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The spotting was a little bit of brown mixed in with creamy cm. Only with internal checks, its not making its way down to TP even. So its very very light and seems to have stopped at this point. BUT I'm definitely feeling less optimistic. Tomorrow will be the real test I guess, if the spotting gets worse or not. AF due Thursday.

Went out and bought my supplements for the next month. Going to increase my dose to 1500 mg of maca this month, adding co-q10 for egg quality, adding vitamin E and going to add in baby aspirin. I'll start taking them when/if AF shows. I guess that just goes to show how confident I'm feeling with this cycle :/

Thank you guys for being here
 
Normally my 12 dpo spotting is very light pink and it makes its way to TP. This time it was only a light brown mixed in with cm and its completely stopped. Maybe its implantation bleeding and is old blood?? I'm grasping at straws here lol
 
Oh don't you all just hate how our bodies trick us? Belle, I'm sorry if AF is sneaking up on you. Those pregnancy/baby dreams always make me feel like the universe is trying to tell me something positive, but has never been tee case for me!

Ducks I too have ignored a lot of baby posts out there. I always feel so guilty when I have negative feelings about other pregnancy announcements. Really, I should be happy someone else doesn't have to go through this!

Coming upon the TWW here, but really just waiting until my surgery consult, assuming my polyp is the issue and until they is gone, which is looking like Sept, no need to get my hopes up.
 
MK its so true. The TWW just plays tricks on your mind! I'm definitely thinking about out at this point. Spotting is still light, but its red now. So probably just a matter of time.
 
Belle I'm still hoping for IB for you.

Fingers crossed for you MK. I hope you don't have to wait until September.

I think I've totally confused ff with my screwy cycle data. Going on the info I have and feelings I've had I'm going to estimate I'm 1 to 2 dpo. To be honest I think I'm probably just going to try and hold out for af this cycle rather than testing as I'm just not confident after the messing around
 
Ducks-- I've adjusted my sig a bit to help and my chart shows up there too, so that should make my info clear! I am going to second (third, fourth?) your motion for uterus goggles to be created. I need a pair of those. I'll really need them in about 3 weeks when I'm back at the mid to end of another tww. You should be proud of yourself for watching the video. It's really hard to be happy for others who have exactly what you most want, but it's nice to remember that they didn't do it to you/at you specifically. I love this article I read recently, it's more about parenting... realizing that people aren't parenting AT you, but I think about it for pregnancy too... people aren't getting pregnant AT me to spite me, lol. It sure feels that way sometimes though.

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/glennon-melton/quit-pointing-your-avocado-at-me_b_3492304.html

Beany--I hope your o date has passed and your cycle becomes clearer each day and does NOT misbehave by lasting two freaking months. That's just not fair. TTC is hard enough!

Belle-- I'm sorry to hear about the red spotting, I was getting super pumped about your chart, but then again, you're not out yet. Do you feel AF coming on? Once I truly feel those crampy AF feelings, I just know.

Wish-- I hope your AF stays away and those cramp inklings abate and were just gas or something. Lol. Especially since it's still early in your TWW.

MK-- I really hope you don't have to wait until after September, but it's maybe a little relaxing/nice knowing that something will happen in a couple months that will greatly improve your ttc journey, and for now you can take a relaxed-ish approach until that milestone passes.


AFM, I did my labwork yesterday. My next appt is next Thursday afternoon, so I won't know anything about my labs until then, when we'll also do a sono and talk about my results. Looking forward to that. AF is letting up now. It was really heavy and horrible for 2 days, and it's been just light or spotting since, so at least it's ending quickly. Today is CD 4. I've switched to TriStart DHA prenatal vit, still taking coq10 but discontinued the other supplements (vit d, c, folic acid, fish oil) as they're already covered in my prenatal. Starting back with brazil nuts today. Going to eat 2 a day throughout the cycle and make DH have them too. Pineapple in tww is in the plan again. My doc also recommended getting a "pregnitude" supplement, so I'll likely get that in the next few days.

Overall feeling okay, but a little impatient. I am ready for it to be a week ahead of now so I can hear the results from my testing and start with productive bd'ing. :p
 
Thanks Doc and Beany, I'm starting to get a few light cramps, so AF will likely be right on time. Had a partial temp drop today, tomorrow will likely fall further.

I can't believe I'm pretty well on cycle 10 now... double f'ing digits. I'm debating going to the doc earlier than I had originally planned. Where I live the referral to a fertility clinic could take up to a year to go through because I'm in my 20s with no known conditions. I can still get preliminary testing to rule things out by a regular doc.

I just feel hopeless right now
 
Belle, I can so relate to how you're feeling, but don't give up hope! We have to all keep hoping for each other! Honestly, starting some testing sooner might make you feel better, like you're taking control of the situation in some way.

MK, I bet you'll be a fertile-myrtle after that polyp is removed!

Beany, I bet you have O'd and I hope your wait passes quickly!

Doc, glad you were able to get the bloodwork done. I hope it's all good news.

As for me, I'm 11 dpo with nothing to report but a bit of cramping. Obsessively checking for spotting every time I got to the bathroom...ok sometimes I go to the bathroom to check even if I don't need to pee! The joys of TTC.
 
Belle- after my trip to the doc, I'd definitely say start with you PCP or GYN and get some tests done...he pretty much made me feel like we should have come on sooner. He was pretty sure something was not right after 18 months of TTC/NTNP.

Ducks that is it! Every cycle, right ladies?!

Belle, I see in your signature you've got 2 fur babies, so do we! DH had a kitty who is now about 9 and I've got my pooch who is about 8. Anyone else have any further babies? As much as I want a baby, I worry about how it will affect my Dharma, she's been my baby for 7 years and is pretty spoiled!
 
MK- we have 2 cats and a 15yo dog (maltese mix). We also now have four ducks and three chickens! We own 40 acres, my partner would like to get some goats and a donkey but i put my foot down on that one, no more animals for us!

Belle- How are things looking this morning?

Doc- That was a really nice article. Intellectually I know that my feelings about other people's pregnancies/babies have nothing to do with them and are completely about my own insecurities. But it still can sting a little. It's nice that everyone here can empathize and understand!

I am a little disappointed in myself...I promised no early testing. I had one early test I bought last cycle and in a moment of weakness took it. Of course, BFN. Well, now that I have no more early tests I wont be testing! I am preparing for my phone consult with the RE at 9:30 this morning! Its only 30 minutes so I want to be very prepared and have lots of specific questions.
 
Ducks, wow you have a full house! Fur and feather babies! Don't beat yourself up about testing early, it sucks to see that lonely line, but no harm done. What dpo are you? Good luck with your phone consult.

I have 2 cats, one of them has cancer so she might not be with us for long. I am preparing myself for that...my first fur baby and I've had her 11 years so it will be rough.
 
Ducks, i hope your phone consult goes well!

Thanks MK, I'm definitely going to go to the doc. AF arrived at 2AM last night and the cramps kept me up until 3 even though I took a double dose of ibuprofen. I'm SO ANGRY this morning. I guess that anger is motivating me though. I don't have a family doc or a gyno, so I'll have to go to the walk-in clinic and see what I get. They may refer me elsewhere.

I have 2 cats, Felix is our 8 year old boy, he's 23 pounds and has a beautiful shiny black coat! Turtle is our 7 year old girl, she's a normal sized cat lol, and has a tortis-shell coloring (orange and black mixed together).
 
Belle so sorry for your unwelcome late night visitor. I'm angry for you! Good luck at the doc's. Be persistent!

My cat is a torti too!
 
My phone consult went great! He is sending me a list of additional tests he wants me and OH to get. After that we will have a second free phone consult and come up with a plan. I will have to do my IVF transfer out of state BUT the reason I like this clinic is that if your second IVF cycle doesn't take you get your third for free. Since I will want IVF next summer when I am off of work he said to start the testing in the spring. I asked his opinion about unmonitored Clomid cycles and he said it was fine to continue but would not recommend more than 4 clomid cycles and then to switch to fermera. It feels good to have a road map even if it is a long term road map!
 
Ducks that sounds like an awesome consult! I'm so happy to hear you have a plan to go with now!!! I'd be interested to hear what testing he wants you to have

AF still isn't here full force despite all my cramping last night. I could either classify it as light flow or as spotting, but it's red so not good either way. Woke up this morning and puked all over myself after having a few sips of tea. Ugh. I feel like crap. Called in sick
 
That does sound like it went well ducks. Like you say, it's given you a plan to work through which is really positive.

Belle that sounds awful, you poor thing. Hope you're starting to feel better.
 
Went to the doc today with DH in tow. I exaggerated and said we had been trying for a year. Getting CD 3 & 21 testing done, DH got a req for some blood work and an SA.

Apparently a new private fertility clinic opened up where I live. The doc put in a referral for us already (she did it pre-emptively without asking us!). I'm not sure if that's what I really want at this point. But on the other hand, I've heard wait times at the public clinic can be up to 18 months. I don't know how long the wait would be at this new clinic, but I'll bet everyone is being referred there right now, so it might be a couple months too. In that case, I might be glad that we got a referral in a little early.

I'd definitely would like to give myself a full year to try before pursuing fertility treatments. So I'm not sure what would happen if that private clinic called us for an appt. before our one year mark.

The private clinic is also more expensive than the public clinic, which is also a factor.
 
Belle- your first appt would be a consult with some testing so you wouldn't likely start any treatment until after the 1 year mark anyway.
 

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