results of hsg. abnormal but no blockage?

[Benjismom1987]

So according to my GYN, I had pooling of the dye on my HSG which indicates an issue. He can't tell me anything besides that it signifies an internal problem.

The pain I've had (well, I'm always in pain) recently he believes to be the result of an infection in the tubal horn (where the dye pooled) since he was unable to drain it, and i had none come out (I'd notice apparently).

so I get antibiotics and told to abstain from attempting pregnancy due to the high risk of developing a tubal pregnancy.

I'm seriously in tears. How can life be so unfair? I only have the one tube and ovary (well, half an ovary) I want the pain to go away... but at the same time, I want another baby.

So the bad news... I'm 11 or 12 dpo today, no positive pregnancy test.... but my temp Iis still high. It starts to drop around 10 dpo gradually but it hasn't budged (it actually got a little higher).

I keep thinking that there is no way I'm pregnant, been trying forever it seems. Doctor seems to think that the egg will get trapped in the tubal horn (most likely, but without seeing inside the tube, he can't give a difinitive answer.) He's not sure it would even get fertilized, but if it did... tubal pregnancy is most likely.

where to go from here? He still thinks ivf is my best bet. We just dont have the money and Im not having my parents buy me a baby. Just crushed.

I do NOT want a hysterectomy yet (iit will eventually hhappen)... but what do i have to hold on to? Our family doesn't feel complete and frankly i just feel useless.

Why must life be so cruel?


/rant. I just needed to vent. Haven't told DH yet, I'm not eentirely sure how. (And wtf is autocorrect adding extra letters? I've fgivenup correcting tthis)

 

[k4th]

Really sorry to hear you've had cr*ppy news

I don't know much about this but couldn't read & run. You sound so hurt & upset. I hope someone comes along who can share a positive experience around this. Do be careful with yourself hun - if the dye got through to pool then it's possible some spermies did too. It's also possible your eggie escaped from the tube but if you do think you're pregnant contact your dr asap. You don't want to cause any further damage to that precious tube.

 

[Benjismom1987]

Temp dropped and I started today. Feel like crap mentally and physically. Pigs weren't flying here. Think I'm just going to give up. If it happens it's meant to happen. Not sure I care to do IVF because with my luck it will just be dumping 20k in the toilet, and we have casinos I could do that in.
I just feel defeated. I was hoping ssomeone had a similar situation and could give me some glimmer of hope. God has his plans, it's not for me to question.

 

[k4th]

Sorry hun. Take a few days to look after yourself xx