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[ambertwogood]

As the title states, I'm pretty sure that I just have some serious line eye, but if you ladies could take a look at this slew of photo's and let me know what you are seeing on your end, that would be awesome!!! My last cycle ended in a the 2nd CP I've had in 3 months. I had a CP three months ago, a BFN cycle, then last cycle another CP, and it hit me hard this time. I was just completely gutted over it, which yes, I know it's a "normal' reaction to be upset over it, but have had numerous CP's and one MC in the past and I normally just take it stride and jump right back into the arena as soon as I get the green light on my fertile period. It wasn't like that this time. I was devastated, and wanted nothing to do with any of it anymore. I set CD1 on both my monitors when I began to bleed, but that was the only thing I did. I missed like almost 2 weeks of tests for the two monitors (a CBFM (old model) and a CBAFM (the touch screen one) ), I never even bothered to get out my BBT thermometer, let alone actually take a temp, I didn't check CP/CM, I didn't use my LH strips. I literally did NOTHING for most of this cycle. We Bd'd one time during this cycle. When I recorded the BD session, I realized that we just so happened to BD the day before/day of when I normally O- if I assume my O date bc of consistency of past charts and when I normally O. So when I realized that, the depression seemed to dissipate and I was instantly obsessing about TTC again. I thought I was taking a break this cycle, but when I realized that we might of actually timed things right, of course I got that spark of "hope" that "just maybe this is actually it" as if my life is some kind of fairy tale... lol. So I immediately dug out the arsenal of TTCing supplies and got to tracking/charting. I started using the monitors, even though I most likely have already O'd this cycle I got a LOT of highs from both of them, and today was the first day that I got a low on one of them, so I'm guessing that the highs were the monitors picking up on the secondary smaller estrogen surge directly after ovulation and then my slowly dwindling LH levels (I still haven't got a proper + LH strip or peak on the monitor, and am willing to bet I won't this cycle because it's already passed. BUT AF was actually due today according to FF and it's usually pretty dead on, the latest it's saying AF could/should be here is the 2nd. So I'm not really sure what to think about all of this. Since we did get in one BD session in that could of possibly been timed perfectly, if we have some luck on our side this month, I'm driving myself crazy. I'm doing wondfo LH strips, my CB OPK monitors (dual hormone) several PT's, etc. I feel like a lunatic, bc I've jumped in the deep end, having no clue where the hell I even am in my cycle this month. I could be waiting to O, I could of already O'd, I could be pregnant, we could of completely missed the boat, etc, etc. I'm going insane So, here are the two PT's I did this evening a SurePredict strip (2 of them) that are 10mIU (and are actually really sensitive, and not just claim to be) and a QuickVue (CLIA Waived, FDA approved, doctors office quality 20mIU PT that is a dual assay meaning I could use blood on it, if I wanted to, and with blood it is 10mIU or less) They also say in the instructions that if a line appears after the time frame, then you probably are pregnant, you just have levels lower then 20-25mIU. It actually says this in their paperwork, bc when they did their independent testing of them, when "evaps" appeared they were only coming up on women's test who actually were pregnant just still very very early. How neat! Also- They are double dye tests- the control line is blue, the test line is pink. I swear I see the fainest pink line on mine. But I don't want to even try to get excited or even be hopeful just bc one, I feel like I always can "something" and two with all the CP's I just can't handle it. I won't be able to believe it, if it does happen until I see a super dark line and a CB wks estimator digi that says "pregnant 1-2 wks" and then continues to progress accordingly. Thanks for all your help ladies, I have literally crawling out of my skin over here. And I do apologize for such a long post, if you have even made it this far

 

[ambertwogood]

And here are some more of the same three tests, just at different angles and lighting so hopefully I caught what I'm seeing and someone else see's it, and I'm not just willing a line to be there....

 

[ILoveme29]

im sorry hun, the lighting is not the best I can barely see anything, good luck to you though

 

[ambertwogood]

Anyone else? Maybe someone that can tweak them, or look at them through their PC and not a phone? Thank you for not reading and running, though, hun!

 

[Thegoodtwin]

I'm not seeing anything either but I'm on my phone. Sorry love

 

[ambertwogood]

Here are two ICON25 PT's from my FMU this morning. Again, I swear I can see a shadow, but I think I'm just having some wishful thinking/praying going on. lol

 

[gigglebox]

Not seeing it how long have you been trying? What dpo are you?

 

[ambertwogood]

This is month number 7 for our 2nd baby. It took over ten yrs to conceive the first, majority of that was NTNP, but about 3 yrs was active TTCing with all the stops pulled out. If you read the first post on here, your other question about where I'm at in my cycle can be answered. It's complicated and too much to rewrite

 

[Mrs.H2016]

Sorry o am not seeing anything either 😞

 

[minties]

I looked on phone and PC but can't see anything because of the shadow over all the pictures.

 

[MyFavSurprise]

I actually do see something on the purple tests, and those aren't very sensitive.. can you take one that is more sensitive? My lines this pregnancy started super light too, I could see them in person but not when I posted them. Good luck!

 

[Classic Girl]

That second purple/dollar tree test I think I see something on actually

 

[ambertwogood]

That isn't a dollar tree test, it's actually a doctors office grade test and they are really sensitive.

 

[ambertwogood]

They are called ICON25's

 

[MyFavSurprise]

Ohh how weird, it's the same casing as the Walmart 88 cent tests, they look identical when they're up close like that

 

[BlueMoonBubba]

I sort of see something on the purple cassette ones, good luck x

 

[Ibelieve2]

I can see something on the double dye test, hopefully it gets darker 😊

 

[bumbleberry]

I can slightly see something on the purple case one on the right... Good luck! x

 

[ambertwogood]

I'm not going to get my hopes up this cycle, as I have no clue what is going on. I'm almost 100% sure I've O'd already, as I had been getting High's on both my monitors and in the last two days they both have went down to lows, and stopped asking for sticks, so that pretty much indicates I O'd previous to starting to use them again. IF I actually am pregnant then I would of had to of O'd within the time frame of our one BD session this month, which was on the 24th of August (very early morning like 2 or 3am) Which makes sense, bc it's pretty consistent with past O dates as well. The lines on the Icon's are barely visible when they are still with in the time frame, but as they dry they become more visible. The thing with these tests though, is that the company even admits that if a line comes up well out of the time frame (even hrs and hrs later) that it is picking up hcg and it's not an evap, you just have very low levels and that continued testing (if it's a healthy pregnancy) will result in darker lines coming progressing and eventually popping up in the time frame. It actually says this inside the instruction/information/research result pamphlet that comes inside the box. Here is a pic of my last test. The line is definitely darker, but it still didn't get this visible until about 1 hr later. It is the darkest one I've got so far though. I just don't want to get my hopes up, bc even though the lab says that these tests don't get evaps, that a line is line, even hrs later, it's still in the back of my head that it didn't come up within the time limit and makes me think it's not real. I'm a little confused about it getting darker each test though.... Not really sure what to think though. Can everyone see this one, though? LOL

 

[ambertwogood]

And a few more PT "porn-pic's" These are three separate test. The two that say SMU on them and are harder to see the whatever it is in the test area line are from yesterday afternoon (9.1.16) and the test that is in the middle of most of the pics, or the one that has a way more visible "whatever line" is from just a few hrs ago, at about 3am (central standard time zone US, 9.2.16)

Really not sure what to make of this. I just can't even get excited about it, though. Not after having my soul crushed during this "Operation, Give LO a Sibling Journey" (about the joke, not the soul crushing part) I have gotten excited and built up so much hope, thinking each time that we had actually done it, only for it be over before it even started to really feel real or begin to even "be", that I just don't know what or how to feel about these lines. What would you ladies be thinking/doing/feeling?