PND Support Thread

[Emma91]

That is exactly how I feel and why Im afraid to talk about it or tell anyone because I feel people will think Im attention seeking. I know I need to sort this out but Im scared.

 

[mightyspu]

people can think what they want to. You know that you are not feeling this way for kicks and that you would love for life to be all rosy, but it's not that simple is it? Your GP should not think you are a bad mum or attention seeking, they are fully aware that mums get depression.

 

[Emma91]

I'm going to book to see my GP monday. I'm sick of feeling like this

 

[mightyspu]

good on you! Will you let us know how it went?

 

[Luke's_mummy]

I'm really struggling at the moment, I'm really Ill with flu and so is Luke and I just feel like shit about it, I just feel like i should be able to cope and get over myself and get on with taking care of him but I'm really struggling because I'm feeling so unwell. I feel like a shit mother for not being able to do everything for once. I hate this!

 

[mightyspu]

Oh you poor thing, flu's bad enough without having to watch your lo suffe too. is there someone that can take him for an hour so you can get a bit of rest, or a bath? Try not to feel bad about not coping, you are coping! It's just hard to see when you feel low and crappy. Have you been taking paracetemol and drinking plenty of fluids? feel better soon.

 

[Emma91]

I finally got a doctors appointment this afternoon. He put me on 10 day worth of anti depresants and to go see him in a week to see how im getting on. My health visitor rang and said she will see me and do a home visit on thursday. I feel so crap i just cant stop crying and my Bf isnt even here to comfort me

 

[helen0381]

I posted this in Health and Wellbeing but thought I would post it here too..

For ages now I havent felt like myself. I had PND after having JAck last year, I was put on Citalopram, which didnt seem to do much. I came off them in May and was ok for a bit. I was diagnosed with a Vitamin B12 deficiancy last November and since then been having injections every 3 months. I started feeling a bit better at first, not as tired or moody etc then the last few months Ive put on weight, feel knackered, have no energy, totally unmotivated, zero sex drive and achy all the time. Im at the doctors again tomorrow but they just keep fobbing me off. Im sick to death of feeling like this, Ive turned into a horrible person, snappy all the time, emotional, im a complete bitch to my DH, im surprised he hasnt left me yet! Its affecting every part of my life including work. Im so sick of being this horrible person. I was never like this before having Jack. Its seriously affecting my marriage. My OH has had enough. Has anyone else felt like this. Im hoping they will find something wrong cos this cant be who Ive turned into....

Please can someone offer some advice

Helen
xxx

 

[ALY]

hello everyone

i dont know many people in here now

but just wanted to send you all and say it does get better may not feel like it at the time but it does

if anyone wants to talk to me just pm me and i will be happy to listen

im still not off my anti ds but am feeling much better abut myself still have bad times but not as bad as what they were

sending big

 

[mightyspu]

Hello! Am also on anti d's and have been for nearly a month. It does get better ladies.

I can be hideous to dh, I seriously wonder why he hasn't chucked me sometimes! But I think he realises that life wasn't going to be all rosy with a new baby.

I think I was lucky with my gp, they were sympathetic and I didn't feel fobbed off like you are feeling, Helen. don't take no for an answer, get the help you need. You deserve to be happy.

Anyone can PM me if they need a chat/rant. I am not professing to have all the answers, but I have been there (not PND, just regular depression) and have a sympathetic ear!

 

[sarah0108]

i need to ask because i darent go..

what happens when you see the Dr. what do you say. what happens!
im so nervous, i have no idea how id come out with it. id feel so silly and im convinced they will say im overreacting and its nothing.
i have no-one IRL to tell either.

so confused. i keep making excuses as to how im feeling but its getting bad now.
i wont bore you with the details

 

[mightyspu]

I felt silly too, like the doc would tell me stop attention seeking! But really, he was very nice. He wasn't my regular doc either but she was lovely when I saw her later.

Just tell them how you feel. I felt daft saying 'I think I have depression', but that's what I ended up doing. You know that something is not right, so try and pin point what is abnormal for you and tell them that. It's hard, because for some reason we try and soldier on, and try not to admit there are problems in the hope that they will pass.

Hope this helps. And don't worry about 'boring' us with the details, we are here to support, so get it off your chest girl!

 

[Raggydoll]

everyone,

Mummy2b17, it's awful when your feeling ill especially when you are already feeling low. I hope you feel better soon.

Emma91 - Glad you went to see your doctor. This thread is great if you have any questions or just need to talk.

Thanks Aly & Mightyspu for your posts. I remember in the early days everyone kept saying it would get better but it was hard to believe but it really does.

Sarah don't be worried about talking to your doctor. I've had a lot of understanding and support from them. Just let them know how you've been feeling.

Helen, hope your doctors appointment went ok, have you had your thyroid tested as some of your symptoms sound like an under active thyroid. I've got an over active thyroid and have been told this could be linked to my depression.

Feeling a bit nrevous at the moment as my doctor wants to start reducing my medication. I'm just worried that I'll start feeling low again if I start reducing. Also, it sounds daft but I'm getting really worried about winter. I can remember last winter as soon as it started getting darker I could feel a sense of dread coming over me. I usually really love the winter.

 

[helen0381]

Hello Raggydoll,

Well, I went to the docs and I was only in there 30 seconds before I burst into tears and told her everything. She has put me back on Anti-depressants, some stronger ones this time. Im also having my bloods done tomorrow just for peace of mind really for me. I just want to make sure theres nothing else going on. Im just going to keep on these tablets for as long as it takes this time, think I came off them too quick before, then my parents seperated and I have taken this quite badly.
I hope you feel ok, I know what you mean about winter, the dark nights can get me down too. Thats why im relieved in a way that im off back on them.

Hope everyone feels ok today. Going to the doctors and talking about it certainly helps things though.

xxx

 

[helen0381]

Oh, the doc has given me Venlafaxine 75mg, is anyone taking these at the moment, how are you getting on with them and did you get any side affects??

xx

 

[maccy]

Helen, what you said on the previous page, sounded exactly like me, my LO is 15months now and I am still struggling, I was doing ok from about the age 9months to 13months but my husbands firm went into administration and last week we had some bad news about a family member and I had to ID the body. Now I am just beside myself with worry, upset, I am narky and nasty to the kids and hubby, I want to be like the old me but have no clue how to get there, I don't want meds as my husband is on them, and has anxiety disorder and I am meant to be the strong one...what an awful illness, I sympathise with everyone on here I really do. xxx

 

[helen0381]

Yea I didn't particularly want to go back on them either but I'm just so fed up of feeling like this I need to do something to make me feel better about myself. I think I came off them too quick, I just need to get sorted because we really want another baby next year but we can't while I'm like this. It is so hard but I'm really determined to get through this for my familys sake. It might be worth you going just to speak to someone about how u feel though.

How awful for you going through what you have too. Xxx

 

[xTaylorsMummy]

my tablets have been up to 30g, but i feel like im not on them! is this normal? im still really moody and angry :;(

 

[mightyspu]

Which ones are you on? Mine can take a while to kick in (fluoxetine) how long have you been on the increased dose? sorry it's not working, must be so frustrating.

 

[xTaylorsMummy]

been on the upped does for 2weeks ish, been on all together about 5months im on clitophram ?