~S.T.L<3~*Lots of babies, Adoption and Waiting for Beth's BFP! <3

[Kahlan83]

Here you go!

 

[waiting2012]

Wow Mandy! Love the pics hun!! I tried to see if I could catch a glimpse of the gender--and I'll be damnned--that lil ones had them legs closed up tight.. I'm so glad you got a good OB this time around!

I'm sorry I didn't make here to let the girls know before you made it here..LOL...I was on my phone when I got the message via FB and had 3 3yr old girls trying to "ride'em cowboy" on my back--no they didn't hurt me..I'm a tough old broad, or would that be a "mare"...LOL...

Jenn... I feel ya hon'... I'm glad you shared the other side of that coin...Yes your dad sounded extreme, but that's the thing--everyone that has a hint of an abusive side--can become extreme... Jason had his hands on my throat and told me to die in front of Adrian--he claims to not remember even to this day--psychiatrists told him it is partly because of his bipolar disorder and partly because for whatever reason--something from his past (more than likely feelings about his mother and his cheating exwife) came to the surface... Took a long time to forgive him for that, and a part of me still hasn't, but I won't tell him that... I know he was pretty tore up about it... So yeah, it can get extreme in an instant...

Andi--I hope you are thinking hard about what is going on sweetie...Like Jenn said--we can give you advice, tell you what we would do but in the end--its all upto you hun. Whatever you decide-we are here to support you... Luv ya girl!

 

[calebsmom06]

Steph-Yea, thats a story I dont really talk about, my mom went through alot with that man. But luckily she met my step-dad who raised me from the age 2 they are still together and he takes care of my mom well. I dont talk to him much because we kind of clash but I know if I need it he is there.

Mandy-I love your pics, I can not wait until we find out what your having as well!

 

[waiting2012]

Oh God... Just got home... Ugh.. Its 104 outside... I sent Adrian to her room cause her ac works the best.'.

Jenn... Thank you. It takes courage and strength to put your past out there.. ... Thats all Im going to say about that.

Andi.. Hope you are doing ok'. We love ya!

 

[calebsmom06]

Just saw a 4 runner for sale here in Corpus and thought of you Tanya...to bad you already got one:/ you couldve come visit hehehe. it says it runs and power locks windows everything and leather interior, etc for 2500 obo. One day we will all have to get together with all of our babies cause I know we will ALL have babies eventually!

 

[brooke1993]

ladies i have a u/s in the am but things arent looking good my 2nd draw showed no rise in fact a drop it was 1852
I am gutted and not trying to be insensetive I know we all have things going on and i will pray for everyone.I am still spotting on and off and well I just know things wont be good tomarrow am but when I have answers I will be back.luv you all

Was 2406 and now this???HOW can this be?AND WHY again?I give up!!!!!!!!!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Mandy I hope things get better with your friend that crap hurts I know it does.....she should be happy for you and forget herself she needs to know there is always adoption and other ways to have babies...not just RUSHING to have a child then it'll always end in a bad situation....baby with no father etc. You know what I mean I'm sure! I LOVE THE SCAN PICS....why did he/she cross his/her legs gahhhh!! LOL

DH an I have talked and we did go to class an he did apologize an for now on I told him I wouldn't be kissing his feet either nor holding his hand....I don't even wanna have sex with him to be honest?!?!?! I duno.....we haven't in the past week! Anyways I did call tonight and refill my meds AF came with a vengeance during my adoption class of course! Then the subject we talked about half the night....INFERTILITY lmfao...THANKS lady! I know its just her job but man that was rough to get through....talking about how its not good to do foster parently for infertile fosters or adoptee parents....soooo well...It didn't really bother me since we decided not to foster...we are just adoption only I couldnt imagine getting CONNECTED so close with a child...only to reunite that child with the bio parents how hard would that be...I don't know an don't wanna know!!! Soooooo anyways I'll update more tomorrow but we do have the mattresses, the bed, and a new computer desk that DH has to put all of it together lol...so hes got his job for the next few weeks planned out LOL.....but tomorrow is a big cleaning day for me to get the house ready for the inspection! I ordered OPK's and HPT's tonight as well as refilled my meds...just needed my Novarel an my Femara (Letrozole) filled...I have plenty of the follistim left! So here's to another cycle!!! FX!

Brooke I am sooooo sorry love there are no words to express how sorry I am....I just pray for a miracle....prayers that maybe it was a twin..and the other will make the numbers come back up miraculously I AM PRAYING for you! I love you as well as the rest of us ladies! Lots of to you darling.....God knows how bad you need it If you need anything we are here for you!

 

[Affyash]

Holy hell so much has happened!

First off, Brooke honey I am SO incredibly sorry I don't even know what to say. I know how devastated you must be and all I think is that God has a different plan for your next little one. Perhaps this one and the one in Dec were just too beautiful to be on this earth and he needed them for something else. My heart goes out to you and I will be thinking of you every day praying for a miracle!

Stephanie, you have got to be shitting me! I would pound that nurse's face in! UM, 122 is a HUGE number compared to 12! So happy for you and I'm dying to find out what your new numbers are. I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you update when you can! Oh and the retreat/walk sounds awesome and it sounds like just what you need. Obviously god has different plans for you too!

Andi I am so sorry to hear what happened with DH. It is absolutely not OK that he puts his hands on you. I hope that you understand and even more that he does. I hope you guys are able to work it out and that he can figure out a different way to take out his anger. His kids cannot be subject to that period. I am so bummed that AF came but I guess at least you know it's not an ectopic. Hoping the pain eases quickly and you guys can get onto a new cycle, new respect, new hope soon. Love you!

Mandy I'm so sorry to hear about how your BF is acting. I know how painful it can be to have a close friend pregnant when you want it so bad, but to take it out on you is not the way. If she needs distance, then fine, but don't take away your joy simply because she's not happy. It's not fair to you or your baby. I hope she comes around soon for all of your sake. The pics are great and I wish we could tell what he/she is!!

Jenn happy first anniversary! I'm glad you had such a good time. What a special day. And you look totally adorable first thing in the morning, I thought you had gotten ready until I read that! Thank you for sharing your story, I'm sure that was hard to talk about. I'm so glad that your mother was finally strong enough to get her kids out of that situation, it could've gotten even worse very quickly. Loves!

Tanya hope things are going well with you and Emma. Great news that you're not dilating quite yet. She needs just a little more time to bake. Hope you're enjoying this time with your mom too!

Amanda, haven't heard from you in awhile, I hope all is well!

Beth I'm glad your birthday wasn't too horrible even though you were on the road. I'm thinking if you didn't catch the eggy this month, next month just has your name on it. Even Gail says so! Hope all is well and SH can turn back into DH! Ugh, men!

I'm doing OK just super tired. I had yesterday off and went in to do my glucose tolerance test. I haven't heard back, but I hope it's OK. The test itself wasn't nearly as bad as I remember it with Q so that's good. My MIL has started watching Quinn for summer which is awesome. She does a ton of stuff around the house for us while she's here. Thank goodness! So much little stuff that I would do if I was home but since I'm working full time I never get a chance to do! And I don't even get along with her that well, but I'm super grateful for her help!

So I got a call from the doctor's office (reg OBGYN) and they're advising me that I need to continue with the pelvic rest. I was like I just saw one of the other doctors on Thurs and they said it wasn't that big of a deal. And the nurse said that the one doctor looked at my ultrasound and since it is a marginal previa, they want to be cautious. Oh well, no biggie for me since I have ZERO sex drive but I feel bad for Joe. We had just worked out a once a week schedule (jokingly and I know, super sexy) so that he could get some love regularly. Sowy honey!

I hope that those of us that are doing well continue to do so and those of us who are under stress and sadness can be uplifted and comforted very soon.

Love you all so much!

 

[waiting2012]

Got to into work but big hugs and replies coming at lunch !

 

[waiting2012]

Brook- I am so sorry sweetie! I pray its just a fluke, and your u/s goes good
I will pray for you hun, and your bean! I know I will be devastated if it does not go well

Andi- I am still praying for you as well! I am sorry AF arrived with a vegenance but glad that you and the dh are making steps to work things out.

Ashe-thanks hun! I would love to find out today but not sure if it will be too soon to get them back or not...

As of right now- still nothing.. Just a very very wet creamy brown cm and my boobs hurt something aweful... Nauseas to the point of almist throwing up again.. I am glad Jason git his orientation day movedso I have car soo Im going to run to the DG for a couple of hpts... My stupid camera still doesnt work though... Ugh... My FB camera link says it cant find my f'ing camera!

Well better get to watching these kiddos!

 

[calebsmom06]

Ok I just read through everything and will respond when I get home. I am sitting at the doc. Office right now waiting to be seen and its hard to respond with my phone so talk to u all in a bit

 

[waiting2012]

Hope this is a good appt Jenn! Dont forget to mention your plug!

 

[waiting2012]

Oh man, just checked the high for today... 107!!! ,my car is saying 95 already... Ugh... Welcome to hot Texas summer..

 

[Kahlan83]

Well I was going to give my friend a few days for her and I to cool off but she didn't give me that chance. Said I was childish for not responding to her right away. anyway we talked (through text) and I just said, I would curb how much I talk about the baby but I wasn't going to walk on eggshells for anybody. I thought we were cool but then she blasts me on facebook. She didn't say my name but anybody she talked to outside of facebook is going to know. It's going to be a long bumpy ride I think. I never bring stuff like that to facebook because it's too personal. I know I talked to you guys on here, but you guys don't know who she is and I don't mention her name. I msg her this morning and said I understand that it was a big blow for us but in future if she could leave our personal stuff off facebook...she said I'm allowed to vent and I didn't say names.... I don't know if I can hang out with her for a while now

She feels that I was unreasonable to be upset with her because she was just telling me how she felt...well I'm sorry I'm entitled to be upset too that my supposed BF resents me and is jealous of me. she doesn't understand why that would upset me.... It's pointless trying to explain to her how I feel so I think I'm going to back away for a while

I still love her, she was like a sister to me but i need time to get over this and I don't know what the outcome will end up being.

I'm going camping this weekend with our best friends. I just hope that this garbage doesn't spoil the trip like it spoiled seeing the baby.

Am I unreasonable?

 

[Kahlan83]

Andi, I hope you don't mind that I put a prayer on facebook for you. I didn't mention your name and made it generic.

Love you and hope that everything works out for you!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Brooke I hope your okay today your in my prayers darling! I pray for God to send you peace of mind....and that he helps you to relax and know that your baby is in Heaven in a better place. I know its gotta be so hard love as I've been right where you sat but everyone takes it different and heals different....so I don't know how you feel.....but I know how I felt and it took my heart and crumbled it ......however I kept praying and God sent me my Tyler...I conceived 32 days later so MIRACLES can happen and I believe they will for you! But I wanna send you all my love today.....and I'll be thinking of you all day long....

Steph....when will you get your next set of numbers? Are they doing more bloods?

Ash....I hope your doing well Just lay around an take care of yourself and little baby We definitely don't need anymore heartache in here!! I'll be praying for ya to keep peace of what is happened with baby but I do know that in the end baby will be just fine!!

Beth...how are you doing today hun?

Jenn I hope your doing good...can't wait for the update!

Mandy.....SHE is the one who is the most childish because SHE mentioned it on fb and SHE had to have an answer RIGHT THEN??? Shes throwing a TWO YEAR OLD TANTRUM because it didn't happen in her time of events....but let her be the childish one and lets be the adults and PRAY for HER first and then your broken heart because I'm sure its in shambles right now I know me and my best friend had a falling out about 3 years ago...and not a day goes by that it doesn't get any easier to think of and our other friends I'll see around and they ask me how she is doing and I tell them "I duno" "ask her" because I've not talked to her in so very long. Its her own fault...she was feeding her two step kids tomato sandwiches....YES TOMATO and BREAD because they were being bad.....well ya think thats not enough nutrition so they acted out worse an became worse and worse and she got child neglect called on her.....so out of PISSYNESS she told everyone I treat my two boys like crap and don't do anything etc. and abuse them etc......when she was the one abusing her own children.....she would compare my child to hers....but now since I know mine has AUTISM....I'm not so partial to it and now everyone can see it wasn't that I abused my son...that was just his normal behaviors of acting out....he still does it just not as bad thankfully it does get a little better the older he gets! THANK GOD...not sure I could handle going through all of it his whole life.....but we made it and hes a great little boy ....both of my guys are my worlds....

....but the only ADVICE I can give....is to give it a while to cool off....if it never does or she can't let things go and start over.....its not meant...and in my case thats what happened everytime she told someone a story about me they'd come tell me over a year later....I knew I had to let my entired SINCE ELEMENTARY school BEST FRIEND go live her own seperate life and I had to live mine. To this day if I see her in a store.....We walk the other way and turn our backs on them....I want nothing to do with them....her husband or their 4 kids.....Thats the part that hurt the most was leaving her kids lives when we were so close.....but you know.....its for the best at that point!

So I pray you guys can work it out......but if it doesn't know that its NOT YOUR FAULT!

Lots of love to you all! I just called and left the FS a message that AF came last night an my meds come Thursday....so we shall see what happens! Talk to you all a little later today

 

[Kahlan83]

Thanks Andi

well I ended up calling her because our text messages were taking too long. Her phone got water damage and now nothing works right. We talked for abit and it seems things are okay for now. I"m not going to rock the boat. It hurts that I can't talk to her about my awesome OB visit...but well I think over time it will be better. I'm trying to be the bigger person and I guess if I really need to talk about baby stuff I have lots of other friends that are more than happy to hear about it.

anyway, hubby's home and will probably want to use the PC. We had a big blow out with our Efed and now him and another guy are going to start a new one. I'll try and get on later.

Lots of love

 

[AndreaFlorida]

https://tlc.howstuffworks.com/tv/a-conception-story/videos/some-progress-some-frustration.htm

Conception stories on TLC LOVE IT! Its mostly military couples Army mostly...but this is cool!

 

[calebsmom06]

Ashley-thank you I sent those pics to my mom to and she was making fun of my zebra pajamas lol, So sorry to hear you are being put back on pelvic rest:/ That sucks. Are you still working? Are they letting you?

Mandy-about your bf, she sounds really insensitive and you shouldnt have to walk on eggshells around her, be careful. I know you want to mend that friendship but it sounds to me like she could cause alot of stress in your pregnancy and you really do not need that. It doesnt seem as if she treats you like a bf honestly

Andi-so sorry AF arrived but hope this next cycle works out for you! Hope everything is going ok with you and your hubby. Hop everything works out the way you want them to.

Tanya-How are you feeling?

Brooke-Dont worry just yet, the numbers may have gone down some but they are still high so try not to be down about it just yet there could still be a positive outcome to it. Will you be getting more blood work done?

Steph-I hope you do hear something today about your numbers, I hope they are getting higher! I would be calling and bugging them.

As for me I had my doc appointment today and it went well, they did the strep test today. I am 2 cm dialated but I know you can stay that way for weeks before labor. Everything seems ok, Cameron's heart rate was in the 130's which concerned me at first but doc seemed ok. I woke up this morning and was having stomach cramp all morning 5-7 min apart but they went away by the time I saw the doc so I didnt even mention it to him. I know it is still considered to early to deliver anyways, but Friday I will be free to have him whenever he is ready I went for a short 10 min. around the block walk when I got home but it is already 100 degrees so thats all I did. I am hoping the baby comes at 37 or 38 weeks I am so scared to have a c-section So I am doing everything possible to support dialation. I even bounce on my yoga ball 10-20 min a day lol. I wonder if I were to go into labor this week being 2 days away from 36 weeks if they would really stop it??? Hmmmm anyways I am anxious to meet him but I want him to be healthy and ready also

 

[waiting2012]

Mandy--I completely forgot to reply to you about your friend--but I totally agree with Andi... My bffs (the dh--I've known since 7th grade and the his wife my other bff--since my senoir year in hs)--We constantly have falling outs--about every 3-4 years..LOL...Although lately, not so much... Our first was when we moved in together and I got stuck cleaning our first apartment together, and the repair bills from their f'ups, and the electric bill...... Then there was a paycheck mailed to her house that she forged my name on; she had an outright affair with some other guy and got pregnant but wasn't going to tell her dh ...Umm..Do I need to go on??? One thing has remained though--when I need her--she's there; when she needs me--I'm there... I don't forget that she has done me wrong in the past--but I forgive her for her transgressions and stupidity... She's not the same person she was 10+ years ago, and I see that...
As far as the pregnancy thing goes with your friend--my son's godparents lost a baby in August of 94'--she was 5 months and the baby had a major deformity heart and brain wise and they chose to terminate and grieve than continue to carry the baby..Shortly after their loss--I found out I was pregnant with Wes.. I was so upside down about telling them--they are the inlaws to the above mentioned BFF's and I've always been just one of the kids to their families... My son's godmother--was sad and felt like I shouldn't have to tiptoe around her because of her loss--I thought long and hard about it and asked them if they wouldn't mind being the godparents..She loved the idea--we (me and my bff's) ended up getting a house with them (YES 5 adults and a baby on the way..LOL) and she was so stoked about Wes joining the clan..It was the best 9 months of my life and I watched her heal and grow--and in May of 95--she got pregnant again--and had a little girl--in fact she has 3 girls now! I'm not sure if you already have godparents in mind for the new baby--but maybe you offer that to her--that you know as much as this difficult for her--being the Godmother to this baby may bring some healing peace to her and then you wouldn't have to tip toe around her and worry about hurting her feelings... Just a thought...

Andi--Yes, I had more blood drawn yesterday--no word yet and tomorrow the doctor is going to be out of the office...I figure friday--I should know something for sure... It seems like so far away but I doubt they'll call today... Great news about your meds! You seem very upbeat and excited! And the homestudy too!! !!

As my FB status said--we are hitting the pool tonite..Jason and the kids were going to go by themselves--but WTH...Its so hot today and it will be unbearable at the house...Going to take advantage of a night of free swimming at the pool!

My spotting is bare there..and yes I picked up a hpt at the DG (ok 2 of them..) I am sitting here holding my pee a little longer so that I can take one..I wish I could figure out why my phone doesn't "find" my camera...I am beginning to wonder if I deleted whatever makes it work from my phone...UGH...

Check back in a bit!