I am lonely and scared. I have written 800 posts in two days. My husband got a vasectomy reversal in December. I am just now able to conceive if the surgery was successful. I refuse the sperm count because I am scared. I have seven days to my test. My 1000th test since the surgery even when I KNEW there were no sperm. I don't have friends because I am full time college. We are broke and have no biz having kids. Not like welfare but hard times. I need to finish school. I need to have a baby. My nine year old is helpful but typical "man" and doesn't participate in discussions about babies lol. My BB's hurt and I might be pg but got a BFN on CD22. Of course. I can't find anyone in my situation. And to make it better, everybody thinks I am manipulative for my husbands vas reversal. They say I conned him. It isn't fair, it was a joint decision. It STINKS. I am so emotional right now.