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[waiting2012]

Hey Ladies...
Wish I had some AWESOME, JAW DROPPING news...But don't

Had more blood drawn, this time to verify what was seen. Nothing. Very thick lining, and what looked like the remains of a yolk sac. My dr said my cramping is probably due to the upcoming arrival of a full-blown m/c. It appeared to him that my body was reasorbing much of the reminents (his words, not mine) but that I should begin seeing some spotting or full on bleeding within the week if not sooner. I go back next week to make sure the levels are going down. My cysts look fine to him, no harm there. Another U/S too this time to make sure things are going naturally because he worries that to much scrapping around my uterus will lead to additional scarring that I don't need. He also said it appearred to him that my left ovary--looked to be about ready to release another egg??? WTH??? He said its not uncommon since my body obviously "knew" that something was wrong and was "fixing" itself... Seems to confusing to me, but he was adament that Jason and I NOT have sex right now until the levels are zero and if we do, we are to use some form of contraception. AGAIN, WTH??? Jason asked him how it's possible that this could be happening with the whole left ovary and such, and he explained in terms of how it relates to other women--Lets say...you miscarry, but your levels never reach 0 than start to rise again..That is because during the process of miscarrying--you ovulated again and if you have sex during that time--well..DUH.. Ok, the DUH part was mine... Funny though, I wish I had known all that before the dh had sex last night and this morning... :doh: Damned if I do and Damned if I don't. Looks like I will be seeing my gorgeous ob/gyn for the next 4 weeks... He doesn't think our trysts will do anything, but he wants to closely monitor everything since I obviously didn't know and that way if the numbers go down, and then back up he can be sure to do another u/s right away. I'm not upset about it. I've cried and cried, and cried enough the past 6 weeks. So... I don't know if its good that I secretly want to end up pg again or not.. There is part of me, that knows my body needs a rest, but I leave it to God to bless us or not... In HIS time, Right??

 

[Kahlan83]

I'm sorry to hear that Steph.

Maybe a rest is what you need....either way we're all here for you no matter what you decide to do

 

[waiting2012]

I am just glad of one thing..No matter what the situation as it may be.. It seems my body istrying to be normal. I'll take it for what it's worth.. Hey, I'm ok.. I have to leave it to God to do and know what is best right now.. I'm reeling right now from the news my mom left on FB... My dad had stints put in the left side of his heart and will have to go back and have the right side done in 2 weeks.. His kidneys aren't functioning very good which is why only one side was done. She's not called, emailed, written a letter--nothing. I usually message her on FB since, well..That's the way we are you could say. But it hurts because the last time my dad fell at their mailbox and hit his head on the curb--I told her--Tell me when something is going on with dad. I'm their only daughter--you'd think that would mean something, I guess it doesn't mean as much as it should. I'm not going to go on about it--can't..I guess if he has a heart attack or something-I'll know then, right? It is a two way street. I've not bored her with details of my own physically and emotional well being, why should she bother to fill me in on my dad's.

Talk to ya'll more later..Goto get the kids up from nap.

Lots of love and hugs!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Sorry your having it rough Steph bless your heart can't you catch a flippin' break?!?!?! so sorry.....

My doctor just called and I'm practically sitting here in tears at the moment. I apparently am going to have surgery sometime in the near future....going to the fertility doctor tomorrow praying he can give me more answers than what I have at the moment. I wonder if a cyst pops can clear liquid come out down there? Does anyone know....or would it just sit in your body? I duno....I keep having weird gushy feelings coming about but when I wipe there isn't anything there and my panties are a lil damp so I started wearing pads. Also my right side just started hurting so wondering if I'm developing a cyst over there now Yesterday I couldn't walk good b/c the pain hurt so bad I pray this goes away fast......I'll update tomorrow love you girls an praying for everyone!

 

[waiting2012]

Andi-girl get that checked out!!!! I have not heard of clear liquid gushing, blood yes, but clear stuff nope cant say I have... now I remember the girls mentioning the amount of discharge they have being pg-are you sure your not pg??? I hope your appt goes better than mine did today.. Sorry it looks like another OR trip..

 

[calebsmom06]

ohhh steph im so super sorry. hope you get to feeling better. I know its hard but just know god will bless you!

 

[AmandaBaby]

Only a few mins left of lunch sobim popping on quickly.
I'm so sorry Steph I hope you feel better soon Hun xxxxxxxxx

Will try my best to get on more over the next few days xx

 

[AndreaFlorida]

We miss you Amanda

 

[bnporter81]

Steph, I'm so sorry...I hope you feel better.We've all just gotta hang in there and I believe everything will work out

Andi, I'm sorry for you as well with the surgery. Do you know yet when it will be?

Nothing much on my end...we're celebrating my sons' birthdays this weekend. They'll be 2 and 3. Then on Sunday we're going to take my step-daughter back home to Missouri.

Love and hugs to all of you...hopefully I won't miss much this weekend

Big hugs

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Not too sure I have an appt. at 9:50 central time....so we shall see what happens I have a scan and I'm sure they won't miss my cyst on the left and I think I've got one on the right now as bad as I hurt over there! I'll update soon as I get home DH is going with me to this one!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

...and its still there and waiting on the doc to know if I can continue with this cycle or if we have to wait an see what has to be done about this "strange" cyst as the nurse put it!

 

[Kahlan83]

Andi...did ur doc say anything about the gushing feeling you've been having?
sorry, not exactly sure what I'm looking at in that picture....

Steph...all we can do is leave stuff like this with god and pray for the best. I'm not overly religious, but you guys know that, but I do believe in prayer...it's always worked for me, even if it's just being positive

nothing new around here. my ob appt got changed to Monday cuz apparently my ob isn't going to be there on Wednesday. and my ultrasound is on the 26th. that will probably be the last time I get to see baby before she's born....then she won't stop growing.

Can't believe that in a month my baby is going to be 3.... seems like I was just pregnant with him. My parents and my godparents are buying him a powerwheels. He's going to go apeshit over it I just know it. He's so into cars.

Well hope everyone is having a fabulous day, despite the hardships. It was nice enough today that I could take Matty to the park but it looks like it's going to rain...and I might get to go and see a midnight screening of the new batman movie with my man...depends on if his friend can't go or not... I'm actually kind of excited for it and so thankful that my mom is willing to come and stay at our house that late for a few hours

love you all ur all fabulous

 

[AndreaFlorida]

The big ole black thing is my cyst the ugly stupid headed thing needs to go away The good news is 19 follies on the right which is MORE THAN IVE EVER HAD!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT...the highest ever was 12 once! ohhhh and Jason's count is now 230 million from the 70 million last year they think he has too many an that may be an issue....then...his morphology went from 4% to now 15% MUCH BETTER

 

[Kahlan83]

good to hear that you found a silver lining today hun!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

For fun....hmph ...I'll get better pic with hubbs phone when he comes in but I guess my cyst gives me lines Screen tilter!

Just got a call and I got the go ahead to start my meds tomorrow YAY!

 

[waiting2012]

Ok, very quick, will try to get on with my phone at home...

Screen tilter?? I don't think so--I can see that!!! LOL...And that is some cyst Andi--mine is nothing like that!! Wowie...But that is such good news about the follies and the hubby's men!! So meds start tomorrow? YAY!!

Mandy--Hope your doing good hun, like I said--I'll try to be on when I get home--I should have left 30 minutes ago..

Hahahahahahah I'm feeling good, just didn't want to rush home yet.. Let the hubby think I'm working late..LOL..

Hope I can get on somewhat at home! See ya there..LOL

Any word from Tanya?? Didn't see her post today, or did I miss it???

Love ya'll!

Amanda--Keep on checking in hun! Goes for the rest of you--Slackers...

Just kidding ya..I have to keep the ole' chin up...

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I have better pics now I'll upload in a lil bit

 

[TandA08]

I'm here Steph!!! No baby yet!

DH and I finally tried the good ol' Still no baby yet!!!

I have my Dr appt in about an hour and a half, so we'll see what she says. Emma just doesn't seem to be ready yet, but I guess to be fair she's not really due for 8 more days

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Here are the other pics of the test from yesterday...totally forgot to put them on here lol woopsy! I had a job interview today and turned it down....wouldn't be paying me but lousy 8 dollars an hour and its an hour drive round trip away...so I'd be paying more in daycare and gas than making anything so just waiting for another interview offer I guess everything in life is a waiting game. Waiting for a good job, waiting for college funds to go in, waiting for the girls, waiting to have a baby, waiting for the doc to figure out what to do about this cyst, and waiting to see you all have your bundles of joy to! LOL...LOTS OF WAITING! Well I'm gonna go fill out more applications why my kids are playing at my moms with their cousin they haven't seen in a year so they were really excited to go play for the day so I figured I'd make this time useful and job hunt some more

 

[waiting2012]

I'll be schnizzle-sticked..... Yep them are some tests you got there Andi! I seem dem' dare' lines reeeal good.... Ok poor attempt at hillbilly humor.. Suck at that too I see..

Tanya--I hope your appointment goes as well as you hope it does.. First babies are the trickiest ya know.. They can go early more than 75% I think it is go late by either days or weeks.. I lucked out with Wes--I was due April 5th with him after they moved my due date twice and he was born emerg/cs on the 4th AFTER losing my plug the night of the 2nd, and being in labor all day on the 3rd.. .. I'm so glad Adrian was a planned baby--I knew exactly when she was making her appearance after we decided to do the c/section route rather than inducing for VBAC--I have NO REGRETS either--I think I did myself a favor since she was breech and my doctor didn't believe me.. A mother knows..

I hope you have good luck on the job search, and get those loans and grants applied for.. The sooner you get them applied for the better! It takes 6-8 weeks to get responces sometimes, and its not something you want to wait on with August approaching most colleges *junior or higher up* will be doing enrollment and all that soon.. Plus if you have to take an entrance test--you have to plan on the scores taking a bit to get back too.. We are still waiting on Jason's results of his THEA then he can enroll in his Math and English courses.

Going to venture to FB, need to check on my dad, etc...
Hope ya'll have a great weekend! Tanya--if Emma decides to come when I don't have internet access--I'm sure someone will let me know.. ..LOL