septembryos baby area (09 babies)

[K477uk]

Hey girlies...gna catch up properly in a bit... but jus wanted to say wrk wasnt as bad as I expected today, which helped lift my mood...Buuuttt...
Im now poorly sick!!

I have a sickness bug and cant keep anythin down, not even water
And I have really bad pains in my tum

hope you feel better soon! Glad work was ok though!

 

[Silas]

Hey all, Just got back from the doctors and feel a bit scared now. I'm 19wks today. My blood pressure is up and because I've had a headache for the 4th day in a row there is a small chance it could be a sign of pre-eclampsia.
She has told me to take 2 paracetamol tonight and has prescribed me some codine which I'm to take 1 before bed.
if I still have the headache by tomorrow lunchtime then I need to go to the hospital for tests. I'm really worried and hope my headache goes tonight.

The other thing I spoke to her about was feeling the baby move, I felt it loads up until last week and bab has been really quiet all week so the GP listened to the heartbeat - which was fine. She has asked me to start a kick chart and if I haven't felt anything by the end of the week I need to go back and see her.

so ...off to bed now to get rid of the headache hopefully...!
I don't want to go to the hospital tomorrow!

 

[K477uk]

I've got my fingers crossed that your headache goes!! I know it's easy to say, but try not to worry about the possibility of going into hospital as it may stress you out, and then make the headache worse!

 

[star-dust]

Hey all, Just got back from the doctors and feel a bit scared now. I'm 19wks today. My blood pressure is up and because I've had a headache for the 4th day in a row there is a small chance it could be a sign of pre-eclampsia.
She has told me to take 2 paracetamol tonight and has prescribed me some codine which I'm to take 1 before bed.
if I still have the headache by tomorrow lunchtime then I need to go to the hospital for tests. I'm really worried and hope my headache goes tonight.

The other thing I spoke to her about was feeling the baby move, I felt it loads up until last week and bab has been really quiet all week so the GP listened to the heartbeat - which was fine. She has asked me to start a kick chart and if I haven't felt anything by the end of the week I need to go back and see her.

so ...off to bed now to get rid of the headache hopefully...!
I don't want to go to the hospital tomorrow!

 

[misswren]

booo it's all going downhill, I have gone from bits of snuffle to heavy headed grim but I think that is the weather...hopefully a storms a coming......
Hope everyone feels better soon!!!!!

 

[Siyren]

gah some names escape me
but marg, misswren, and silas, i hope you all feel better soon.
silas- hope your headache goes
marg- awww hugs honey, stomach bug is never nice.
anyway.
i found a friend on facebook that i havent seen in years.
and im going shopping int he nearest city on wed with a friend who's parent is so overprotective she's never been allowed to go before!

 

[babytots]

Hey girlies...gna catch up properly in a bit... but jus wanted to say wrk wasnt as bad as I expected today, which helped lift my mood...Buuuttt...
Im now poorly sick!!

I have a sickness bug and cant keep anythin down, not even water
And I have really bad pains in my tum

glad work went ok today! sorry you have a sickness bug hope it clears soon and you stop being sick.

i think i'm coming down with a cold my eldest has passed on her cough to me and my throat feels really sore just what i need to make me feel better.

rachy and siyren congrats on reaching 15 and 16 weeks thats fab! time is going so fast now.

anyways i have time now to post about how i've been feeling. please dont think bad of me though and i apologise for the ramble.

yesterday when i had the scan and was told it was a girl i felt sad it wasnt a boy but then happiness soon took over and i forgot all about wanting to have a boy. but then later on i was cuddled up to my youngest she was fast asleep on me and it dawned on me shes not going to be my baby girl anymore and i feel so guilty that she might feel pushed out when this baby comes (shes 100% mummys girl). she already hates it when hollie and i do things together and she has to join in so i dread to think what she will be like with this baby. we have such a special bond when she was born her daddy didnt take an interest in her as much as our other daughter and when she was 4 months old we spilt up (we worked things out eventually) but for the first 7 months of her life she only had her mummys love and thats why she is such a mummys girl. i feel sad that i might lose that bond with her as its so special to me and i dont want her to hate me when this baby comes.

it then got me thinking how having a boy would be so much better as then she would still be my baby girl and then i felt guilty for thinking that as of course i'm happy with whichever sex this baby is all i care about is that shes healthy.

i then got even more upset about the fact i'm never going to have a son not if df has his way and tbh its breaking my heart. if i knew in the future some day we could try again for a boy i wouldnt feel so sad.its like i'm greiving for the son i'll never have.

so last night i was in floods of tears and i told df how i felt and he hugged me and reassured me and said that charlotte wont hate me and we wont lose that bond and it doesnt matter that we wont have a son (but to me it does i guess men dont get our maternal side). i asked him if he thought i was horrible for feeling the way i was and he said no but something in his voice made me think he did.

today i have been feeling so down and the excitement of having another girl has gone.i feel so emotional and can't stop feeling guilty and sad that i'm not having a son. i hate feeling like this after all the pain it took to get here i should be happy and i am happy just not as happy as i could be iykwim.

i think i have gone into some sort of denial with the sex as well. the pic i was given isnt a very good shot as baby wasnt letting us get a good view and i'm sure on the pic it looks like baby has a willy. then tell myself dont be daft prob just the umbilical cord or something. it has been known to get boys mixed up with girls and part of me is hoping that at my 20 week scan they might say boy. i need to let go of this and just accept the fact its just a girl i'm just struggling atm.

anyways like i say please dont hate me. the above post sounds so selfish and i feel ever so guilty that i feel this way and keep apologising to my baby coz deep down i do love her its just going to take time to get used to her being a girl.

right going to stop writing now and pick up some more chocolate in the hope it makes me feel better. hoping df hasnt noticed me crying as i know he doesnt understand how i feel.

oh and one last thing today for the first time in about 12 weeks i ate some mash and kept it down only just though did have a bit of a just about to be sick episode but i was determined to keep it down as i really hate being sick when you have enjoyed a meal iykwim. x

 

[Siyren]

lmao well done on the mash.
now to the more serious bit,
tbh honey i dont think anyone has the right to judge you, and i commend you on both recognising and admitting your feelings.
however i think your right, your grieving for the loss of the possibilty of having a son, and thats gonna take time, but once your through it, you can really begin to love your gorgeous baby girl x

 

[babytots]

thanks siyren that means alot i know i could trust on you girls for support. its just so hard as i was looking forward to the possibilty of having a boys nursery and being able to do something totally different and enter the unknown iykwim. even though i knew there was a 50/50 change if it going either way i really thought i might of got my boy this time. when i was younger i always dreamed of having 2 girls and then a boy and am sad thats not happened. its so hard to explain.

thanks again hunni for being understanding.

silas coming your way i really hope it isnt pre-eclampsia and your headache goes soon. i wouldnt worry to much on baby movements at this stage they still have so much room and can do sdomersaults and get themselfs in strange positions. it could be that baby has his/her back to you and so kicking towards your spine and you cant feel it. last week i worried that my baby hadnt moved especially after having a horrid dream about her. after the 3rd day i used my doppler and got her h/b and when travelling to my gender scan the next day she wasnt to happy about me being sat in the car and was giving me really strong kicks. hope that things go ok. keep us updated.

misswren hope you feel better soon too. x

 

[Siyren]

your welcome honey.
im toddling off for a lil while, make my snack after my tabelt and have some ghost whipserer watching time lmao.
you can def count on us for support, mad as that support may be lol.

 

[misswren]

Aww thanks for the well wishes guys!

Don't you worry about a thing babytots, go through whatever you need to and say whatever is on your mind. Tomorrow is another day, and in the meantime you are obviously so fab at the girl babymaking that mother nature thought, yeah, more sisters please!!!!

I do kinda get what you mean though - I have thoughts of wishing my baby to be a boy so that my girls aren't pushed out then I feel like a girl is better as I know where I am at, your brain does put you through the wringer, as does your heart, but you know you have that unconditional love for your baba and how ace is it that you get to process this now and not at the hospital when they're throwing post-natal depression questionnaires at you?! Every cloud hun...

Seriously though, big for you xxxxx

 

[babytots]

thanks again siyren and to you too misswren glad you see where i am coming from. yes it is very true that i know now rather then when i have had her. was the reason why i wanted to find out so if it was a girl i could prepare myself i think if i had waited for a suprise i would of no doubt got post-natal depression. at least i have the next 23 weeks to get used to the idea and hopefully with each day that passes that sadness will fade and be replaced by happiness for my lil girl.

its going to be hard too as i know once i have this baby i will get incredibly broody and that longing for a boy wont ever go away. if i could win the lottery it would solve all my problems as then my df would let me have as many kids as i want lmao! i'm just hoping maybe in the future he may change his mind and agree to one last baby (if it was up to me i would have 4 to even out the numbers).

so glad i got you ladies to talk to really need a listening ear without any judgement (which i know my friends in real life would do).

anyways siyren enjoy your ghost whisperer (i've never watched it myself is it any good?)

i'm sat in bed as i was trying to get my youngest to sleep but given up and shes now downstairs with her daddy. sore throat seems to be getting worse by the hour just hopnig i dont get a full blown cold as am sure the sickness will make an unwelcome return along with it.

oh and i was looking at babies r us to see what i can get for the babies room the only nursery set i really liked was hugely expensive 60 pounds for a cot quilt,bumper,fleecy blanket and a cot sheet then theres the uplighter,curtains etc to buy so its a no no! there was another one i liked but i didnt see a border to match. going to look at mothercares website see what they have. x

 

[Siyren]

mothercare do such a cute "please look after me" range, i think its adorable.
thanks yeah i am enjoying my ghost whisperer.- and its def good, though whenever she gets a ghost to cross over and the loved ones are saying bye, or something equally as emotional happens, i get all hormonal and teary lmao
gah i can't go to bed til one cos i was late taking a tablet earlier so i still need to fit one more in.
meh.
you lovely ladies will be off to bed soon i guess?

 

[misswren]

I was knackered before and have a bit of a headcoldy thing on the go so got an early night like a good girl and now I have just woken up
Bah.
Stupid time to be up................hope it isn't a time bubs is gonna mider me haha

 

[misswren]

OK - More weirdness warning

I got back to sleep about an hour after the last post I did then somehow had a dream where a doctor or someone told me the best way we could cure our headaches was to use orange sherbert. The trick was (bear with me) to imagine the tongue as a road map of England and apply sherbert to areas with motor pile ups???

As if this wasn't weird enough, I then went to visit a Septembryo (I don't know which one of you it was, but deffo one of the FB posse) and somehow decided it was more appropriate to apply said sherbert with my own tongue and then the frisky part of my brain kicked in and all kinds followed (which is odd, as I have never slept with a woman but all that L word watching has obviously helped) and then I just didn't know who it was so I had to put a status update on FB about enjoying meeting up with new friends and hope someone commented......WTF?!?!

I so need some real life action to stop by brain violating the innocent....anyway, hope you are all still talking to me now

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[firegal]

Morning!

Marg, Misswren, and Silas - hope you're all feeling much better very soon, and Silas I hope everything improves without the need for hospital visits or tests or anything

Misswren - after that dream of yours I'm somewhat concerned for the safety of your date... he could be in all kinds of trouble!!

Meanwhile I had a BAD night's sleep last night so am seriously tired today......

 

[K477uk]

Morning all! I think this cold is spreading through BnB - I feel AWFUL!!

I'm going away tomorrow eveing.. so fingers crossed I'll feel better!

What is everyone up to today?

I'm meant to be going swimming or gymming later, don't know if I can be arsed!

 

[firegal]

Oh, hope you keep the cold away K477uk! If you're feeling a bit under the weather I reckon you should stay home and relax, leave the exercise for another day

 

[K477uk]

I like the idea of relaxing!!

 

[10thSept]

Wow, Miss Wren, that is a seriously raunchy dream!! I haven't had any of those yet!
I did dream last night that I had the baby, she was totally beautiful, but we were on a night out and I went into labour, so we went to this random old building in London which happened to have a hospital in it, I had the baby, which was fine, no pain, just a breeze and then they transferred us to our own hospital with the baby.
I even got a birth certificate from the hospital, which my mum kept in a biscuit tin??!!!
And the baby was chatting away to me, which I thought was completely normal.
And I had to leave the baby and go out, so I left her wiht my dad and came back to her lying on my dad and just chilling there and making I'm hungry faces, so I took her to feed her.
All lovely up to now right?? Well, then the freaky bit - I didn't support her head properly, to her head slipped to one side and her whole body went black!!!! Everyone around me gasped and I had to get her head straight again and she got colour back and I kept saying sorry, but she just lached on and was fine.

BIZARRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And it was sooooo vivid!!

Sorry you didn't have a good nights sleep firegal, know how you feel, am also absolutely shattered today - these vivd dreams are doing me no good in the sleep department, I feel like I haven't slept when I get up!!