Told myself I was stupid for doing it but all I could think of was how these clothes were supposed to be for our other kids, not for other people's kids. I used to feel like when I got rid of the clothes it meant I was giving up on having more babies. But I'm not giving up, I'm just deciding that "things" are just things, and I don't need to be attached to all those things. I love my little family! I'm still trying to expand it, but in the meantime, I'm going to enjoy us and the freedom we have, and will really enjoy not having to move and store all this stuff. It's such a weight seeing all that stuff. I've got pictures, I have memories, and I have a fabulous 5 year old. The rest doesn't matter. 
Ok there's my journal entry for today LOL. 
Yeah I took the pic with my camera phone but you can see three pink lines in person my bff saw it was like "how is that even possible" But I know its a faulty test because it was BFN on the next test with the same urine.
I had a little cry over the clothes and I'm not even to the little ones yet!
sorry ladies...I am here. My head as pounding yesterday from the time i woke up to the time I went to bed last night. I have migraines, and since we are TTC I don't take my Rx (Relpax). Which means I have to suffer through it and pray it off, or go to the hospital and get that horrible shot that makes me feel like I am on drugs and about to die. Hospital wasn't an option. So I chose to suffer and pray it off.
It's a sick cruel joke that First Response is playing on me!! Why can't things be easier? When I saw that stupid dot I could have had a cow. maybe I should take a TTC break or something. But every time I have mentioned it DH seems a little bothered by that.
