Scared at how Im feeling

[Jacey]

I had an early natural miscarriage at Xmas. I ve been feeling a bit odd lately with a range of symptoms etc and they seem to me to be getting worse and its starting to scare me. Nobody else though friends or family seem to have picked up that there is anything wrong or that Im behaving differently so im thinking am I imagining all this.

Im just wondering if any of you think or would associate these symptoms with just being hormonal or perhaps some form of depression maybe?? I cant get in at my docs until Fri and I feel so so deperate, its seems worse of an evening too.

Since around 14th Jan I ve had these symptoms on and off

Really nervy & panicky at times for no apparant reason ??? really out of character.
Crying all the time, irrational etc,

I feel a bit out of control, I dont know what Im doing half the time,cant seem to function or get jobs done etc. Im not thinking anything really, mind just seems empty. I dont feel suicidal but do feel like whats the point of life and thats what is scaring me the most. Im not normally like this, I ve never had PMT or depressive illness'es and Im not sure if Im just exhausted and thats whats making me feel like this or if im actually going mad.

I asked my partner if he thought i was behaving oddly and he said no, that freaks me out too as I think Im not being my normal self.

Also I ve noticed the following more physical symptoms:

Suddenly getting really tired / feel exhaused
Achy all over
Occassional Sore boobs sometimes tingly
Really emotional & weepy - very out of character
Odd feeling in my tummy - feels tight & sometimes a bit like there is a ping pong ball inside, not like a stomach churn but just wierd
Left sided intermitent abdominal pains and cramping
Intermittent back pains
Frequent cramping in left ovary
Excessive clear watery discharge which just gushes out every now and then {since 13th Jan}, no itchyness, smell etc


Any thoughts on whether all this could be hormone related and if so any ideas roughly it takes for hormones to return to normal?

Thanks x

 

[Orange lady]

I'm so sorry you're not feeling good.
The physical symptoms are pretty much how I felt after my ERPC in December. Your body has been through a massive ordeal, it's bound to take time to get back to normal. And with pregnancy, it's the hormones too! All completely out of your control of course.
The emotional stuff, tiredness, irritability, tearfullness etc. This is perfectly normal. You have suffered a berievement. It's a reallt rough time. I had weeks where I just didn't feel like I was on the planet. Like I was looking in on myself. Very weird. But ALL NORMAL.
By all means, take a trip to the doctors and see what he says for peace of mind. But you need to not be so hard on yourself. You have been through a traumatic time. If you want to cry, you must do so. It will all feel so much better in time, but in the meantime, give yourself a break.
Sending you big hugs

 

[susan_1981]

I'm so sorry for how you are feeling. As for your physical symptoms, is there a chance you could be pregnant again?

 

[Jacey]

Thanks nice to hear the word normal lol x Just scares me that I feel so out of control, I worry that I might do something out of control or get to a point where i dont know what im doing and i think thats what started to scare me. I just want to feel normal again but havent a clue how long all this is going to last for x

 

[Jacey]

Susan - its not impossible that I could be pregnant again but I have no idea when I would have ovulated. I had ovualtion style cramping around 6th Jan for 4 days and again around 14th Jan for 3 days. Have no idea when AF will be due either.

Had intercourse a few times on other halfs days off {bout 4 times} but we are not tech trying this month as we simply weren't sure when would be a good time to as my cycle will be all over the place following the m/c. Therefore wouldnt have a clue when to test

I tested neg on a hpt on 12th Jan and have had sex twice since this date x

 

[becky77]

Sorry your feeling like this, but as orange lady says it is normal, when it happened to me i was walking around for about 2 weeks feeling like i had no emotions at all and just dead inside, but eventually i started to feel normal again, but it does take time, so just rest and give yourself time. see your dr if you wish about the physical stuff just to get some peace of mind.

hope you feel better soon

xx

 

[ellie]

hey jacey, just wanted to say that i'm sorry about your loss. i definitely felt like that for a few weeks after mine and it felt better with time. i did try counselling but the woman i saw was incredibly unhelpful and i never went back - but if you found the right person it can be really useful.
i'm afraid i don't know about the other symptoms - but take care of yourself and go easy on yourself

 

[Jacey]

Did a further hpt early detection test this evening but it was def a BNP so think safe to say preg ruled out. Physical symptoms must be something else - will see what doc thinks on fri x

Thanks all xx

 

[MrsJD]

Jacey,

Sorry to hear about your loss. It so hard after a misscarriage and I know with my first one last July I was like a loon ball, highes and lows, DH would stay out my way incase I blew for no reason, couldn't sleep infact one morning at 4am I went to do our weekly shopping at the 24hr ASDA

As for your physical symptoms you'll need to wait till you get to the doctors, maybe it's hormones playing up.

X

 

[Drazic<3]

Im so sorry to hear of your loss.

Our emotions take us all kinds of places sweety, and grieving comes out in so many different ways. As you have said, i would recommend you nipping to the doctors to discuss your concerns. Good luck

 

[vickielm]

Hi chick. I have been the same although your symptoms do seem like pregnancy symptoms! I am still testing pregnant and that is nearly two weeks after D+C. I only have blood spots and brown dischargy spotting now and again. Although after having a bath a do get a surge which feels like i have peed myself! By the colour though (slight browny tinge) there must have been some water get into the dark hole in the bath! Nothing that has concerned me yet though! Hope you are feeling better soon hunny. It is better to get it all out of your system now than hold it all in.

If i was you i would speak to your OH as although men pretend that they are not hurting, they are going through the same felling of loss as we are.

Ha Ha MrsJD! I have not been sleeping well due to very weird dreams and excessive thurst keeping me awake (not sure if it is the few vodkas i have had!). Not going to ASDA though, spend enough when the supermarket is busy, never mind when i have all the time in the world to browse!

Hops your ok and if you need to talk PM me.

XX

 

[Jacey]

Aww thanks hun, these symptoms have been driving me nuts on and off, I feel more in control of myself now, the other day I didnt and that kind of freaked me ot a bit lol, was looking for the men in white coats x

I think takes slightly longer after a D&C to get a BFN, I got my BFN on 12/1 and my m/c started around 25/12 bt I reckon my BFN would have been here sooner had I tested earlier. Hope u start to feel better soon too x

I did another preg test yesterday morning using FMU - i tried an early detection test as Im not sure when I may have ovulated as have had freqent ov pains since my m/c and do not know when my period will be due following the m/c and my normal ireg periods.

I had what could have been a faint pos or just as easily an evap line - after obcessing about it for a few hours i decided to leave it another week and not think about it until then and maybe retest again

Was due to see GP today but they called to cancel my apt first thing, however this suited me as I ve spend all day in bed feeling really sick and tired, fortunately I woke in time for the soaps lol x