wait for a while and I need to seriously shed some weight too , I've lost a stone, only about 3 more to go

I always got pregnant easily and staying pregnant was the problem but i took Prednisolone for isaac and Oscar pregnancies so hoping taking prednisolone again will be all that is needed to bring my last baby home

Xx

 

[Hope39]

Hey all. At last progress with the hospital.

Induction booked for Tuesday, going in to hospital on Monday at 8.00pm for Prostin Gel. Shitting myself tbh but also very excited. Just want it over.

Yes, I think you meant me Dairy, when I first read that I thought Hope had an announcement to make!!

Hope, I got pregnant 3 times while breast feeding, in saying that my periods returned 4 months after having Morgan. Are you going to start TTC soon, I'm excited for you all over again xx.

Loeylo. I know how you feel, I felt completely cheated by the pregnancy and birth experience but believe me I haven't found it any easier the 2nd time round, this pregnancy has been physically and mentally exhausting and tbh I am scared shitless about the labour/birth after my last experience. I am reassuring myself by thinking that at least this time they are prepared for the worst so hopefully there won't be an emergency situation and also nothing can compare to holding that little baby and the joy parenting brings. Completely worth it x

IVV, this is also my last. After 15 pregnancies and at 42 yrs old I am done. Hubby will be getting the op shortly. I just said to Tasha earlier that it somehow seems strange knowing this is the end of such a long struggle. I'm hoping to fully enjoy my last ever weekend of being pregnant.

I wish I did have an announcement to make

My periods haven't returned but I'm seriously thinking of poas (opk) to see if I'm ovulating

I'd like to think we might be TTC in about 3 months x

 

[Squig34]

All the best Lee!

& good luck Hope for TTC again