~S.T.L<3~*Lots of babies, Adoption and Waiting for Beth's BFP! <3

[AndreaFlorida]

So DH called about his Urology appt.....and they told him oh its pending another SA....OMFG...so he told him he just did one a month ago....and it was off base and we paid for it...he said that one wont work you have to do another one FML really?!?!? So I'm to the I give the F up point I don't wanna put DH through another that would be 4 in a years time thats just TOO MUCH ...then DH had a bad day at work and my mom heard it all...then I get off the phone and I'm upset b/c they are bullying my husband at work....even threatened to move us to another base...which we still have a year left on our house b/c of the first time tax buyer credit if we moved I'd have to pay the $8,000 back to the IRS ....so I vented to my mom about how I wanted to go talk to Jason's first sgt. about how we are doing this adoption thing, Jason is upset b/c he failed his PT test for work, about how we are having fertility issues, and how Jason is getting bullied at work and made to work more hours than anyone else there How everday he comes home an its causing problems between us...such as the other day when he pushed me into the truck......I wouldn't tell them that part...but it is causing lots of issues...and him being so stressed SHIT we aren't ever going to get pregnant. So he called Urology today an asked if they had his information....THEY DID....but they want another SA....so he told them how he just did one a month ago could he get the report an use it as the one....NOPE of course not...so I don't know if I wanna even bother having him do another one that would be 4 in a years time how fooking pathetic just so he can see the guys in urology SORRY TOTALLY REPEATED MYSELF THERE! I'm just outta it right now HORRIBLE DAY!

So OK...back to the other story I vented to my mom...she was here b/c oldest son had a doc appt for a well checkup....and I told her how I wanted to talk to the first sgt.....sooooo she starts bitching "WELL JUST GO TELL THEM AND GET HIM IN TROUBLE ETC" really?!?!?! So shes yelling at me you go get mad you do this you do that...I said "Mom, I'm going to my room for a minute".....and I did....shes out there yelling at me "Well get pissed off go smoke a damn cigarette......" She knows I'm trying to not do that because I hate those things...but when I get really stressed I do tend to have one....it amounts to about 4 cigarettes a month?!?!? I last smoked one the day J threw me into the truck...but how does me GOING TO MY ROOM constitute that I'm smoking or going to smoke when I only do that OUTSIDE?!?!?! FML...so she got mad and packed my kids stuff an was gonna tell me "IM TAKING THE BOYS HOME WITH ME" I told her "NO YOUR NOT" So she threw their bag down almost hit my youngest in the head with it then slams my back door and cracked the door frame?!?!?! So...well I guess I'll be taking her fat ass to court for that! ....shes not fat I'm just SERIOUSLY PISSED OFF!

I seriously wish I had a mom who cared about me but I unfortunately didn't pick my parents they chose me Wish I weren't adopted sometimes.....in a way....or at least not by her One of those I NEED MY DADDY MOMENTS...and hes in HEAVEN not here!

Sorry I hope and PRAY TO GOD the rest of you had a better day than I have....seems like I can't catch a flipping break...I have tears just streaming down my cheeks right now...

 

[calebsmom06]

Andi-So sorry you are going through all of this BS So is J going to get another SA done then? That is mean what she did especially as a mom, she actually slammed a door and cracked the frame! I mean REALLY come on your an adult dont you teach your children NOT to slam doors! WOW I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I can see where talking to his boss could possibly cause a problem depending on how serious the guy is. Will Jason speak to him? Will he sit down and talk to him? That would probally be better.
Hubby just walked with me. We went a mile and a half. It was nice to spend the time together but daaaammmmn it was freaking hot!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Yea I wasn't going to honestly call his work though I was just wanting to vent to someone and my mom started yelling at me she just called RUDELY says...Tyler's medications are in that bag HOPE Trysten didn't get ahold of them....I said ok thanks....and she didn't even apologize I really am going tomorrow to try to get some counseling and to see how I can let her go from my life for the rest of it.....EVERYTIME I let her back in she breaks me down again and this is the 4th and final time I'll let her do this to me I can't handle anymore I've been crying ALL DAY LONG.....I dont even feel like cooking dinner Although I am right now I'd rather be sleeping.....I'm so depressed ladies If the fertility, adoption, DH's work isn't enough now my fooking own MOM who is supposed to love me and care for me she doesn't and I dont believe she ever did. I've in the past even asked why she adopted me and she doesn't know why?!?!?

 

[waiting2012]

Andi Im sorry this has not only been a shitty day, but it seems like its been a shitty year for you... .. I love you sweetie, as do the rest of the ladies. I know this post will be short, but Im praying that God will step in and make things right for ya'll. You are more than asking for His hand in all this. I pray He is seeing that enough is enough is enough..

I love ya hun!

Wes just broughtme a plate of chili dogs...

 

[bnporter81]

Andi, I'm so sorry...you've had such a time with it all latelyAdopted or not she's still your mom and she shouldn't be acting like that towards you. I hope you can get everything straightened out with the SA and your mom. I know it must be so sad and overwhelming for you right now. Just remember when you're down, the only way to go is up and I know there is something GOOD just around the corner for you, hon. Go ahead and vent all you need to and know that we're here for ya and we care

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I appreciate it....Brooke I hope your doing good today I sure do pray for ya every single moment of every single day I PRAY that little bean is sticky!!!!

I'm doing okay taking one moment at a time....I feel horrible the worst headache anyone could imagine. I have to get up early in the morning and get me the kids and dog to the vet....this should be fun she has a rash or something I think shes allergic to something...so I made her an appt. to check her skin out and make sure shes not too dry skinned or something and to get her some bath meds or something to help her....shes itching and her ears are red and have little tiny bumps ...not a lot of them just a few...I don't think its ear mites or anything I think just skin allergy her whole body itches and its not fleas shes been treated twice from the vet. So who knows?!?! Waste of more money LOL....Oh well shes like a kid to me an I love her so shes worth it!! DH is setting up our new table and putting the computer on it in our room it looks really nice! Well I think I'm about to head to bed...its been a long day I think tomorrow gonna call an see if I can set up a round of counseling or something I really think I need it!!! Lots of love to you all and talk to you all tomorrow

 

[calebsmom06]

Glad you seem more positive right now andi. Hope everything works out for you. Good luck at the vet.
I'm at work bored so thought id check in, its a boring day and iim super sleepy, tossed and turned all night. I already knew it would be this way today. Well ill respond more later. Have a great day

 

[Affyash]

There's so much to say and I'm sure I won't remember everything so I'm sorry in advance!!

Brooke I am so crushed to have read your news. I wanted to comment sooner but I wasn't able to get on long enough to do so. I am very sorry and I wish I could reach out and hug you. Your feelings are by no means wrong or bad or misguided, you are simply going through another loss and that makes us act out in many ways. I am so sorry that DH isn't being as supportive of you as he could. I agree with the other ladies, he's dealing with it in his own way too. And if he's seeming super insensitive about it, he's probably clinging to fact that he still has at least one baby on the way. It seems harsh and mean but sometimes, men compartmentalize their emotions.

I just hope that you are able to come to terms with what's happened and I pray that you will be able to embrace your little one growing inside you soon. The same exact thing happened to my best friend who gave birth to her daughter Nora on Xmas day. She didn't find out that she had lost a twin until her ultrasound at 12 weeks. Please try not to take it so hard and know that God has a plan for you and your baby. I love you girl and hope you're feeling better.

Steph I'm dying to find out what your numbers are today! I am so hopeful for you, the fact that you're not spotting anymore is tremendous! FX FX FX and update us as soon as possible!

Jenn I'm so sorry you're tossing and turning at night, I feel the same way! Hopefully you can get some good rest in the coming weeks cause I'm pretty dang sure you're going to pop early! I know that some women can be 2 cm for a long time, but since you're no baby #3, I have a feeling he's preparing to come. And I'm just confused as to why your doctor wants to automatically go the c-sec route if he gets big. You don't have GD and your body wouldn't make a baby it couldn't get out! Especially since you've already had babies! Ugh!

Tanya I hope you're doing well hun!

Beth how are you doing?? You're getting pretty late in your cycle right!? Ugh I just wish AF could start so you could move on to a new cycle with those supplements. But having said that, I just read a thread in the second trimester forum about a girl who's EDD is totally off because her cycle when she conceived would've been 100 days if she hadn't gotten pregnant! She just O'd really late and then the egg stuck. So, I guess I really just wish that that's what's going on with you!!

Andi honey I just want to come to your house and shoot your mom with horse shit, hurt your DH's sergeant and give you and DH a fabulous night out with fancy dinner and a fancy hotel! I'm so sorry that you're going through so much and all I can tell you is just what Beth said, the only place to go is up. Hang in there, take deep breaths, see if DH can talk to his sergeant about working something else out. Don't make DH do another SA for awhile. There are some natural supplements he can take to boost his count and help his morphology and he wouldn't need an analysis to do that. And you have your meds (or at least will next month MF doctors!) so you still have hope. And your girls ARE coming too! Best of luck to you and I hope all improves! OH and I hope the doggie is OK too!

How is Amanda doing has anybody heard from her?? Hope you're good girl!

Mandy I'm glad you've sort of worked things out with your BF and I hope she grows to understand your point of view too. It's one thing to be sensitive to other's hardships in wanting to have a baby but it's another thing for them to damper your happiness. Big hugs!

Crap, who'd I forget? I'm so sorry girls there's like 10 guys in my office right now telling each other stories and it's hard for me to concentrate!!!

I'm doing good, just hanging in there! Nothing much to report! I'll be back on later or this weekend!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Well just got off the phone with my mom, she called to APOLOGIZE....I needed that so bad b/c my head just wouldn't stop thinking "WHY WOULD MY MOM DO THIS" ...she really has to get some help for herself soon!!! Waiting on DH to call to see if he can go home early today which would be great. I have just applied to do a clinical research study PRAY I'm accepted...its MINI IVF against REGULAR IVF...to see which one works better for what situations etc. so we shall see what happens IM SO NERVOUS I pray they accept me though!

Dear Andrea Thompson,

Thank you for submitting your application to take a part in our IVF Clinical Trial.

Please follow the link below to verify your email address:

Email Address Confirmation

If this link does not work, you can copy and paste the following into your browser:

I bleated it out!!

You will receive an email with further instructions after your online application is reviewed. This process may take up to 2 business days.

Sincerely,
Research Department

 

[Kahlan83]

Andi... good to hear that your mom called to say sorry. sometimes that's all we need to hear when we've had an argument. F'X for your treatment!

I know my BF will never apologize because she feels she was right. For right now, I"m letting it go and giving it time. IF she has another blow up at me then it will be a different...i won't just let it go twice. We'll see how she reacts when i'm actually showing.

Brooke, still thinking about you honey and hope your having a better day today.

Beth...I can certainly understand about the long cycles. by the time I finally got my period I was like 'just come already' after my diagnosis I wasn't even really thinking about getting PG...I was just taking stuff that would help regulate me and I happened to get that +O. F'x for you too honey.

Steph...any word today about your numbers?

So the fam and I are going camping over the long weekend. (Canada Day on Sunday)

So Happy Canada Day to any Canadians and Happy Independence Day to the Americans.

We come back on Monday. We do this every year with our best friends (the Godparents of the baby and the couple we met through lamaze with Matty) They are also the parents of Matty's little girlfriend.

It's going to be interesting since he's too big for a play pen now. He's usually good about going to bed but this will be a new scenario for him. We'll also see how I cope with being PG and all. I still get sick most mornings but I found out I can eat chicken again....we had Chinese last night and it was yummy!

So I probably will not be on again until Monday. Love you all and have a great weekend!!!

 

[waiting2012]

Its been a very busy day!!!

I know ya'll want to know the grand results....
Friday's results 122 miu's...Tuesday's results.....Drum roll please.....

578 miu's!!

Dr. Hodde called me this morning with the numbers, but my phone was dead and didn't have the charger--he had me come in for another blood draw, and said if the next shows doubling again--then we may do an u/s (if I want)...He said he he likes that the numbers went up and I should be between 6-7 weeks by now..I think today is wk 6 (I've not been keeping track since last friday..) I know I probably should have but considering the ups and downs of it all, I didn't want to...So now going to read up on the Friday happenings!

Lots of luv ladies!!!

 

[waiting2012]

Andi--I'm glad your mom called and apologized, I know that its probably a day late and all, but at least she did...I agree with Ashe..there are few around you that need to be shot with horseshit! I sooooo hope that you get chosen for the research! That would be AWESOME!!! Anything new about the homestudy? Its soon isn't it???

Jenn--You can not go into labor over the weekend! I won't have computer access..... Now anytime next week is FINE! Hope boring isn' to bad--better than being stressed! I commend you for working, hun! I know why you are still, but man, I was like Tanya--I enjoyed that maternity leave--and it really is a time to relax cause otherwise there isn't much 'down-time'...

Ashe--so glad things seem to being going good! I hope you have an awesome weekend!!!

Mandy--Happy Canada Day!! Hope your camping trip is AWESOME!! We are thinking of going camping the weekend after July 9th...Or sometime that week--we'll see though..I don't know if I can handle working and camping...Just doesn't seem like it would be much fun for me..

Amanda--Where ever you are and whatever you are doing--WE LOVE YOU!!! Hope everything is going Great!!

Tanya--Same goes about Emma--you can't go into labor over the weekend!! .. I hope your feeling ok!!

Brooke--Please send an update hun, I hate to think that your upcoming 4th of July isn't a good one because of the news you got...It will be ok, hun. We LOVE You too!!

Beth--How awesome would that be if you had a cycle like the girl that Ashe was talking about---...maybe that's your August !! ... Either way sweetie--I hope you are staying cool!!

I too apologize if I have forgotten anyone!! My brain feels fried..Like my body and brain aren't connected but they are...I made Jason go and get a new AC unit at midnight last night--I couldn't take it anymore--i was tired of sweating my butt off...My boobs are hurting and periodically feel stabbing pains in them, but other than that---a little nausea that comes and goes..Not to bad...So no complaints...We bd'ed last night, and other than being "hot" (no not like that..) it was ok... It def wasn't a "Be All You Can Be" moment..... More like a "He saw and came" kind of moment......

Will catch up more--I need to check on my "games".....I'm addicted to 2 things...My FB games and here and if I could I'd have 2 computers open in front of me...

 

[Affyash]

YAAAAAAAAAY! That is EXACTLY what I wanted to hear!!!! So your body got all cleaned out and then rebuilt and it provided for the nice cushy lining you needed!!! Steph, I am beyond happy for you! Come on baby bean, burrow in deep and stay for mama!

 

[calebsmom06]

Wooohooo 600 pages!
Ashley-the reason the doc wants me to consider the c-section is because my first son who is 9 weighed 7lb 13 oz and it was a very difficult delivery. I was pushing and pushing and pushing and I could not get him out, he was in my birth canal sooooo long that he came out and looked like the coneheads do on the movie conehead I mean it was HUGE! He ripped me up pretty bad where I had to have stitches and he scrapped my pelvic bone coming out and got a black eye and a scrapped head so he was in the hospital for a week to be sure he did not get an infection. It was horrible I never was able to push him out I finally got his head but the doc pulled him out because he had such broad shoulders. My 2nd was 7lb 5 oz at 38 weeks (induced) and I had one contraction pushed 3 times and he was out Super easy and he had a perfectly shaped head.
I was considering if he would strip my membranes at 37 or 38 weeks to help induce labor earlier since they cant actually induce, I am wondering if they CAN do that or if that is another one of those things that are not allowed anymore:/ And even if the baby does seem bigger than 7 1/2 pounds I am wondering if since that was my first that if that could have also been partially why it was such a difficult delivery and since 'I know what to expect' now if he would actually allow me to just give it a chance. I am going to talk to him about these options on Tuesday and see what he says. It is hard to talk to him sometimes cause he always seems like he is in such a damn hurry! I wish doc.'s would take their time with their patients!
Steph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is AWESOME!!!!I am so excited for you! Since you got another blood draw today, did he say when you would get the results? Everything looks so super positive for you!
Ahley-Your 25 weeks! Only 15 more weeks to go! It is getting so close!
Andi-Hope you get to do the ivf!!!!
Sorry I cant respong to everyone but hope you are having a great day

 

[bnporter81]

YAY Steph! That's AWESOME news...I'm so happy for you! Lots of hopes and prayers that this little bean is healthy, sticky little bean for you

Ashe, thank you. My cycles have not been regular since I came off the mini pill last October. I just went back and looked at my chart for the last 6 months and the latest I've ovulated is CD 66, so I'm used to the long cyclesI never get AF until I ovulate and I always DO ovulate....it's just always pretty late into my cycle I did get my FertilityBlend in the mail today, though, so I'm going to start taking that tomorrow

Mandy, thank you as well....I want to get pregnant badly, but like you said, right now I just want so much to just feel regular and normal. My daughter and stepdaughter get their cycles so regularly and I just find myself wishing I could be like that I'm trying to hang in there and not get too down over it, but it gets hard.

Andi, I'm glad to hear that your mom apologized...she definitely should have! I hope you're feeling a little better today and that things continue to look up for you

Jenn, FX'd for you that he'll decide to come on out and see some fireworksI know you're so anxious and can hardly wait!

Tanya, how have your contractions been going?

Amanda, how is everything going with you? Is the MS easing up for you?

Well, it's like 105 here right now and I really don't want to turn the oven on to make dinner, but I guess I have to. Hmmm, would it make me a bad mom if I just gave the kids ice cream for dinner?

Talk to you all later....might not be on much this weekend because my sister is coming over but I'll try to at least keep caught up

 

[waiting2012]

Thank You ladies!
Sorry I never made it back.. Lol!

Beth, so glad the FB came in the mail! I def think if you O late-it may help speed things along..

Jenn, I should have todays results as early as Monday, if the lab is they went to does their thing on weekends, otherwise Tuesday. The Dr called me himself today, thought that was pretty cool of him. He told me his nurse will call with the next set.. I did forget to ask him gh about something I noticed my belly buttongets ths tingly tickle feeling every now and then te past few days.. More so today... Im a big girl so figure thats why..


My phone is acting up but I will try to check in in a bit.. love ya'll!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Sorry I've been MIA for the past half a day LOL......OK you guys I FACED MY FEAR....I went to "FIREWORKS" omgosh! I almost cried....and I had a lot of flashbacks...and I somehow held myself together so the kids didn't get scared or anything....and I made it!!

(Some of you know about my accident and some don't but fireworks put me in the ICU on my Birthday on May 1st this year I was on a respirator for a day so I'm partly terrified of fireworks)

Anyways STEPH OMGOSH!! Thats awesome news YAYYYY!

 

[calebsmom06]

Beth so glad your FB came in today Hope it works for you Try not to be down even people with regular cycles dont always get preg
Steph-I am soooo looking forward to mon/tues for you now, I am super anxious to see yet another doubling on a test
Andi-that is great you faced your fears, enjoy the fireworks and dont get to close!

Went grocery shopping today and have had HORRIBLE backache since we were out and baaaad right hip pain And my feet are absolutely HUGE! I took my socls off and I have lines where they were cutting in and omg I never got swollen in my other pregnancies! I have also had braston hicks contractions alot today but this is the first of the horrible backache, wondering if I just over did it today. So I told my boss id be taking tomorrow off to rest my feet and back, And steph I ate eggplant parm. today and it is GREAT and I also had some pineapple haha

 

[calebsmom06]

And as you can see by my post time, I cant sleep worth a S***!

 

[calebsmom06]

Want to let you all know.....I woke up at 630 this morning with a big wet spot under me, go to hospital to get checked and my water has broken and I am dilated to a 4 already, looks like the horrible back pain I was having yesterday was actually early labor and I guess me walking through it 2 hours while grocery shopping did the job of putting me into active labor. I am very very nervous, I wanted him to be here by 38 weeks due to c-section but wasn't expecting him to be this early:/ I'm very nervous and scared and anxious happy and omg I can't even explain it. They told me I won't be leaving until baby is born. So I get to meet my son today. Contractions are from 4-10 min apart right now the nurse said and there are small one which she calls irratations in between. Ill check back in later. Love y'all, pray that my baby is healthy please and no problems