PAL Winter Babies 2010/11 - ** Waiting impatiently for our remaining babies! **

[hb1]

Fluffy - could your consultant be convinced in to monitoring the hcg while you wait for your scan?

 

[hannah76]

fluffy... sorry you're freaking out... i know its so hard, but all we can do is try and be positive! relaxing is good for little baby take care of yourself... its out of our hands now so all we can do is sit back and treat our bodies well. i know easier said than done sometimes...

 

[MadamRose]

fluffy... sorry you're freaking out... i know its so hard, but all we can do is try and be positive! relaxing is good for little baby take care of yourself... its out of our hands now so all we can do is sit back and treat our bodies well. i know easier said than done sometimes...

it might just be me but do you have a scan coming up soon?

 

[Megg33k]

I dont know if I can do this....

Im so scared ive tested god knows how many times today did a test this morning that was lighter than yesterday and for me that was it I was screaming at hubby "why me" "why does'nt he like me up there". I eventually calmed down then did a test this afternoon and it was darker than yesterdays AND this mornings, I just dont get it.

Im convinced that by taking my progesterone im prolonging the agony im exactly 4 weeks today and 11dpo I know its really really early as I only got my implantation dip at 8dpo.

I really am 99.9% convinced its going to be another miscarriage. Hubby has taken my thermometer off me now which is irrelevant anyway as being on the prog supp it makes it high !!

I wanna lock myself up in a room and scream and im wishing I hadnt done this now

Hey, you! It CANNOT always go wrong! There is no reason why this can't the your sticky bean! There's no reason why this one can't be a fighter! I can't tell you 100% that everything will be okay... I wish I could... but this little bean needs you to have just a little shred of faith in him/her that he/she will grow big and strong so as to join your family in about 8 months!

I know that everyone is telling me the same, and I do appear all calm with hubbs most of the time, I know I have a scan booked for two weeks and im seeing the consultant on wednesday to start my meds so its al rolling im just so damaged by all the miscarriages i dont think i will ever relax till my baby is in my arms xx

We're all damaged... in one way or another. I'm scared of U/S machines. I tend to blame them for all my problems... even though I know its me that's broken, not the machine! I feel like I would have just gone on to have a happy & healthy baby if I'd never gotten a scan! How stupid is that! So, we're all damaged! Just remember that we're all here for you... and we all love you and will be supporting you 100% throughout your journey... no matter where it leads. All we can do is hope (and pray, if that's your thing) that it ends in a happy place with a beautiful, screaming baby! Every BFP is a new beginning... a new chance for hope, goodness, fairness, and happiness! This one only just started... And you're going to be doing everything in your power to nurture it with everything it possibly needs! You just make sure that you hold your head high and enjoy the journey in between the bouts of terror... even if its just for a few seconds!

 

[Tulip]

I reckon the vits+gas are to blame Due... sorry you had a scare.... terrifying. Lots of love xx

 

[MadamRose]

I reckon the vits+gas are to blame Due... sorry you had a scare.... terrifying. Lots of love xx

Thanks i though they might be. i think my body just likes to scare me, espcially now im getting close my my scan. im getting very excited but also having the bad thoughts which people have anyway even if they havent lost a baby in the past which doesnt make it any easier

 

[Tulip]

Due. I know it's hard but you've got so far already!

 

[MadamRose]

Due. I know it's hard but you've got so far already!

yes exaclty i only ever dreamed on getting her, i think i will be better once i have had my scan, and also got to 24 weeks and am viable.

 

[TripleB]

fluffy, I can't add anything that hasn't already been said but try to relax, visualise yourself with your baby in your arms and know that we're here for you on the difficult days.

Sorry you had a scare due and glad it's settled down now - what was I saying about it being a little bugger...!

I managed to get through a night with my family without the secret slipping out (want to see that heartbeat first) G&T minus the G looks exactly the same thankfully!

xxx

 

[hb1]

Hi again - please can you add me - I did my 2nd digi today and got 2-3 weeks so a bit happier knowing hcg is at least going up - my due date is 16th Jan - although this is based on last period and think I might be a couple of days behind based on ov

hx

 

[Tulip]

No probs H I'll do it when I'm next on the laptop x

 

[TripleB]

Glad your HCG is on the up hb1! Tulip hun can you move my EDD to 16th according to my ov date and my fictional LMP! I'd be over 6 weeks if I had 28 day cycles - wishful thinking! xxx

 

[hb1]

Thanks Tulip
Hey TripleB - on a real countdown to the scan now v exciting!!

I'm doing my next digi on Friday before mw appt - fxd for 3+ - although as my 2-3 means hcg is anywhere between 200 - 2000, if it were only 200 today the doubling rule would mean it wouldn't be over 2000 in 5 days time so won't let it panic me - I say that now but I would prob feel different if that is the case on Friday!!

 

[lolly25]

Hey all
Not been around for a while as trying to keep my mind off the big day on tuesday, got my booking in scan at hospital , this is the exact same time i mmc last time i know for today my beany babe is ok as i heard babe on my sonicaid this morning

Megg and lambrini im so sorry to hear your news

Tulip Glad your scan went really well

Fluffy and hb1 congrats

 

[hannah76]

hb1 - yay! glad the test showed an increase in hcg... super exciting!

 

[fluffyblue]

Hi girls, feeling slightly better today - got a new test and its a lot darker ! I will stop testing eventually I promise.

HB - I would ask for HCG tests but I think it would make me worse, I can handle knowing I got to wait two weeks thats the easy part I think if I had to wait each day for the news it would be worse, hubby and I have talked and we both agree with this.

Megg - I do have some faith but its really hard I just want this so bad but am sick of being heartbroken its inbuilt in me now and I hate feeling like it.

Thanks for all your wishes I will try to behave promise

 

[hb1]

It's horrible isn't it - and when you've been so much feeling like this is totally normal unfortunatley.

At least 2 weeks isn't too long - feels like a milennia now but you'll get there!

hx

 

[TripleB]

I'm waivering again on my scan date. DH really wants to get one at 8 weeks rather than 7 but I just want to know what's going on in there! Oh what to do! We want to tell a selected few if it's good news and he thinks we'll be more confident at 8 weeks, which is probably true. If only I could find a way to fast forward the next few weeks! x

 

[Megg33k]

Thanks Lolly!

Heather - I don't blame you! And, I know that you have some faith. Its just that you sounded like you needed a bit of a pep talk! There's plenty of us in here to have lots and lots of hope for you on the days that you can't find it!

Louise - 8 week U/S's look significantly more like a baby (sorta) than 7 weeks. It really depends on what will put your mind to ease the best. Have you checked out pics of each to see what would make you feel the most confident?

 

[TripleB]

I did a quick google on scan images and you're right, 8 weeks is more babylike (still looks like a little alien though!). DH is putting his foot down "I though we decided on this" I'm like "I'm a hormonal wrecK likely to change my mind as often as I need to pee i.e. A LOT!". Think I'll call the clinic tomorrow to change the appointment. Once its done I'll feel better about it and its less than 3 weeks now if I go for a Saturday. xxx