First off
!! I know how you feel. I wasn't as bad off with my second son, I got over the fact pretty much instantly. I think that was mostly because I knew I could try one last time... And now, even though I don't know what it is I find myself crying randomly throughout the day. If I read through forums online about people and their daughters. Friends post those photo deals about "Why I love my daughter ect.." on facebook, looking through a box of stuff my mom gave me with dresses and girl things I've saved through my last two pregnancies.
This whole gender deal consumes me everyday!!! I feel myself sinking into a depression and I'm only 5 weeks tomorrow!! No one really wants to talk to me, they tell me it's too early to worry about. But I knew last time I thought my son was a girl, and I was wrong. I felt at first this baby was a girl, and now I've convinced myself it is a boy because I know things never go the way I want them too. Nothing is ever in my favor, so why would this?! I feel like crap. Complete crap. I feel bad for this baby, because already I feel like it's being rejected by me based off it's gender and I know I'm not that type of person.
No one around me gets it, not a single person has gone through this. Announcing the pregnancy to everyone of course brought me the "I hope this ones your little girl" types of comments. One of my closest friends sisters messaged me and asked me how far along I was, then messaged back and said "Awww, 3 boys, you're brave
" obviously being a little bitch because she turned out to be pregnant too and was pissed I announced before her. But OUCH nonetheless
Another thing that really REALLY worries me is that if this baby is another boy... I will forever want to have another baby. And there is NO way my husband would go for another. Nor do I necessarily want another. But I know I will have permanent baby fever for the rest of my life and it scares the heck out of me.
I just want my little girl, the little sister for my boys, and too be happy and content in my life.
Just don't listen to other people, unless they've gone through it they have no idea how you could feel, and it's not okay for them to judge you.