PAL - February 2013 rainbow babies

[Lulu]

Great bump mrskg

Your scan sounds like it went pretty well Shocker, sounds like it's all on the right track, though it's funny they chucked out your hubby

I'm having a range of good days and bad days. I can't seem to shake off my paranoia that something will go wrong I still feel like I haven't really let myself believe I'm pregnant. I thought by this stage in pregnancy I'd be confident that everything is ok, which I suppose I am when I'm thinking rationally but then I worry about the size of my bump (or lack of) and whether or not I can feel movement or if its wind and I'm back to being paranoid again. In fact a lot of time I just don't feel anything and could easily forget I'm pregnant which in itself is weird! I honestly never thought a mmc could mess with my head so much.

Still have 10 days till my next scan so I just need to distract myself enough to get there, either that or I need a massive growth spurt and have a HUGE bump by then!!

Sorry that turned into a bit of self pity rant, didn't mean too. Think I just needed to let off steam.

 

[NT123]

Lulu I think most of us have days like that to be honest, I certainly did have very little excitement and more concern before my 20 week scan, but since then I seem to have started to believe its ok albeit I'm still watching for every movement and get concerned if I don't feel something every few hours. When u start feeling something properly, which u will, u will feel reassured because it isn't someone else telling u it's ur baby on screen, or that the hb is fine, or that baby is moving because u will know for yourself. I do feel a bit better now I've had that scan but you would be probably a bit too relaxed if the mmc hadn't impacted upon u the way u think about pregnancy.

Start to try to look for baby things etc once u have had ur scan, try to get a bit more focused on all the lovely things rather than the worry as much and maybe it will distract u so much from the worry. I know the first half of this pregnancy is horrible with worry but I'm determined that I will be able to look back and say pregnancy is wonderful for the second half when I'm holding my happy and healthy little girl x

 

[Lulu]

Thanks NT, I'm hoping the same. Can't wait til the 9th for our next scan and hopefully I'll start trusting my body and believing this pregnancy is ok. I feeling guilty for feeling down so often but I'm trying to keep positive. I have been looking at some baby clothes and trying to plan but I think I need to wait til next week to look more seriously.

I'm annoying myself to be honest but can't seem to let go of this anxiety at the moment. Grrr!!!

 

[PerpetualMama]

Thanks NT, I'm hoping the same. Can't wait til the 9th for our next scan and hopefully I'll start trusting my body and believing this pregnancy is ok. I feeling guilty for feeling down so often but I'm trying to keep positive. I have been looking at some baby clothes and trying to plan but I think I need to wait til next week to look more seriously.

I'm annoying myself to be honest but can't seem to let go of this anxiety at the moment. Grrr!!!

I go through bouts of doubt too Lulu. I do have reassurance in that she moves around a lot, although Friday she seemed quieter than normal and I had to stop and be mentally aware of her movements. I was so busy running around trying to fit all my errands in that it was harder to take notice. I was a nervous wreck before the scan, so sure something would be wrong, but they said things look ok. It wasn't until I asked about placenta placement that the tech told me it was low lying and only 2 cm away from the cervix. Now I'm all worried about birth complications and will the baby be ok etc. After the 20 week scan you'll probably feel better and once LO gets a little bigger and moves more it'll make it all sink in. My little girl is getting stronger and her kicks are now able to be felt from outside sometimes, but they are still not super hard jabs. I would not be surprised if you find another worry after the 20 week scan, because I think that it's common to worry so much...we love them so desperately that we can't help it. I hope your blue days are less and less and the smiles and glow hit you like a big feather pillow after your scan I know I walked around in awe for days that there's a naked little girl bouncing around in my belly it actually brings tears to my eyes!

 

[Mrskg]

Lulu I feel exactly the same x I still find it hard to,imagine there will be a baby at the end x I'm hoping after my scan on thurs it will feel more real

 

[Blue eyes 81]

I am also feeling apprehensive. Have my scan on the 8th hopefully then I will feel less reluctant. But
I think once we all hit vday we will all feel much better.

 

[Lulu]

Thanks ladies I know we're all going through various levels of anxiety, and while it's not a position I'd want anyone to be in, it is reassuring to know that I'm not the only one having these feelings.

I have been trying to be more positive today, I swear I've felt a few movements today Been looking at newborn outfits today in an attempt to make this pregnancy feel real. Like you say Mrskg it still feels a bit odd to think at the end of February I'll have another baby!

 

[Mrskg]

Lulu it's good to know we are pal normal

I started feeling movements around same time as you getting a wee bit stronger now can't wait till it's proper kicks that will def be reassuring x

 

[saysib]

Glad I'm not the only one still feeling like this. I've not been posting much because I've been so scared to get too excited. We had our 20wk scan on Friday and found out we are Team Blue He looks gorgeous and perfectly healthy. I also have an anterior placenta, like a lot of us it seems, and I'm finally beginning to feel more definite movement. I hope that helps to calm me down and believe that he will be coming home in February.

 

[Lulu]

saysib That's exactly how I feel, don't want to get too excited, too attached but over the weekend I've decided that I have nothing to prove that anything is/has/will go wrong so I have to believe in myself and my pregnancy.

Congratulations on your scan and your little boy

 

[Mrskg]

Congrats on team saysib x

I got my pram yesterday an got a bit excited then worried I was setting myself up for a fall x pal is so hard x you think once you get that bfp an sticky bean all will be fine ha if only x

 

[shocker]

Congrats on team blue saysib! I think we're all bound to worry and think we're setting ourselves up for hurt but we have made it this far with happy bouncy babies and we WILL be bringing home rainbows in February! I've been feeling lots of movement and finding the kicks so incredible and reassuring, at the same time the worry starts to creep in again of I don't feel him for a while or don't notice movements as much one day as another, its irrational but that's pal! I'm trying to worry less and really get into it, some days its a lot easier than others, I find it really helpful when I'm having a worried moment to go do something baby related, like look at tiny clothes or polish the pram and imagine him here wearing/sitting in them, visualising everything and reminding myself that its real helps me to stomp out the terror!

 

[NT123]

Glad we have so much good news and lots of positive attitude going on!

I am trying to be positive by picking names and we have got a couple of girls names picked, the most likely being Avery Quinn, or sophia grace what do u ladies think/prefer?

 

[rosebud111]

Glad we have so much good news and lots of positive attitude going on!

I am trying to be positive by picking names and we have got a couple of girls names picked, the most likely being Avery Quinn, or sophia grace what do u ladies think/prefer?

I love Avery Quinn! Sophia Grace is pretty too, though.

 

[rosebud111]

I have been feeling insecure and so emotional, too. PAL really takes a toll on your whole perspective doesn't it? I was so excited when i started feeling her kicks and noticed they were getting stronger but the last two days I haven't felt as much movement and it makes me nervous! We have a scan this Friday. That should cheer me up. =)

 

[Mrskg]

Rosebud I had exactly same the other day didn't feel movement doc says it was prob a growth spurt think he's right been feeling more again last couple of days But I can still go hours without feeling anything then I start to worry eventually though I feel movement an I can breathe again x pal is ridiculously hard

Nt I like avery Quinn x

 

[LilyLee]

Hi ladies,
I've been going through some movement paranoia too the last couple of days, seems to have slowed down, but I'm trying to not get too worked up about it as I'm sure like you said Mrskg that it's a growth spurt.
Speaking of growth, here's the latest belly pic from me! We spent the weekend camping, it was so relaxing and beautiful weather So here is me at 21 weeks with my beautiful dog Skye having a nap in the background:
https://i1078.photobucket.com/albums/w496/lilylee83/21wks.jpg
PS NT - I like Avery Quinn

 

[Mrskg]

Lovely bump lily

 

[Diamonddust]

ahh lovely bump Lilly xx

 

[shocker]

Lovely bump lily that place looks so lovely and relaxing!! I had a movement freak out just over a week ago and went to my doctor who sent me to the hospital, turned out he was perfectly fine he's just changed position, he used to lay lengthways across but moved to head down position so they said it would probably just be that he's extra comfy in his new spot, his movements returned to normal within a few days but it was reassuring that the doctor didn't dismiss me and tell me I was being paranoid