Sinking in

[Aidedhoney]

Hiya ladies,

Guess its finally sinking in that i am on my own, Alex became quite poorly quite quickly today and i had to take him to the out of hours doc.

It was awful doing it on my own

Luckily its not too serious but as he has a heart condition the doc didnt take any chances and gave him antibotics but whats bothering me is what if it had been serious??
Who would be there to help me be strong?

Yeah my family and friends are brill but not in the way that we all want.

God damit it and hey ho have to snap out of this...........thing is i have been so brave the past few months that perhaps i do just want to fall apart now.

Sorry if this is just a ramble........but i didnt want my life to be like this.

 

[suzanne108]

Sorry I've no advice hun....but I'm thinking of you and hope Alex is OK xxx

 

[xxema&bumpmjx]

hiya hun i was a single mum bringin my daughter up on my own. i went an stayed with my parents 2day before she was due an ended up gettin offered a new house 2 days after she was born i stayed with them till she was 11 weeks old. when she was 6 weeks old i found out the terrible news tht she had a heart defect (asd) i was always at the doctors with her an the childrens hospital i felt as if i wa on my own cos her dad (sperm donor who i was with for 9 years before we split) didnt wana know an wasnt really bothered tht she needed treatment, in the end i came to terms tht i was a single parent an had to be trong for my child i became mum an dad to her all on my own which i found to be hard to i also enjoyed it cos she was all mine an i didnt have to share her with such a nob, i had my family an friends which were great but always wondered wht it would be like to have her father there for support, i came to terms tht he werent i took it upon myself to not be selfish an to take the help an advice of ppl who cared more around us both than him, it takes time hun but honest you get by u learn to live with wht life brings at us, my daughter is now 4 years old an i have been with my current partner for 2 years an havin another child i ineva thought i would have a chance of happeness an neva thought i would trust another man with my child but our lives have changed so much in 4 years an me an my daughter have this brillant bond i wouldnt wanna share with anyone else she calls my oh her daddy with we find really cute as she asked him when she was 3 if he would be her daddy,

i wish u an ur son all the luck an happyness in the world an member to take one day at a time if u ever need to talk or just need to moan feel free to pm or u have any questions no matter how personal they are contact me an ill be happy to help u hun xxxx

 

[WannaB]

Aww you poor thing! I wont lie there is always going to be hard times, but the good times will far outway them! You will be amazed at what you can do on your own, and you will feel so damn proud when you find out just how much you can achieve! Took me quite a bit to find my feet after my marriage went south, and I didnt have a baby to cope with like you, my girls were 3 and 7, doubt I would have been as able as some of you young ladies! My hat is off to you my lovley!

 

[tinkabells]

Big hugs to you xxx

 

[teal]

Thinking of you both xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

Thanks ladies, xx very much appreciate all the hugs and good wishes xx

 

[purpledahlia]

I hope LO gets better soon, You are strong and will be should anything serious happen. Luckily you have family support, its not the same we all know that but its better than nothing in the end xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

Thanks again guys xx