so scared..

[Anna_due Dec]

Just need to vent....i'm 19 weeks and am producing anti c which is an antibody that attacks the baby's red blood cells. The baby can be born with severe anaemia which can cause hydrops fetalis which is a build up of fluid and can often kill the baby. On top of that i have a history of having prem babies. They have told me the baby will probably need one or eve repeated blood transfusions before she/he is born which is dome through a big needle through my abdomen. i understand this can keep my baby alive until it is big enough to be delivered. The baby will be prem and having to have more blood transfusions after birth but at least it will have a chance. The thing is i'm convinced, because of my useless uterus, the transfusion will send me into premature labour and if this happens anytime soon, it's too early for the baby to survive.
I know there's hope but there are so many possibilities that result in the death of my baby. I cant enjoy this pregnancy. i cant relax. I have a scan on the 23rd and will see the specialist on the 28th but the waiting is killing me because I have so many questions. It really makes me appreciate my other healthy children. we've been so lucky. My second and third were prem (27 and 31 weeks) and i thought that was bad but they are now 4 and 1 and perfectly healthy. i hope our luck can just stretch a bit further.

 

[mamaofthree]

Hun, i dont have much advise for you, and you must be going through hell! Ask loads of questions everytime they want to do a test/procedure as it may help you come to terms with this. Knowledge is power and all that! The medical profession are fantastic these days, and im sure they will take into consideration your history before doing anything drastic....they will look after you....if ever in doubt tho, you have thr right to ask for a second opinion.
I really hope you find the strength to cope with this new hurdle as it sounds like youve been through loads already. Lots of hugs. thinking of you, and bubs. x x x x

 

[Tesa]

Hey hon - I feel your pain and I know just how scary this is for you. Just wanted to let you know Im thinking of you. I pray it all goes ok for you and Im sure it will. Just try to stay as calm as possible. Once you have been through it once it will get a little easier I promise. Any try try try to enjoy the pregnancy because when it is over you will look back and feel cheated out of it otherwise. One of the midwifes told me (when I said basically the same thing to her) that being miserable wont change the outcome of things so enjoy it until there is a reason not to. Quite harsh you might think but she was right in a way.

I cried myself to sleep the night before our first transfusion and all that morning I was so so scared. Like I said before it doesnt matter what anyone says you will naturally feel this fear because you so badly want to protect your baby but honestly it is not so horrible and you will get through. You are doing the best thing for your baby - and the only the only thing you can do - so concentrate on that thought.

Im thinking of you x