For the second time, breastfeeding really isn't working and it's breaking my heart I have spent most of today in tears because I can't bear the thought of giving up but by this stage things really should have improved. By carrying on I'm feeling like I'm being a bad mum because Rowan is constantly hungry and putting on weight very, very slowly and I can't really give my daughter the attention or time she deserves. Ironically she gets the majority of my attention when he is feeding (so that's a lot) but there's only so much I can do with her whilst he is strapped to me (mainly reading or chatting with her). I intended to take them out this morning to the park or into town but Rowan started feeding at 7am and wailed and sucked his fist after every feed until 11.30 when I finally managed to put him down and rock him to sleep. He only slept for 30 minutes then wanted feeding again! He typically feeds for at least 40 minutes on one side, then 40 minutes on the other. Very occasionally this will be enough to keep him going for between 20 and 90 minutes. Usually he will need both sides again... so it's about an hour and a half feeding, then 30 minutes break and another one and a half hours feeding. He feeds less between midnight and 7ish but still wakes a couple of times and feeds for about an hour each time. I think I have tried every piece of advice out there, including taking fenugreek tablets. I did think I had noticed an improvement in the number of times I hear swallowing but the feeds have got even more constant if anything. He's due a weigh-in tomorrow so I'm going to wait til then but I know I'm going to have to start making some decisions. Last time round I perservered breastfeeding and topping up with formula until 4 months but I became so depressed about my failure. I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get like that this time round but I can feel all those negative emotions setting in already.