redneckhippy
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Hello. So I have my anatomy scan on Monday. We went through a lot to get pregnant (IVF, etc) and I almost lost the baby in the first trimester, so I feel like I'm a horrible person because after all that I should just be happy to be where I am and not care and I AM happy to be where I am and at the end of the day I do just want a healthy baby, but I know that if I find out it's a girl on Monday, the first feeling I'm going to have is disappointment. Which makes me feel absolutely terrible. I have this fear that I'm going to be punished with a baby with health problems or something becuase I should just be happy it's healthy and not care about the gender. But I can't help, I just have felt like it's a boy the whole time and when I think about the baby I think of a boy and refer to it as a boy. The thought of having a girl is really scary to me. I know I can raise a boy and relate to a boy, but I feel like I wouldn't know what to do with a girl.
The main reason I'm finding out the gender is so that when my baby is born the first thing I feel isn't disappointment if it's a girl. I don't want to feel this way at all I just can't help it. How do I prepare myself so that I can be excited either way at the ultrasound?
The main reason I'm finding out the gender is so that when my baby is born the first thing I feel isn't disappointment if it's a girl. I don't want to feel this way at all I just can't help it. How do I prepare myself so that I can be excited either way at the ultrasound?