Jennifurball
Mother of 1 and a bump!
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I feel so guilty. With my first it was my whole world, every day was wrapped up in excitement of buying clothes and sorting the cot etc.
This time round, it's already started off bad because the dad is a dickhead, I am doing it alone, I have a 4 year old and Christmas is coming up - so finances are putting a dampener on it but even aside from that, I haven't felt 'excited' - of course I love him, but I am scared I won't love him as much as my first and it upsets me soooooooooooo much.
I am nearly mid 30's, knackered, working, just moved house and in middle of decorating, everything is just overwhelming.
Is it normal to feel this way on your second or do you think its my circumstances that have taken the shine off it?
I am going for a bonding scan in 2 weeks so I can see his little face properly and hopefully that will make it feel more real. I think that's it really, it doesn't feel real yet. I am not even close to being prepared apart from mountains of clothes I have for him. His dad can't be involved because of his serious mental behaviour so it feels already like not a 'normal' pregnancy because I have no one.
Sorry to moan lol, I should be over the moon. x
This time round, it's already started off bad because the dad is a dickhead, I am doing it alone, I have a 4 year old and Christmas is coming up - so finances are putting a dampener on it but even aside from that, I haven't felt 'excited' - of course I love him, but I am scared I won't love him as much as my first and it upsets me soooooooooooo much.
I am nearly mid 30's, knackered, working, just moved house and in middle of decorating, everything is just overwhelming.
Is it normal to feel this way on your second or do you think its my circumstances that have taken the shine off it?
I am going for a bonding scan in 2 weeks so I can see his little face properly and hopefully that will make it feel more real. I think that's it really, it doesn't feel real yet. I am not even close to being prepared apart from mountains of clothes I have for him. His dad can't be involved because of his serious mental behaviour so it feels already like not a 'normal' pregnancy because I have no one.
Sorry to moan lol, I should be over the moon. x