i have never tried preseed. im out for this month. just starting my two week wait but if the witch arrives the end of the month ill try it next month. fingers crossed for everybody
GARGH!!!
Plunged into the pits of utter despair, the doctor won't refer me to the fertility clinic, i'm overweight!!
Admitedly yes i am larger than the average bear, but i always have been, it's not an excuse it's my shape! I eat three square meals a day, don't snack and get an average amount of excercice, to be put on a referral i'm going to have to lose about 3 or 4 stone, which will take me down to a weight that i haven't been since i was about 12 years old!!!!!
I feel so horrible.
So today, I'm 9DPO, my temps are still up so I tested with a first response digital and it came back negative. I figure I'm not out until AF shows up!
Not really 'health reasons' it's their policy to not give fertility treatment to people with a BMI over 30, i suppose in the same way that transplant patients who smoke/drink/eat unhealthily are refused their transplants.
What kills me is that my BMI has NEVER been under 30, it's the way i'm built, i take after my grandmother's side of the family. There was a time about 10 years ago where i used to go to the gym 4 or 5 times a week, and ate very little. The only thing to come out of that was that i got a little bit 'toned', i was still a size 18 (uk) and had a BMI of 32 i really don't think it's physically possible for me to be the weight they want me to be and still be 'healthy'.
Argh!
Anyway, i had my moment of madness, cried bucketloads, DH hugged me and tried applying some of his logic to the situation, then suggested we book a holiday to somewhere we've always wanted to go New York! He works with the theory that as soon as you start making plans that having a baby would severly scupper the little buggers decide to show up. I like that theory.
soooo i'm kinddd of freaking out here! i hadnt gotten my crosshairs yet so i was fiddling around with FF and put in a temp for tomorrow just to see if i could expect them tomorrow and they popped up! only...it told me i Od on cd22. we BD on cd's 18, 19, 20, and 21. i'm so scared we missed it. i knowwww that can live up to like 3 (?) days in there but STILL! i wanted to make sure there was no way i COULDNT get PG. hmph. i'm bummed. and i know i'm probably being silly! but i cant help but be a little sad. i'm already telling myself i'm out.