PND Support Thread

[AP]

Im on 20mg Fluoxetine. I havent even taken them for a week straight since having them. Im bloody awful.

 

[Raggydoll]

Im on 20mg Fluoxetine. I havent even taken them for a week straight since having them. Im bloody awful.

Are they still giving you heartburn? Could you get prescribed something else?

 

[Raggydoll]

Does this ever get better, I'm so tired of fighting this depression. I have a run of good days then suddenly I'm back where I started.

I feel like I'm cheating Kate of the happy mum she deserves.

 

[AP]

Raggydoll thats what I hate - you think you've got to an ok place and then it hits you again!

Yeah I really should although i have just figured now if i take one after dinner it a lot easier?

 

[babynewbie]

girls can i ask, who did you talk to at first? as in telling someone you think you have pnd? coz ive not long moved towns and only seen my doctor twice and he a strange man, not one for a conversation. and ive had 3 different HVs so not really like i 'know' them enough that i feel i can talk to them im dont really know what to do, but im fed up of feeling like this

 

[MiissMuffet]

Thanks guys. I have a history of mental headcase crap, and then had a very traumatic birth and have been diagnosed with ptsd and pnd, i just had a sych person from plunket here just now she just left. i had to do an assessment and she said i have the highest score of anyone she has diagnosed I feel so terrible i just want to enjoy my little girl. i love her to pieces, i just can't feel happy, i really thought i would feel much better when she was born, but instead the anxiety and panic attacks increased and now i have sunken into a deep depression where i cant eat, sleep, go out, i cry, I even have moments i hate the doctor at the hospital because i had a 2 and a half litre bleed with is very dangerous and he saved my life, so sometimes i hate him for stopping the bleed. At the same time I love Ella to pieces i make sure she is looked after and everything is done for her, even if i am crying when i do it.

I didn't have to go and seek help. i didn't want it, i wouldn't admit it. it was because my midwife picked up on it as i was having panic attacks and visions from the birth and then it escalated into this and she got a sych team in and referred me to 2 different sych places, i didnt want any of this but now i have to admit that yes i do have an illness and i'm not well, as i used to deny any thing i felt but now that its got so bad i have to seek help as i need to be strong for my daughter.

I was on fluoxitine 20mg since i was 18 before i was pregnant, which didn't help at all whatsoever, it's like the base antidepressant they will start people on for mild depression, it was weak and hopeless i may as well been taking sugar pills. I'm now on citalopram and quetiapine- the quetiapine i just take when i need it if I have an anxiety/panic attack.

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hugs to everyone who needs them, looks like we are all having a rough time xx

I felt i was coming on, then i moved back in with my parents andbam back at square one!!
Wish the council would hurry and rehouse me need my own space and sharing a room with my 2 kids aint helping xx

 

[babynewbie]

oh ive had such a bad day today. im not too sure wether to scream, cry, shout, crumble or do all at once i feel so alone. garrr thank god for archie, dunno what id do if he wasnt here to smile at me everyday.

hope you ladies are ok

 

[xerinx]

Well im trying to come off my pills as although they are working i dont feel 'right' on them its kinda like im numb!!

I havent taken mine for 3 days now and the 1st day i was a complete b***h!! But yesterday i felt fine and so far today i do too

Im hoping that this is the start to recovery and i can be beck to me again

 

[AP]

erin i felt numb too. Really empty inside. I had no idea what I was here for. I felt like I had no feelings. That sounds silly huh?

 

[xerinx]

Thats the thing hun it doesnt sound silly to me at all. It exactly how i was feeling. So far so good off the pills but i do have them near by just incase i have a break down again.

I just didnt like feeling like i wasnt me anymore. I just wanna be me!!

 

[Raggydoll]

to all that need them.

Babynewbie I'm sorry you feel alone, there are always people on here to talk to. This forum is great.

Erin I know what you mean about the numb feeling on the tablets. I had that when I was on Citalopram a few years ago.

I'm still trying to get some control over my feelings with the tablets. My CPN wants to increase my citalopram from 40mg to 60 but I feel this is going to be too much, plus everytime my dose gets increased I have the worst days.

My GP has been fab and sending me for blood tests for anemia, (I had to have a 3 unit blood transfusion after I had kate) Thyroid and B12.

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hugs to everyone

I have never had my tablets increased i have stayed on 20mg dunno if perhaps i need them increased or not.

I have forgotton what ME feels like, i want to be the happy carefree woman i used to be.

 

[Raggydoll]

Hugs to everyone

I have never had my tablets increased i have stayed on 20mg dunno if perhaps i need them increased or not.

I have forgotton what ME feels like, i want to be the happy carefree woman i used to be.

I know that feelling to well. She's still there hun.

Do you feel any better on the dose you're on?

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hugs to everyone

I have never had my tablets increased i have stayed on 20mg dunno if perhaps i need them increased or not.

I have forgotton what ME feels like, i want to be the happy carefree woman i used to be.

I know that feelling to well. She's still there hun.

Do you feel any better on the dose you're on?

I have good days and bad days.......some days i feel on top of the world and other days i feel like crap!! Going to give it another week then perhaps go back to the doctor!

How you doing?

 

[trashit]

I think i have PND but im scared to tell people how i feel. Cos looking on here, none of you think the bad thoughts i think, so now i feel even worse.

 

[MiissMuffet]

I think i have PND but im scared to tell people how i feel. Cos looking on here, none of you think the bad thoughts i think, so now i feel even worse.

best too ask for help hun. I have screwed up thoughts too. sometimes i hate the doctor coz he saved my life. i lost 2 and a half litres of blood which is dangerous and sometimes i wish that he had never stopped the bleed

 

[xerinx]

I have terrible thoughts hun... its not about wanting to hurt myself or baby but i constantly worry that someone else is gonna hurt my baby. I have nightmares every night about it and have day dreams about it too. I get that bad that i see everything and feel it too. Ive been known to lay in bed crying because i could see myself at logans funeral.

I found it was my tablets that caused this tho and since ive come off them i feel normal again.

I really urge you to get help now before it gets soo much worse hun. There are some really good doctors and health visitors out there you just need to ask for help. x x

 

[AP]

trashit you'd be surprised. I only talk of so much here in fear that some outside sod can read this and think"what a fruitcake". Speak to your GP, you will be surprised. I know I was. I thought she'd take the piss tbh but she seemed so knowledgable and made me feel'normal' xxxxxxxxxx

PS I agree with erin, dont leave it. I did and i let it all come down on me. I only gave in about a few weeks ago and you know alex is an auld bird!

 

[trashit]

Thankyou dears Makes me feel slightly better, the HV is coming tomorrow and my mums coming to make sure i tell her everything (cos im not good at stuff like that, at all.) I'm scared they'll lock me away or something!