Hey girls.
I decided to type this out on here cos I don't have anyone to talk to that will understand like you guys will.
I have wanted a baby for a year and a half now and I have never had a desire to want something this much. Each month, I find myself disappointed as I always hope there is a chance for me. I'm fed up of waiting, it hurts so so much. It really does crush me. I'd do anything to have our own little baby. I want to go through it all and experience every little thing.
Basically I'm really upset because my fiance and I discussed yesterday when we would like to start trying and he told me we will start within 6-8 months. And I was really happy about that because I had a set kind of time which isn't too far away.
Anyway, I speak to him about it today and I say to him something along the lines of 'So we're going to be trying within 6-8 months.. I can't wait!' and he turns around to me and says 'Actually we'll wait a year or two..'
It hit me so hard. I asked him why he keeps saying something and going back on it.. and he said 'Well I don't mind if it happens now, but I think we should wait for another year or two'
Okay, fair enough, I respect his decisions. What upsets me is that he said something which he knows means a lot to me.. and then changes it.
He's also been doing this with the contraception thing. We usually use condoms and he's usually like 'We must use protection, we can't risk getting pregnant yet' but lately he's been like 'Don't worry about condoms, if it happens, it happens.'
He knows how much being pregnant would mean to me and I feel like he's being unfair with the way he keeps changing his mind. I've spoken to him about it and he said that he's a bit confused with how he feels about it. He wants one very badly too, but just doesn't know when the best time would be.. It's not one-sided, as I know it probably sounds.
Anyway, after this happened.. I walked out the room and broke down into tears for ages.
It means so much to me and I feel so so upset about this. I can't even sleep properly anymore because I want a baby that badly. I'm sick of feeling like this, it's taking over my whole life.
I don't want you guys to think I'm the only one who wants to be pregnant out of both of us and that I'm being selfish because I'm not. We both had agreed to start trying for a baby.
I'm so sorry for the rant, I just needed to get it off my chest.
Do any of you know what I can do to stop me feeling so sad?
I decided to type this out on here cos I don't have anyone to talk to that will understand like you guys will.
I have wanted a baby for a year and a half now and I have never had a desire to want something this much. Each month, I find myself disappointed as I always hope there is a chance for me. I'm fed up of waiting, it hurts so so much. It really does crush me. I'd do anything to have our own little baby. I want to go through it all and experience every little thing.
Basically I'm really upset because my fiance and I discussed yesterday when we would like to start trying and he told me we will start within 6-8 months. And I was really happy about that because I had a set kind of time which isn't too far away.
Anyway, I speak to him about it today and I say to him something along the lines of 'So we're going to be trying within 6-8 months.. I can't wait!' and he turns around to me and says 'Actually we'll wait a year or two..'
It hit me so hard. I asked him why he keeps saying something and going back on it.. and he said 'Well I don't mind if it happens now, but I think we should wait for another year or two'
Okay, fair enough, I respect his decisions. What upsets me is that he said something which he knows means a lot to me.. and then changes it.
He's also been doing this with the contraception thing. We usually use condoms and he's usually like 'We must use protection, we can't risk getting pregnant yet' but lately he's been like 'Don't worry about condoms, if it happens, it happens.'
He knows how much being pregnant would mean to me and I feel like he's being unfair with the way he keeps changing his mind. I've spoken to him about it and he said that he's a bit confused with how he feels about it. He wants one very badly too, but just doesn't know when the best time would be.. It's not one-sided, as I know it probably sounds.
Anyway, after this happened.. I walked out the room and broke down into tears for ages.
It means so much to me and I feel so so upset about this. I can't even sleep properly anymore because I want a baby that badly. I'm sick of feeling like this, it's taking over my whole life.
I don't want you guys to think I'm the only one who wants to be pregnant out of both of us and that I'm being selfish because I'm not. We both had agreed to start trying for a baby.
I'm so sorry for the rant, I just needed to get it off my chest.
Do any of you know what I can do to stop me feeling so sad?