secretly given up.

[MissWhite91]

Me and oh have been trying for almost three years now and to be honest ive cried so much i cant anymore. I havent got POS my bloodwork is normal but it still isnt happening. I feel so lost and like i have noone to talk to. I feel guilty.if i have a drink because it effects everything but i dont drink all the time just once in a blue moon. I have a brilliant new job working with babies (nursery assistant) and honestly i absaoutley love it! Im concerntrating on that but when your sitting alone wishing and wanting to be able to.hold your own child its hard. I consder myself quite strong but my lines been crossed. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this?

Keely x

 

[babylaw720]

Me and oh have been trying for almost three years now and to be honest ive cried so much i cant anymore. I havent got POS my bloodwork is normal but it still isnt happening. I feel so lost and like i have noone to talk to. I feel guilty.if i have a drink because it effects everything but i dont drink all the time just once in a blue moon. I have a brilliant new job working with babies (nursery assistant) and honestly i absaoutley love it! Im concerntrating on that but when your sitting alone wishing and wanting to be able to.hold your own child its hard. I consder myself quite strong but my lines been crossed. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this?

Keely x

I don't really have advice on how to deal with it, but I just want you to know that you're not alone. DH and I have been trying for 13 months, and I feel like my reproductive system is getting worse. It's hard for me to look at facebook at all the pregnancy annoucements and new babies and not be upset that it's not me. I have a hard time even spending time with my nieces and nephews who are all under 3, because I feel like the spinster aunt who's never going to have children of her own. I just take it day by day, I try to think about other things, although its hard. Just keep strong, it will happen. I know that's hard to hear, even I hate hearing it, but I truly believe that one day it will. Chin up buttercup.

 

[MolGold]

I can understand how you feel. I have had a loss earlier at 7 weeks, and try as I might, I haven't been able to conceive in the last 7 cycles inspite of good tubes and semen.. trying all possible things. It wasn't supposed to be so hard, eh? No offense to anyone but I see ladies TTCing to complete their family of four, while I am coping with TTCing # 1 for a long while!

All I can say is, we are here for you if you want to vent. in the meanwhile, have that wine glass if you want to. Last 2 months I have tried to take it easy, read lots of books, went for walks - basically tried to lessen my obsession for googling all things TTC, and it has helped me cope.

XX

 

[Tink_]

Hi Keely,

I'm so sorry for everything you are experiencing. TTC is such a heart-breaking roller coaster at times, and especially as you have been trying for so long. I've been TTC for 15 months and I really can't imagine how unbearable for you it must be after 3 years.

I'd definitely suggest talking on here, unless being on the site makes you feel worse of course, but I was thinking that perhaps starting a journal on here might help you or joining one of the support threads? This last month I've been a part of two very supportive threads and I found it really helped. Even though I still felt quite obsessed, it helped to talk with others about what was going on and also hear from others about what they were experiencing so it was much less lonely. If you had a journal, you could write out everything you are feeling which often helps anyway but also you of course can then get the supportive replies!

Thinking of you x

 

[Angel022605]

Me and oh have been trying for almost three years now and to be honest ive cried so much i cant anymore. I havent got POS my bloodwork is normal but it still isnt happening. I feel so lost and like i have noone to talk to. I feel guilty.if i have a drink because it effects everything but i dont drink all the time just once in a blue moon. I have a brilliant new job working with babies (nursery assistant) and honestly i absaoutley love it! Im concerntrating on that but when your sitting alone wishing and wanting to be able to.hold your own child its hard. I consder myself quite strong but my lines been crossed. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this?

Keely x

I'm sorry :/ I've got a friend the has been TTC for about the same length if not longer, tried every fertility treatment known to man, and still can't conceive. She's ok with it though because she enjoys being an aunt and loves her business. Yes her and her DH have been so heart broken but they are both Christians and turn to God. She may try again in a few yrs. She's always very positive about everything no matter what. Also my DH has an aunt who had a still birth and decided to never try again and their baby is their dog. I've got one more friend who was told she was unfertile and she's ok with that because she fosters English bulldogs and has 2 of her own. She enjoys it. Just keep trying. It'll happen one day Always try and think positive. Here's to you