Past and Present TTCers~ The continuation of IVF 2012 - present!

[MoBaby]

Mo looking at your signature and I just realized your baby will be here in just 3 weeks!!!

Yep 22 days to go!! Assuming little mo stays put. I'm having a lot of tightening which woke me up last night several times and it's been constantly today... Clinic said if it's more than 4-6 per ht I need to come in so when I get home from work and can count them and time them I will. Hopefully just dehydrated or something (although I'm peeing constantly since yesterday).. I'm packing tonight because I have a feeling I'm not going to make it until March 18th.

 

[honeycheeks]

Thanks ladies for your support. I had been crying for hours last night like it is over.

Mo- It didn't really occur to me that it could be an ectopic. Thanks for pointing that out. Let me also mention that both my tubes are completely blocked right from the neck of the uterus, if that makes sense. So it is still possible that I might have an ectopic. I thought I was safe from an ectopic. But I guess I can't se so sure.

My doctor seemed worried about the bleeding but she wouldn't judge yet. She just was being honest and said it could go either way from here. She has had a patient who had a low hcg of 50 to begin with, had profuse bleeding and yet they found the sac on ultrasound and went on to have a healthy pregnancy. Such things do happen. So they wouldn't say a thing unless they are absolutely sure.

But I have noticed one thing that my body is extremely sensitive to hcg after having multiple bad cases of OHSS. When hcg rises my body feels sore , even in frozen cycles.Even in this cycle I knew when my levels were rising and when they were not. But I don't have that feeling anymore. So I wouldn't be surprised to find my hcg no longer rising at tomorrow's appointment.

And for the bleeding. I had heavy bleeding yesterday and possibly through the night too. But it looks like is probably no longer heavy or not bleeding anymore. I am still on progesterone, so that could also be a reason for the abrupt end of bleeding or it might come back later. I just need to be prepared for everything.

My next appointment is tomorrow. So I will ask for a scan and the possibility of an ectopic. Is there anything else I should ask.

Is there any remedy for the low hcg thing?

 

[bubumaci]

Honey, I am keeping everything possible crossed for you - I hope you get a scan today and that they find the reason for the bleeding. I have no idea of course, but would find it weird if the HCG is rising as it should, but that the rest is not OK...
I am so sorry you are having to go through this!

One thing I would say ... I think our bodies respond to things differently, like with symptoms, or lack thereof - just because in the past you have responded sensitively, does not mean that you are going to this time... I have had no symptoms whatsoever so far (excepting the mild OHSS and frequent peeing and waking up punctually some time between 3 + 4:15 every morning) - no seriously aching boobs, nothing I would call cramping, no spotting... not even hit that wall of exhaustion yet in the early evenings... Please try to keep calm and I really hope that there will be good news for you today.

As far as a remedy for the low HCG thing - you get healthy pregnancies, where the values just start lower, but rise as they should... then you get others (like Mo - I think hers were pretty high - she was at over 691 at 11dpt - and 2540 two days after that, where I was at 118 yesterday at 9dpt - even if I were to triple in 48 hours, I wouldn't get her numbers ) - my doubling time is 33,84 hours and hers is 38,34 ... your figures are 72 hours - so that does seem slow, but I believe is still within the range that is OK (Mo can say more on that)....

Unfortunately, as painful as it is - none of it is in our hands. We can do our stimming, we can look after ourselves - but as soon as the "artificial" process begins, it is out of our hands. After transfer, we just have to pray that *this time* it works. It is part of the worst thing in this process - being utterly helpless and not able to influence anything

 

[MoBaby]

Numbers don't really tell us much but give a possible.... So like bubu said don't count yourself out! Yes for some reason I always have high hcgs but it means nothing because my hcg was higher last pregnancy and I had a mc. I also had very low hcg with the same out come so they are just numbers. Our bodies will do what it will do. There is a woman recently here (canamfam I think) who had very low initial betas, not doubling like they should and bleeding and at her 8 wk scan there was a a perfect bean there so anything is possible from this point forward. Hoping all is good tomorrow at your beta!

 

[Jenn76]

Honey wishing you good luck tomorrow!! Sorry this has been so stressful for you. Unfortunately none of us can tell you if this will be your forever baby. I've seen many people have low betas and carry to term so it's definitely possible. I always like to side with the positive, being an optimist. You are one amazingly strong lady and no matter what you will pull through. We are all rooting for you, and praying for a good outcome.

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Honey....Keeping everything crossed for you and as always you will be in my prayers.

 

[snd80]

Praying for you Honey!!!

Has anyone had THE worst moodiness ever through this!!! I mean I'm to the point where I'd rather slap some ppl than look at them or even hear their voices!!!! And my husband is the worst! EVERYTHING he does gets on my ever lasting nerves!!! And he does the stupidest shit ever, I swear!!! I'm like... REALLY?! I tell him he is like the only child who just found out a baby is on the way and is jealous! I swear he is gonna give me high blood pressure before this is all over!!!

Hope everyone else is well!!!

 

[Stinas]

Honey - best of luck tom!!! I agree with the other ladies, at this point there is nothing you can do but go with the flow. Pray for the best and don't stress yourself out!

snd - I wanted to shoot dh many times lol Everyone irritated me…..it just got worse for the next couple weeks.

Ladies I have this awful cough….i can't take it anymore I feel like crap!!! I knew DH would get me sick!
Any remedies? I want to avoid medicine, but if it keeps it up, ill take something tom.

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Im not sure if you can take vicks vapor rub but I heard that if you rub this on your feet and put socks over it your cough should ease up or even go away....again not sure when pregnant if you can put that on...I have been dying to try it out but luckily haven't been sick..lol

 

[Stinas]

Kathy - OMG I totally forgot about that remedy!!!! Going to read the back of it and see if I can use it.

 

[honeycheeks]

Stinas - It totally made me lol when you said "at this point there is nothing you can do but go with the "FLOW".

Well speaking of flow, I had considerably less bleeding yesterday. If I say it was a 9 on the day before, yesterday the bleeding was only a 2. I hope that makes some sense at all. But I was disappointed this morning to see more blood. But also I find the bleeding is a little more in the mornings than during the day. I have come up with a lousy explanation for it as well. I like to think it is because we have been lying flat all night and in the morning a little more comes out due to the gravity

Another thing was since late evening yesterday and all night I was sore around the ovaries and felt sore all over. And I have an unusual symptom everytime I am pregnant. I choke on food or water randomly. I had that too last night and well there is the back pain but I don't consider it much of a symptom as I have read that back pains are also a common symptom in miscarriages. Other than this I have absolutely no other symptoms. No sore boobs at all. I could crush them to death and feel no pain.

Yet I find myself getting my hopes up again. I was so wanting to do an hpt this morning. But I don't have more tests at home. I try not to keep too many tests at home since they usually drive me crazy. But I could use a test this morning.

I am now back home from the blood draw and will go in again in a couple of hours. I might break under the stress of not knowing.

 

[bubumaci]

Oh Honey, my fingers are tightly crossed for great results today!
I think the lying down / gravity idea is a sound explanation
If you are starting to feel a bit more confident, it's your gut, and that I would trust

 

[bubumaci]

On another note (I promised myself I wouldn't worry!!) ... On Monday evening I coughed and my left ovary started really really hurting ... hurt all night and a bit in the morning - and since then, the swollen, hurting ovary thing seems to have just disappeared. Is it possible of the OHSS symptoms (that comforted me, because it made me believe that everything was progressing normally - crazy, I know) to just disappear. I am still quite swollen ... not peeing quite as frequently (I think) and woke up an hour later this morning than the other crazy mornings. Had a seriously vivid dream (with my Mother in it). I thought it was a "good" sign, that I started feeling really tired yesterday. Midday, when I do my hypnotherapy, I more or less promptly fell asleep for the 20+ minutes of the MP3 (which is OK, subconsciously, it apparently works anyway) ... by 4 pm, I thought my head would fall on my desk and around 5:30 I lay down, was dozing when DH came home at 6 and then slept 1,5 hours (and had trouble getting up this morning)...

But the sudden disappearance of the OHSS symptoms (and the fact that my pee, that was smelling sweet-ish - doesn't seem to be doing that any more) just seems to be a bit weird?
OK - so I haven't had any other symptoms that could come or go. Boobs are slightly sore, but the same as normally before AF.

Is it normal for the OHSS symptoms to suddenly dissipate like that and for everything to still be OK? Other than a swollen belly, I feel nothing ...??

 

[Jenn76]

Bubu: Everything seems on par, especially the tiredness. You just gave me flashbacks to early my first tri. I never had OHSS so I'm not sure how long that will take to go away. I did have bloating until almost the end of my first trimester. Those who knew I did IVF kept telling me I was showing but it was all bloat. I even busted open a pair of pants and work from the a bloat. So embarrassing especially when it's still not known you are pregnant by others. OMG I am still over the moon with your results!!!!

 

[honeycheeks]

Hey Ladies. Thanks for all your prayers. I just got back from my beta. It was a super stressful day. And it got very late at the clinic as my files were misplaced or something. I was stressed like there is no tomorrow. By the time I was told my results, I was trembling with panic.

Unfortunately my levels aren't rising anymore. They are falling dramatically. I was stunned speechless though I knew not to get my hopes too high. Its just that I have an anxiety problem.

On the brighter side, I got referred to another specialist ER who takes an interest in "special" cases like me. I hope that opens some new doors for us.

Long story short, It is the end of yet another life that was never lived.

 

[Jenn76]

Snd: I had a lot of issues with DH during my pregnancy and it continues now. He can't do much right in my mind. I'm so frustrated by everything he does. Hopefully yours is just hormones that will pass.

Stinas: I had bronchitis during my pregnancy and couldn't take anything!!! It was horrible!!! Definitely ask your OB. Sorry you are sick.

Honey:

 

[bubumaci]

Honey - I really have no words. I am so very very sorry! I honestly hope that this specialist will bring the answer to you and will help you get your little miracle! I so wished that the results would be good for you today!!

 

[Jenn76]

Praying Bubu is right and a new specialist will be able to figure out how to stop these miscarriages. Infertility is hard enough to cope with I can't even imagine how hard it must be to keep having success with IVF and keep having it taken away from you.

 

[MoBaby]

Honey a new re sounds just what you need! Hopefully some testing can be done to figure out why your body doesn't want to hold into baby

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

I am so sorry Honey