Chilli
Very lucky Mum of 2 girls
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Some of you know my history briefly 2MMCs last year, chem year before, hard time getting pg this time round but thankfully beautiful 3 year old daughter too.
I haven't announced my pg really as I don't feel I can until I pass the 9 weeks mark at least. My MMCs died at 7.5 and 8.5 weeks. But I am nearly 6 weeks now. I thought I was ok and was so happy and surprised to get my BFP, but as time ticks by I'm getting more and more anxious. I was diagnosed with depression in Jan and have since been having counseling. I refused any drugs as was still TTC.
The last couple of days I can feel myself slipping away again, I've taken the day off work today because I just can't think straight and as I look after 30 kids I don't feel fit to work.
I'm having trouble sleeping and terrible graphic dreams. Meanwhile I'm checking every sympton all the time as I know that a lack of symptons would be bad news. I'm too scared to have any scans and just the thought of it makes me freeze.
I sound like a right fruitcake don't I? I just want a bit reassurance and understanding really.I just don't want to be consumed by the fear that it'll all end in tears again and I'll be back to the dark place I found myslef in after my MCs
I haven't announced my pg really as I don't feel I can until I pass the 9 weeks mark at least. My MMCs died at 7.5 and 8.5 weeks. But I am nearly 6 weeks now. I thought I was ok and was so happy and surprised to get my BFP, but as time ticks by I'm getting more and more anxious. I was diagnosed with depression in Jan and have since been having counseling. I refused any drugs as was still TTC.
The last couple of days I can feel myself slipping away again, I've taken the day off work today because I just can't think straight and as I look after 30 kids I don't feel fit to work.
I'm having trouble sleeping and terrible graphic dreams. Meanwhile I'm checking every sympton all the time as I know that a lack of symptons would be bad news. I'm too scared to have any scans and just the thought of it makes me freeze.
I sound like a right fruitcake don't I? I just want a bit reassurance and understanding really.I just don't want to be consumed by the fear that it'll all end in tears again and I'll be back to the dark place I found myslef in after my MCs