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[waiting2012]

Well, Ladies...Heading on to the Casa..Going to eat a sandwich for supper, slip into my swimsuit and get ready to go to the pool.... Hope ya'll have a good night, if I don't make it back on--who am I kidding, right???? It just might be late when I do...

Luv ya'll!!

 

[waiting2012]

Not to be a post whore...LOL...

We are nearly 600 pages!!! Yeah!!! ...

 

[calebsmom06]

Hahaha steph you made me laugh sooo freaking hard I have tears in my eyes! One I LOVE armadillo eggs and have actually been craving them lately but havent gone to get the jalepenos and cream cheese to make them, and hubby said the other night, "damn I cant wait to try that ball with some sex after Cameron is born" LMAO he thinks it will be fun Come next week I will be doing all of that. And I have stairs at my house and I always do a little light jog up them when I go up and down and today I went ahead and went up and down 3 times to give everything a little push. I have actually been having contractions pretty much all day I was timing them but they were never closer than 10 minutes so I stopped after 2 hours. Guess we will see, I know I want him to be ready which he should be but damn I dont want a freaking c-section! And I know he is gonna be a BIG boy

 

[brooke1993]

I wanted to say thanks to all of you ,I took a long hot bath actually used every bit og hot water then say outside a bit alone.DH took Aliah out to eat he asked me to go I just looked @ him and he walked away.Please pray for us ladies,I cant seem to feel his pain and dont feel he can feel mine.I wanted you all to know I am ok.

 

[calebsmom06]

Just had a little action with hubby (told him I need his chemicals hahaha as my sonogram guy says), cleaned the bathroom then went for a brisk walk around the block, its not far but I dont want to stray to far from home just incase. I did the same walk with Caleb when I came home from the doc and again now, it only takes 10 minutes. Its a good excercise and I can feel the pressure ever so slightly when I get to about the halfway point of the walk so assuming that is a good sign. Hoping baby is ready to be here at 37 or 38 weeks Or sooner as some think

 

[calebsmom06]

Alright, here's the plan of action for Jenn...

Eat the spicy ginger snaps AFTER eating Armadillo Eggs (known as stuffed jalpenos with bacon wrapped around them)--these are to be eaten with the hottest hot sauce you can stand.... Now don't forget the sex, and the ball--shoot have sex while on the ball (Is that possible??? )... A few jumping jacks for good measure-- and how bout a stern talking towards Cameron and let him know that he's coming out soon whether he likes it or not!

Shoot girl, you only have 8 more CMs to go!!!

LOL ONLY 8 more haha

 

[waiting2012]

Damn JENN... I thought you said it took 10 min to walk the block AND ... I had to read that again lol!!


Had a good time at the pool, it felt a little chilly but it was sooooo nice...

 

[waiting2012]

Brooke, I wish i had my reg internet so i could reply without a bunch of typos... I def think you need to to talk to your dh. You need to tell him not to speak untilyou tell him you are finished, at which time he can tell you what he needs to.
You are grieving, he does not understand that though there is still a baby growing, you have lost another. I remember my second m/c but Jason and mine first... I was more devastated than the first time because I didnt think it would happen again, but it has. Your heart is mourning because you dont realize that you have to remain sttrong or honey, your going to lose the other because of the stress you are putting on yourself.
If you dont think you can talk to the dh right now about it- I want you to promise me you'll get some paper, and something to write with. First, you will write a letter to the baby lost. Then you will a write a letter to those who passed away in your lifetime that you were clise to and you will express that you are entrusting to them the spirit of this baby lost and one day you will see them all. After you have done that put those letters in an envelope and put it away somewhere. Your not done yet. Write a letter to the baby still growing inside of you. Write a letter to your husband. The one you writeto the new baby you give to the baby when he or she is older. Give the letterfor your husband to him. Tell him how you feel, how just knowing one twin has survived is not a consolation for the one lost. That your heart is breaking. Pour it all out there hun... Remember how you released balloons after the other m/c? Tell him you want to do the same for the twin. Tie the letters written to Heaven to the balloons, and release them and all your sorrow honey. It wont be instant relief, I cant say you will be overcome with a flood of peace, but your broken heart will begin to heal, and you will realize how precious a gift the remaing twin actually is. I love ya, and I understand pain. I understand where you are in this dark time emotionally, physically and mentally.

Please keep checking in. Let us know that you are still doing ok.

 

[waiting2012]

I have to get to bed, but will check back tomorrow..

Love ya ladies.. Night!

 

[calebsmom06]

Haha Steph wow 10 minutes to BD annnnnd walk lmao! I think hubby would be ashamed lol!
You know those who are having alot of bad situations going on right now, consider making a letter garden, make your self a little garden that is yours that you can go to and work on when you are sad to get your mind off of things and each time you are stressed or dealing with something difficult write a letter about it or to the person and then bury it in your garden. I know it may seem silly but I hear those types of things can really really help, it eases your mind. I have always wanted to make one. I told Caleb we were going to make 'our' own little garden next year for just us since we never got around to it this year

 

[calebsmom06]

AHHHHHH I am down to 29 days at most! Come on baby I need you in 15 days instead lol

 

[waiting2012]

hard to believe down to mere days Jenn!!

I love the idea of a garden! it is a good idea!

I snuck on my computer--my phone is charging..LOl..

Be back soon! Hee Hee

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Brooke you guys are both grieving and its going to be hard..... lots of hunny you guys both should sit down...or write a little note to eachother an let each one know how your feeling....then make up and give eachother a huge hug...."BUT" Only if it were that easy right ......I wish you the best but I would try and have a talk with him....tell him you are thankful for one baby....but its still hard and is a loss of the one but hunny something could have been wrong with the other like TTS or something worse.....so just know God took that one to Heaven to take care of him/her I know its not easy but know that we are all here for ya darling and you have to grieve but yet show this other little one that its not his/her fault and you have to love him/her just as much as they lost someone in there with him/her an I imagine babies can feel they have lost someone esp. a twin!


I'm a bit pissed off with docs this morning.... woke up and if it wasn't my left side killing me NOW ITS BOTH SIDES KILLING ME.....I duno what the heck is happening but maybe the doc was right and I do need a scan I put it off for 3 days so far....I still have the paperwork but I'd rather just wait til the Fertility doc scans me....but YET they haven't even fooking called me yet....I left word yesterday an she should have called me back an never did....so I guess I'll call today an say TONIGHT IM STARTING MY MEDS....THOUGHT YOU MIGHT WANNA KNOW.....but I'll call in a few mins an see if they wanna scan me or whatever like they are SUPPOSED to do! CD 3 bloodwork an scans!

 

[bnporter81]

Just checking in...hope you all are doing okay. It's 100 degrees right now and supposed to be 107 on Saturday. Uggghhhh, I hate extreme heat like this! The two girls are in the pool and I'm staying indoors as much as possible

Still thinking of you Brooke...hope you're doing okay

 

[waiting2012]

Brooke---Love ya!

Andi--geesh, you'd think them damn doctors would do their job...OR at least call you back and tell you why they aren't... I would def go get the scan done, I guess if the fs won't do it--maybe go with whoever the paperwork says to do it with... I hope they figure out something! And your right, they should be taking this seriously! Big for you too hun!

Beth--I'm soo jealous...Hee Hee... Jason and I talked last night while at the public pool about putting one in out backyard, but he doesn't want an above-the-ground one..... He said our next house will def have a pool, YEAH RIGHT! Temps are pretty balmy here too but not as bad as yesterday...Its 93 right now and by 930 yesterday it was 95, so I don't think the heat is going to be that bad..We played in the water--YEP, me too... LOL..I'm the only teacher who will get wet and splash around with the kids--I guess I'm cool like that!

I hope everyone is doing good, and look forward to updates..I should hear tomorrow how my labs were.. NO SPOTTING AT ALL NOW!! Test this morning was positive still... Jason's phone was dead so no pics this am, but I layed it on his dresser in front of the tv....That's EXACTLY what he'll want to see when he wakes up!!!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Well they called this morning......and I guess I'm going on Birth Control pills for like 20 days I start today and take one until July 16th FML.....so everyday I'm going to be puking up my guts ...just to pause me from ovulation then come off the pill and bleed forever how the hell will I get pregnant doing that I won't so I dont know why I'm even doing this to myself....but I guess ONE more cycle of this shit and I am done. I can't take no more of this shit of waiting for everyone to be on the same cycle so the doc knows where all his patients are in their cycles its BULL CRAP I want NATURAL cycles not STUNNED INTO WORKING AT THIS TIME bullcrap.....anyways this will be our last month trying with the medications. I won't be doing it again....and......I guess I'm going to let this all go soon. I think we need to just focus on the adoption...but for now DH has called to see why his referral to Urology never went through 2 months ago and why we haven't heard anything....so he's actually taking a stand to find out why his volume is so low and why his morphology is low.....so maybe we will get somewhere in all of this....but I dont think my hearts gonna feel any better knowing the only shot we have is IVF and how I have 2 boys I know I'm blessed with my two boys but how my heart aches to give DH a biological baby we don't even care if its a boy or girl...we just want ONE more healthy baby ....sucks seeing bunk beds about to be put together in the other room and no kids to put in them and a baby bed thats empty breaks my damned heart

 

[waiting2012]

Andi...
I'm sorry they are putting you back on the BC...That's crazy if you ask me! I wonder why you can't just start your fertility meds again as planned? I'm dumbfounded hun... It doesn't seem fair really to make you wait that much longer especially if they are going to make you sick.. And the dh still hasn't gotten any more info about his :sperm:... Lord, someone really, really needs to pull their head out of their ass... I guess they don't care that these are people's lives they are messing with...

I'm sure you'll have someone soon to fill those beds hun! I just have a feeling sweetie!! Don't stress about that..It will all work out in the end!

 

[bnporter81]

Andi, I'm sorry about all of it...especially the bc pills. I know how they can mess up your cycles/body and for some women that is the LAST thing they ever want to do again. It must be so frustrating

Don't give up yet, hon...I fully believe it will work out for you exactly the way it's supposed to. God knows in your heart how much you want another baby and I know He's with you every step of the way to getting thereI think that statement is true for all of us even though it's not easy to see or believe sometimes. Not just about having a baby, but everything going on in our lives.

Steph, YAY for no spotting!That's great news! Can't wait to hear what your numbers are

 

[calebsmom06]

Havent been on most of the day until now, my 5 year old had my computer and was playing games. He NEVER gets to use it so he took full advantage of me letting him today lol. He just left to go to his cousins basketball game so I got it back yeah
Andi- so sorry your dealing with all that BS with them wanting you on birth control its ridiculous!
Steph-Nothing today??? Oh you said he was going to be out today right Hoping you get to hear something tomorrow then.

i go back to work tomorrow Dreadful! I want to be home for good already! I enjoy my days off but seems these days off I have been waking up earlier than I even get up to get ready for work and it is annoying! I am wondering if come tomorrow when I actually have to work if I am going to have to drag myself out of bed haha

 

[Kahlan83]

yea! hubby felt bad about monopolizing the computer so much so instead of waiting until xmas, he bought me one now. still getting used to the keyboard. shift and enter are in totally different places then my regular keyboard.

I had to take my phone in to be fixed because my trackball was acting stupid. now I have a loaner...but oh well.

thanks for the support with my friend. and Steph, we already have godparents however this friend is not religious at all and wouldn't be accepted as a godparent in the catholic church were we would baptise our kids...plus josh says he wants absolutely nothing to do with her now that he's treated me this way. he said if she does something like this again he's going to be the one to tell her off. I told him that it was my thing to deal with but if it does happen again I'm done with her. I'll take my SIL to see Madonna in that case.

Brooke, my heart is breaking for you. i can't even begin to imagine what you must be going through. sometimes doctors don't have very good bedside manner and don't think about how their words can hurt. be strong for your bub that's still growing. he or she needs you! it's okay that you come on here to vent, your not a bad person you just need support, that's why we're here right?

Can't wait for july 12...hopefully baby won't have it's legs crossed this time.
The u/s tech said that i was only measuring 16 weeks instead of 17 so I wonder if they are going to push back my due date....they did that with matty but my ob didn't even tell me. I found out when i went to the hospital.

anyway...love you ladies, always thinking about you