PND Support Thread

[Raggydoll]

Hi Aliss, how are you doing today. Sorry you had such a rough time.

It's almost harder after you've had a period of up days to have a down day but you will get through it.

I understand how you feel about the birth. My actual C Section was fine but I had a PPH and had a blood transfusion. I've never felt so ill in my life. It's when things started to go wrong for me. I'd love another but it's only recently I can even start to think of it as a possibility. I know I'm going to have to come to terms with the birth before it becomes a reality though. Are you seeing a counsellor?

 

[Raggydoll]

this last week has been awful for me. i don't know where to go from here. i've been on 3 different types of ad and each time i've changed meds i've kept the left overs of the old ones. i've contemplated many times taking them all. i feel desperate. my husband is very supportive but i can't be completely honest with him as i don't want him to worry about me. today when i was driving down a country lane i seriously considered driving my car off the road and into a tree; the only reason i didn't is because my baby was in the car too and he doesn't deserve that. wtf am i doing with my life? i hate being a 'mum', i hate not coping and i hate everything about me at the moment. my situation isn't as bad as others who post on here but i am desperate and only clinging on by a thread

Is there anybody you can talk to tonight. I've been there hun, it's not that I wanted to end my life, I just wanted to escape the pain of the depression. There is help out there and it will get better but you really need to talk to a doctor.

Can you ask your husband to look after your meds. I know it's hard hun but try and remove any temptation to hurt yourself.

 

[Raggydoll]

I have been feeling detached from my baby recently, to the point where I was alone with her all day today, and I felt like I was babysitting someone else's baby. I felt guilty for feeling this way.

I am a SAHM, so it's hard to just be me and her 24/7... DH isn't much help b/c he's so wrapped up in work lately.

finally I got out of the house today after DH came home. I felt better when I got home, but I still feel distant.

does it get better?

**I already take antidepressants

It does get better but it does take time. It's really good your getting out and about. Are there any groups you can join? I found baby massage and music groups really good.

Have your doctors offered any other support?

 

[Raggydoll]

Hey all,

I've posted on here before but never really done anything but just wanted to update that i am finally going to get help. I have a doctors appt tuesday as i finally have realised that i haven't been myself since i had my child and it's taken me this long to realise it. Since he ws born my moods have been ever changeable. I started off by going completely off the rails and realising my husband wasn't the one for me, chucked him out and had a few months of being quite promiscuious then i met another man and he has since moved in who i am still with. All through these months i am constantly on edge, always have the feeling people are digging at me or hate me and i'm ashamed to say it but some days i have little patience with my son and have a couple of times had to take him to his dad as i've felt so worthless.

The last few weeks have defintely told me that something is wrong. I've felt low constantly and had no energy to do anything like keeping the flat clean (which i am always so hot on) and i've dropped from 10 stone to 8 stone nothing in very little time, i rarely eat as food doesn't appeal to me anymore. i'm constantly on edge about nothing, very hard to explain.

then i've suddenly become angry. I've never been an angry person in my life but when i argue now i have urges to hit people (NEVER my son thank god, he is the only one that i can turn to and hug and it makes everything better for a bit) but my partner for sure and that's not me. it's like i'm a differentperson. I've always been calm and the one that sorts things out so i've finally decided to take the step and talk...

i will update on this and hopefully if things get better for me i can be there to talk to others about it. All i can say is don't let it go on so long or fool yourself into thinking other people have caused you to changr or find something else to blame. if you ever feel the way i do talk and ask for help. depression isn't a sign of weakness, there is something wrong and don't try to be strong and bottle it up, it doesn't work and it gets more severe and you end up hating yourself.

x

Good luck with your appointment Tuesday. You've made such a big step getting help and writing this down.

Maybe take a print of what you've written here. There is some really good support out there. I hope things start getting better for you.
x

 

[pansylove]

What meds have you ladies got? I have been given Citalopram and just wondering if that's a common thing to be put on, or whether other people have been started with something different?
Also any experiences on it, does it help etc?

 

[phuzz82]

never hear of that. i've had setriline, paroxitine and venlalic.

 

[Vicks]

Hey hun. I was on Citalopram for nearly a year. I've read about quite a few people taking it for PND, it took a while to work and for me to get used to it, but really helped me.
x

 

[becs0375]

Right where to start!

My beautiful Hope was born via forceps delivery, which I had an episiotomy and a borderline 4th degree tear, very traumatic for me, lost quite a bit of blood and didn't get my first cuddle with Hope till she was about 4 hours old due to being in theatre being stitched up.

I guess my feelings have been a gradual thing, today everything has come to head for me.

I feel angry towards my husband and resentful in someways that he gets a break from homelife by going to work, silly I know as he is envious that I get to spend all my time with Hope. I feel like I snap at the most silly of things. Loneliness, headaches, wishing I was somewhere else, useless, failure, can't cope. I just feel like I muddle through each day guessing what Hope wants and needs, I have lost it twice with her, both times she has been under her gym screaming and I shout at her to shut up, then I cry and get all upset. I don't know whether I am coming or going and some days are alot harder than others. I can't bare my husband touching me, paying me compliments and I have no sex drive.

I hate, hate, hate feeling like this, I am screaming inside for someone to help me but the words won't come out. I have told my husband how I feel and I have tried to tell my Mum. I feel so guilty and sometimes I feel like I could walk out the door and keep on walking.

I feel like I am going mad inside.

Sorry for my rambling!

 

[Raggydoll]

What meds have you ladies got? I have been given Citalopram and just wondering if that's a common thing to be put on, or whether other people have been started with something different?
Also any experiences on it, does it help etc?

Hi Hun,

I was on Citalopram a few years ago for depression and it worked really well.

I was also put on it for PND but it wasn't the right medication this time. I'm now on Venlafaxine.

Be prepared for the first few days after you start taking it you can feel really bad, it can then take a few weeks before you start to feel the tablets take effect. Take each day at a time and keep in touch with your GP or HV.

I hope you're feeling better soon. x

 

[Raggydoll]

Right where to start!

My beautiful Hope was born via forceps delivery, which I had an episiotomy and a borderline 4th degree tear, very traumatic for me, lost quite a bit of blood and didn't get my first cuddle with Hope till she was about 4 hours old due to being in theatre being stitched up.

I guess my feelings have been a gradual thing, today everything has come to head for me.

I feel angry towards my husband and resentful in someways that he gets a break from homelife by going to work, silly I know as he is envious that I get to spend all my time with Hope. I feel like I snap at the most silly of things. Loneliness, headaches, wishing I was somewhere else, useless, failure, can't cope. I just feel like I muddle through each day guessing what Hope wants and needs, I have lost it twice with her, both times she has been under her gym screaming and I shout at her to shut up, then I cry and get all upset. I don't know whether I am coming or going and some days are alot harder than others. I can't bare my husband touching me, paying me compliments and I have no sex drive.

I hate, hate, hate feeling like this, I am screaming inside for someone to help me but the words won't come out. I have told my husband how I feel and I have tried to tell my Mum. I feel so guilty and sometimes I feel like I could walk out the door and keep on walking.

I feel like I am going mad inside.

Sorry for my rambling!

You are definitely not going mad. It sounds like you had a really traumatic time.

Would you be able to speak to a GP or HV? They will be able to provide you with the right support.

If your having a hard time expaining how you feel maybe you could show your mum/husband what you have written here. I found it so hard to explain what I was feeling, I felt trapped inside my own head and often felt like I wanted to escape. I also used to feel ashamed of having PND. Once my family knew what I was feeling they were the most amazing support.

Don't feel guilty for how you are feeling, these feelings are completely out of your control. If you want to chat feel free to PM me.

Take care. x

 

[becs0375]

Thank you, glad I am not going mad!!!

I am going to try and get an appointment to see my GP tomorrow, failing that I have my follow up appointment at the hospital to check that I am all healed!

I have had depression before and when I have felt it come back in the past I had learnt how to deal with it so it didn't get so bad but this is something else.

 

[Raggydoll]

Thank you, glad I am not going mad!!!

I am going to try and get an appointment to see my GP tomorrow, failing that I have my follow up appointment at the hospital to check that I am all healed!

I have had depression before and when I have felt it come back in the past I had learnt how to deal with it so it didn't get so bad but this is something else.

I've suffered from depression before but PND really was something else. My sister had PND and kept telling me it does get better. It sort of became my mantra! But she was right, it really does get better.

Hope you manage to get an appointment. x

 

[chloe85]

Sertraline,weightgain and
Hi all just wondering if anyone else is on sertraline? I have been on 50mg's since my son was 8 weeks old for PND and anxiety I've put on so much weight it's really got me down and I can't understand why I walk everywhere and I eat less than I used to has anyone else put weight on? we have also just had a MC and I'm wondering if this too could be down to sertraline I'm slowly starting to come off them now I just hope I don't relapse x

 

[Raggydoll]

Sertraline,weightgain and
Hi all just wondering if anyone else is on sertraline? I have been on 50mg's since my son was 8 weeks old for PND and anxiety I've put on so much weight it's really got me down and I can't understand why I walk everywhere and I eat less than I used to has anyone else put weight on? we have also just had a MC and I'm wondering if this too could be down to sertraline I'm slowly starting to come off them now I just hope I don't relapse x

Hi,

I'm not on the same medication as you so I can only really advise speaking to your GP. They may want to do some blood work to check there are no underlying factors.

x

 

[chloe85]

Sertraline,weightgain and
Hi all just wondering if anyone else is on sertraline? I have been on 50mg's since my son was 8 weeks old for PND and anxiety I've put on so much weight it's really got me down and I can't understand why I walk everywhere and I eat less than I used to has anyone else put weight on? we have also just had a MC and I'm wondering if this too could be down to sertraline I'm slowly starting to come off them now I just hope I don't relapse x

Hi,

I'm not on the same medication as you so I can only really advise speaking to your GP. They may want to do some blood work to check there are no underlying factors.

x

I've been today lol she did say that it could cause weightgain but could also cause weight lose but she think's I may have a problem with my thyroid x

 

[Mummy2aStar]

I need advice
My friend has just been diagnoised with severe PND, she has two young boys, and a small circle of support.She has been in regular contact with HV and DR, she's on anti depressants and diazepam, I saw her yesterday, and she's been telling me that she has been hearing voices, and that she just wants to end it all. The change in her is dramatic, and too see her so scared, is worrying. She's a fantastic mum. I rang her dr for her yesterday, who came to her house, and got her and appointment with the physcatrist late yesterday afternoon, I dont know how that went till I see her today.

For all of you who have had severe PND, and have come out the other side, please tell me what support got you through it, and what you did To help you, she's In a bad way, and I just want to help her get better, but I don't know how.

Xx

 

[becs0375]

I need advice
My friend has just been diagnoised with severe PND, she has two young boys, and a small circle of support.She has been in regular contact with HV and DR, she's on anti depressants and diazepam, I saw her yesterday, and she's been telling me that she has been hearing voices, and that she just wants to end it all. The change in her is dramatic, and too see her so scared, is worrying. She's a fantastic mum. I rang her dr for her yesterday, who came to her house, and got her and appointment with the physcatrist late yesterday afternoon, I dont know how that went till I see her today.

For all of you who have had severe PND, and have come out the other side, please tell me what support got you through it, and what you did To help you, she's In a bad way, and I just want to help her get better, but I don't know how.

Xx

No words of advice but I am sure having a friend like you is a blessing. I have just beein diagnosed with PND, good luck and I hope she gets the help she needs xxx

 

[newmommy23]

I'm really afraid of how I'm feeling. My medicaid got canceled with no warning and I'm just...this is really hard with no meds

 

[Mummy2aStar]

I'm really afraid of how I'm feeling. My medicaid got canceled with no warning and I'm just...this is really hard with no meds

Hugs hun x

 

[Raggydoll]

I'm really afraid of how I'm feeling. My medicaid got canceled with no warning and I'm just...this is really hard with no meds

Hey Hun, sorry I don't know how healthcare works in the US. Do you have supportive family/friends around you.
Take each day at a time and keep talking.
Is there any way you can get your Medicaid back due to your depression.

Take care. X