cdejdemommy
TTC Baby Three
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I'm going back and forth like some kind of maniac lately! I don't know what to do! At times I feel like crying at the mere thought of waiting any longer than 6 more months to TTC and then there are times that I'm wondering if I want a 3rd baby at all! Does anyone else suffer from these feelings like I do?
I know for sure that I don't want only 2 kids. I want 4 children for sure but it seems like the closer our TTC date gets the more scared I get about it! I know I should be an old hand at this TTC, pregnancy, childbirth, newborn - toddler care thing by now... but the simple truth is... I'm SCARED of the changes that a third baby will bring into our lives! I guess it is just fear of the unknown.
I'm scared that we won't have enough space, I'm afraid someone (either one of the kids or both or my husband) will be pushed to the back burner for a while and I don't like the thought of that because all 4 of us are so close and tight-knit right now. I'm afraid of being too tired to take care of 3 kids properly, I'm afraid I'll ditch furthering my education once again for the sake of being too busy taking care of a newborn... the list goes on and on!!
Someone... ANYONE please tell me it's going to be ok?!! I don't want to get my hopes up for 6 months or more and then still feel like I'm "not ready" when half of me is dying to be pregnant NOW and half of me is TERRIFIED of the prospect of another baby sometime in the near future!!
I know for sure that I don't want only 2 kids. I want 4 children for sure but it seems like the closer our TTC date gets the more scared I get about it! I know I should be an old hand at this TTC, pregnancy, childbirth, newborn - toddler care thing by now... but the simple truth is... I'm SCARED of the changes that a third baby will bring into our lives! I guess it is just fear of the unknown.
I'm scared that we won't have enough space, I'm afraid someone (either one of the kids or both or my husband) will be pushed to the back burner for a while and I don't like the thought of that because all 4 of us are so close and tight-knit right now. I'm afraid of being too tired to take care of 3 kids properly, I'm afraid I'll ditch furthering my education once again for the sake of being too busy taking care of a newborn... the list goes on and on!!
Someone... ANYONE please tell me it's going to be ok?!! I don't want to get my hopes up for 6 months or more and then still feel like I'm "not ready" when half of me is dying to be pregnant NOW and half of me is TERRIFIED of the prospect of another baby sometime in the near future!!