Ladies! You have not lost one ounce of my support! I'm hanging back, but still popping in to see your wonderful updates. Hope you all don't mind
. I just get so invested in everyone's story, and it's hard to say goodbye.
I'm so sorry the mood is so somber here. It's really the last thing I would want for any of you, but I definitely get it. I know the thought of what happened to me is scary. I felt that fear every day between my BFP and my 8 week scan, but I'm so glad I chose to focus on the happiness and joy instead. The worry wouldn't have changed one thing, and now I can look back on the short time I had with fondness instead of fret and fear. Please, not for me but for your own sakes, treasure every single day. This sounds odd to say, but I even treasure the time I had between the baby passing and my scan. It feels ok that I didn't find out earlier, because that time was still just so amazing. I know that it doesn't really work this way, but I hope that maybe just maybe I, and the others who have lost, have taken the bullet for the group so the rest of you won't have to go through that...but if you do, I'll be here for you and I hope you too can look back through the tears with a heart full of love instead of pain.
Ttc and I are in touch and supporting one another, and my life is so very full of love and support from family, friends, and furbabies
. Only a few know what I'm going through, but they're the ones whom I trust the most. My journal is short but up and in my signature now. Feel free to pop in any time.
Look back on those beautiful, healthy scans. There is so much more of that now and to come in here!