AndreaFlorida
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I was kidding its totally understandable
Glad you got to be with your family
thats awesome!!!


I hope everyone is having a good "hump" day... I wish my day was going better than it is...I'm so sick and tired of having to come here and be a grump and feel pity-wo'....
I did call in to the doctor's who's only advice to me at this point considering what I know and what I've dealt with--is to try and put my feet up today and see if my spotting stops--OH YEAH--forgot to mention--got home last night and it was back after nothing since lunch time and it was bright red. Spotting only and nothing on my pad all night, but spotting all the same... I called my boss this am (who is on FB) and told her I was sick with the same bug that Jason and Adrian have--I didn't want to tell her that I was probably m/c'ing again--they seen me through 3 now, and I didn't want to feel or hear the "oh, I'm so sorry" when it came to that. I've had some cramping but its like _____ O ______ (ok you are probably wondering WTH?--I did that because that is like "where" my cramping is--its not all over just like where the O is...LOL) Almost feels like my cervix is trying to open up but isn't, I don't know..I checked my cp and it was high/med/closed but there was brownish/red blood there.. Sucks because I couldn't even have sex with my hubby last night on our anniversary and it's been almost a week and an a half since I let him.. I know he's getting fustrated with that--but he'll be happy about everything when it's threw I'm sure.
I'm not even wasting my money on more hpts, and tomorrow I will go back to work--can't afford to miss another day after missing a half day yesterday and not being there today. I've kept pretty busy with my games today and I guess I just need to get over this and move on. Please, PLEASE, PLEASE, don't say "I'm sorry" or anything else about it--it is what it is.. I can get pg, can't stay that way--going to ask my doctor when it's all finished to please put me on some sort of b/c until the summer time in which we look to more perminent b/c measures. I just don't understand why? Why are there ladies like Andi, who can't get pg but do EVERYTHING to get that way but nothing works, and then there are those like me who don't have to do anything but have sex at some random opportune time in the month and get knocked up but m/c before 12 weeks.. I mean, we both have had children, so something worked a long time ago, what went wrong? Why? I'm done venting... Its stupid to vent over something so petty...But I do feel a lot better having done so. And its not that I've lost faith, ect...Its just its time to face the reality of the situation.
I mentioned yesterday I was going to post pics of Adrian's xrays..I will do so at the end of this post. I'm really not sure when I'll be on again here, and I don't want to take my tickers down but I don't want to look them on a daily basis either.. I've pushed my other losses so far out of my mind that I vaguely remember when due dates would have been ect, but I don't want to forget this one..I guess in some ways it is the "Last" just not the way I wanted.
View attachment 522907 Xray on the left was yesterdays--curves are 38/39 degrees on top and 34/35 degrees on the bottom.. I know I posted them on FB so if you've already seen them..sorry. She is no longer wearing her brace as we are past that point..We go back in May for more xrays and we'll be monitored and hopefully surgery can be avoided a bit longer if not all together..I'm honestly not sure if they'll be able to put it off--she was already saying this morning she has quite a bit of constant pain in her back with or without the brace on.
Lots of Love ladies... Sorry to be such a downer today.. Going to find something for lunch and take a nap.