sequeena
Winging it.
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This may sound really odd to you but please bear with me.
I have PND. Have done since my LO was 7 weeks old. I'm not new to this depression lark, I had depression pre-pregnancy.
When I was heavily pregnant my cat passed away whilst under anaesthetic. I grieved like you do, and a few weeks later my son was born so I essentially moved on.
My son was born with an extra thumb. His ear also didn't develop properly. On Tuesday morning he's having an operation to removed his thumb and to correct his ear.
I have a huge fear of my son being ill. When he was 2 weeks old he was in hospital because he had a blood infection and he was very poorly.
Because of this... and what happened with my cat I am TERRIFIED of my son dying whilst he has his operation. It's getting to the point where I am imaging what would happen if he did die and I have already planned his funeral in my head.
I'm terrified to say anything in real life in case people think I'm completely mental.
Has anyone felt like this? I don't wish for my son to die but I can't stop thinking about what would happen if he did. This has been plaguing me for weeks and come Tuesday morning I'm going to be an absolute wreck.
Has anyone else been in a similar position? Had similar feelings? Or am I really just completely cuckoo
I have PND. Have done since my LO was 7 weeks old. I'm not new to this depression lark, I had depression pre-pregnancy.
When I was heavily pregnant my cat passed away whilst under anaesthetic. I grieved like you do, and a few weeks later my son was born so I essentially moved on.
My son was born with an extra thumb. His ear also didn't develop properly. On Tuesday morning he's having an operation to removed his thumb and to correct his ear.
I have a huge fear of my son being ill. When he was 2 weeks old he was in hospital because he had a blood infection and he was very poorly.
Because of this... and what happened with my cat I am TERRIFIED of my son dying whilst he has his operation. It's getting to the point where I am imaging what would happen if he did die and I have already planned his funeral in my head.
I'm terrified to say anything in real life in case people think I'm completely mental.
Has anyone felt like this? I don't wish for my son to die but I can't stop thinking about what would happen if he did. This has been plaguing me for weeks and come Tuesday morning I'm going to be an absolute wreck.
Has anyone else been in a similar position? Had similar feelings? Or am I really just completely cuckoo