Klandagi
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A lot of you know that I M/Ced my 9+2 baby early Friday morning around 5:30 AM EST and passed an intact gestational sac that looked like a glass bubble with my angel inside it (as well as other tissue). So far the bleeding has slowed down a fair bit and isn't as intense in color... but I'm still slightly crampy (feels more like ovarian pain then uterine tbh and more on my right side, baby was implanted on my left). I'm going to assume this is normal.
I phoned my doctor around 10 AM to have one of his girls call me back to due concerns with miscarriage. I didn't want to get into it with them. At least this one, the nice one, asked me if I was ok and how I was doing and sounded genuinely sad for my loss. I cried when I got off the phone with her and waited for doc to call. He finally did just before noon.
He had me describe what I passed and then told me it sounds like I've completely passed everything naturally and he wanted to see me in about 2 weeks. If anything changes, come on in. I told him I still had the intact sac with the baby and the grizzly blue veiny tissue. He said he didn't want to biopsy at this time because the first pregnancy was molar/blighted ovum and "doesn't count". He counted this as the first true pregnancy because of the fact it actually developed past a certain stage and I carried beyond a month. Admittedly the molar/blighted ovum was at 5/6 weeks and had never progressed at all... That was quick and like a heavy period.
So I asked him what I should do with my baby... He said "Whatever makes you feel right." Then cautioned me that because for the gestational age they don't count her as "human remains" and I can't have an actual funeral for her but I can bury her on my property etc. He said that's what he and his wife did when she M/Ced her first pregnancy. After that touching but he went back to being an insensitive SOB and said "most women just flush it or place it in the trash." I said "Oh... Ok thanks. Bye." and that was that... I was in tears again.
So now I wonder what to do? Where do I go from here? I have baby wrapped in a moist wipe inside a tiny plastic container and I know she can't stay there forever. She can't. It's sick to hold onto her. I move from here to Canada Jan 5 and I can't take her with me. What do I do?
For the longest time last night I sat up and cried and held that little glass bubble and told my angel how much I love her, how much her father loves her, and begged her to come back... Oh Hell I'm crying again. Wrapping this up. I just need to know my options and what I can do now...
I phoned my doctor around 10 AM to have one of his girls call me back to due concerns with miscarriage. I didn't want to get into it with them. At least this one, the nice one, asked me if I was ok and how I was doing and sounded genuinely sad for my loss. I cried when I got off the phone with her and waited for doc to call. He finally did just before noon.
He had me describe what I passed and then told me it sounds like I've completely passed everything naturally and he wanted to see me in about 2 weeks. If anything changes, come on in. I told him I still had the intact sac with the baby and the grizzly blue veiny tissue. He said he didn't want to biopsy at this time because the first pregnancy was molar/blighted ovum and "doesn't count". He counted this as the first true pregnancy because of the fact it actually developed past a certain stage and I carried beyond a month. Admittedly the molar/blighted ovum was at 5/6 weeks and had never progressed at all... That was quick and like a heavy period.
So I asked him what I should do with my baby... He said "Whatever makes you feel right." Then cautioned me that because for the gestational age they don't count her as "human remains" and I can't have an actual funeral for her but I can bury her on my property etc. He said that's what he and his wife did when she M/Ced her first pregnancy. After that touching but he went back to being an insensitive SOB and said "most women just flush it or place it in the trash." I said "Oh... Ok thanks. Bye." and that was that... I was in tears again.
So now I wonder what to do? Where do I go from here? I have baby wrapped in a moist wipe inside a tiny plastic container and I know she can't stay there forever. She can't. It's sick to hold onto her. I move from here to Canada Jan 5 and I can't take her with me. What do I do?
For the longest time last night I sat up and cried and held that little glass bubble and told my angel how much I love her, how much her father loves her, and begged her to come back... Oh Hell I'm crying again. Wrapping this up. I just need to know my options and what I can do now...