September Snugglers 2016

[Uni tsi]

Ladies! You have not lost one ounce of my support! I'm hanging back, but still popping in to see your wonderful updates. Hope you all don't mind . I just get so invested in everyone's story, and it's hard to say goodbye.

I'm so sorry the mood is so somber here. It's really the last thing I would want for any of you, but I definitely get it. I know the thought of what happened to me is scary. I felt that fear every day between my BFP and my 8 week scan, but I'm so glad I chose to focus on the happiness and joy instead. The worry wouldn't have changed one thing, and now I can look back on the short time I had with fondness instead of fret and fear. Please, not for me but for your own sakes, treasure every single day. This sounds odd to say, but I even treasure the time I had between the baby passing and my scan. It feels ok that I didn't find out earlier, because that time was still just so amazing. I know that it doesn't really work this way, but I hope that maybe just maybe I, and the others who have lost, have taken the bullet for the group so the rest of you won't have to go through that...but if you do, I'll be here for you and I hope you too can look back through the tears with a heart full of love instead of pain.

Ttc and I are in touch and supporting one another, and my life is so very full of love and support from family, friends, and furbabies . Only a few know what I'm going through, but they're the ones whom I trust the most. My journal is short but up and in my signature now. Feel free to pop in any time.

Look back on those beautiful, healthy scans. There is so much more of that now and to come in here!

I was coming over here from ttc after a loss, and at first, I thought maybe I shouldn't post on this board where everyone was so happy and I would just be a little black rain cloud reminding everyone that horrible things can happen. But I see, there is sadness everywhere. I have so much empathy for those who had losses this time.

Leson what you wrote brought me to tears. Your strength is an inspiration, and I am going to try to apply what you wrote to my last pregnancy, so that I can enjoy this one.

Edit - by the way, I hope this post didn't come off as selfish. I know I'm late to the conversation, and you don't know much about me. But, I just wanted to express how much it meant to me that the ladies who had losses shared them here. I am sorry anyone ever has to experience that, but I also found the support and love that was expressed to be really touching.

 

[Mummy1506]

Scan day has arrived. So so nervous hopefully see a nice healthy bean in there.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Leson - such beautiful words, and wise! I'm glad you are remembering all the joy and happiness, you were (and, amazingly, still are) such a positive voice in here. I hope you are taking good care of yourself. Xx

We all have worries whether they be in the back of our minds, or for those who have been through a loss before, maybe not so far back. As much as last week scared me I want to look back on this time and remember it in a positive light (whatever happens) it's an incredible time in mine and DHs life and I don't know how many times it may happen. This being our first, it certainly won't be the same again. This group is a wonderful support, so far in just 4 weeks it has made me cry with laughter and sadness, and it will pick itself back up again. Sending all my positive thoughts to all the snugglers.

And mummy - good luck with your scan today! Can't wait to see some pics!

 

[MummaMoo]

Lots of luck for your scan today Mummy1506!!

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Mummy, best of luck with your scan. Looking forward to pictures!

 

[xanzaba]

Good luck mummy!

 

[LoraLoo]

Good luck for your scan, Mummy.

How is everyone else today? I feel completely and utterly exhausted, and ive not even done anything.

 

[mrs unicorn]

I'm feeling better than yesterday, the nausea isn't as strong. Still shattered though. Looking forward to eating a load of chocolate and ice cream on pancakes for dinner tonight!! (The nausea best not ruin that for me!)

 

[suspectpink]

Good luck for your scan, Mummy.

How is everyone else today? I feel completely and utterly exhausted, and ive not even done anything.

Today is the first day I haven't felt like a dust bin 😊 I've managed to get housework done ... well needed my dear little boy is still in his pj's though I'm feeling like I've overdone it now so might try for a nap xx hope you feel better soon xxxx

 

[suspectpink]

Scan day has arrived. So so nervous hopefully see a nice healthy bean in there.

Good luck with your scan can't wait to see pics xxxx

 

[MummaMoo]

Here, still feeling a bit poo, so am having a sick day today too, might even do the same tomorrow. Usually when I feel a bit off, I'll work regardless, but I'm just thinking "stuff it". Plus my boss practically announced my pregnancy in our monthly meeting on Friday so am annoyed at him.
At a really awkward stage where my normal clothes are feeling too tight, but maternity clothes are too big!

 

[Lallie81]

Off for my scan in an hour too! So nervous I can't even describe it.

Big shout out to those coping with ms. .. have had one day with a d&v bug and am positively floored, great respect to you all coping with those sort of feelings on a daily basis xx

 

[MummaMoo]

Lots of luck for your scan too Lallie!

 

[mrs unicorn]

Mummamoo I can't believe how badly your work have handled this. Really feel for you. I'd say yeah stuff them! If you're not feeling up to it take a few days off. I'm taking it easy/skiving today too. One of my clients is driving me round the bend so need to take a break. It's making me question whether I really want to go back to working for them after maternity leave. Don't know what else I would do though.

Lallie - good luck for your scan! X

 

[Hope16]

I had my final ultrasound with my RE. Everything's great. Baby is measuring perfectly and the heart rate was 173 bpm. I cried. I am so overwhelmed with emotions lately.

Here is a picture from today's scan. Everyone please meet baby Tanelli.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Oh hope that is a wonderful scan!!! You can see so much! Really made me smile and coo!

 

[LoraLoo]

Lovely pic Hope 😃

 

[xanzaba]

Good luck Lallie.

Hope that is a beautiful shot- looks like s/he's dancing!

Well, MS has picked up a bit again, but probably because I've been less careful, eating sweet breakfasts instead of savory. A little bit of cheese, however, and everything is back to normal. But I am completely off preggie pops. It started with one flavor early on (the green apple tasted like soap) and gradually got worse until even the orange was impossible. No doubt, pregnancy is a wild ride.

 

[Hope16]

Thanks ladies. On one hand I am so thrilled everything is great and I am graduating from my RE to my regular obgyn. My next appointment is Feb 25th. On the other hand I feel like they were my security blanket and I'm scared to no longer be under the care of such an amazing staff. It's bittersweet no less. Everyone at the facility was giving me hugs and praise. I couldn't stop crying. Even my doctor gave me a big hug. It was really nice. I think I am going to send them a beautiful goodie basket with a thank you card.

 

[MummaMoo]

Well hello there baby Tanelli! Totally a reason to get emotional!

Yeah MrsUnicorn, it really does seem like work is trying it's hardest to ruin things. Although in the grand scheme of things, it's not the end of the world, but it's MY news to share when I want people to know. I really wanted to hold off until the scan. There are a select few that I've told, so It'll be interesting to hear if they've been quizzed about it. If they are, It'll be annoying because I've kept it quiet from people I know don't really care, they'll just want to know because they are the kind of people that HAVE to know everyone's business.