JessesGirl29
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Just need a selfish rant.
Now that it's settled that we're TTC for number 2 I've been telling myself that it's NTNP because I just want to keep everything low key. I took almost a year to get pregnant with my son and I honestly think I dove wayyy to deep in to the TTC world.
Here I am month two of trying looking up when my due date would be if I was pregnant this cycle when we only DTD once in the fertile window because my son's sleeping was bad. I promised myself I wouldn't get my hopes up but here I am again symptom spotting and fighting the urge to test early only to have my heart broken month after month. There is a good friend at work who just found out she was pregnant and I would love to be pregnant 'with' her. Why do I do this to myself?
I want to just hide and enjoy my son and be thankful for what I have without having to go through this. I wish it was as easy as *poof* you realize your period is late without thinking about it.
Now that it's settled that we're TTC for number 2 I've been telling myself that it's NTNP because I just want to keep everything low key. I took almost a year to get pregnant with my son and I honestly think I dove wayyy to deep in to the TTC world.
Here I am month two of trying looking up when my due date would be if I was pregnant this cycle when we only DTD once in the fertile window because my son's sleeping was bad. I promised myself I wouldn't get my hopes up but here I am again symptom spotting and fighting the urge to test early only to have my heart broken month after month. There is a good friend at work who just found out she was pregnant and I would love to be pregnant 'with' her. Why do I do this to myself?
I want to just hide and enjoy my son and be thankful for what I have without having to go through this. I wish it was as easy as *poof* you realize your period is late without thinking about it.