Hi Shakeitbaby! I am here to hopefully offer some reassurance and hope. I am 20, going to be 21 when I am six months preggers. I am almost 3 months
Anyway, DH and I are in a pretty good place financially so we decided that it was time to have a baby. We TTC for a year and finally gave up. The month we gave up I got pregnant. Funny how life works huh?
I just want to tell you that I thought I was all on board for having a baby. I thought it was going to be easy. The truth of the matter is no one can sugar coat it and no one can tell you it will go one way or another. It is simply going to be what you were meant to have. EVERY experience is different and so is every child. As hard as it may be to see a positive side to things, ultimately you will think the way you want to and no one can change that. I too, am very TERRIFIED of not being a good mother. I feel this way even knowing that DH and I have awesome careers, we are stable, we have a plan and we have tons of family support. It is still scary.
I don't know how much you believe in a higher power or fate, but things are meant to happen at the right time. If you got pregnant, its because you CAN do it. Another thing I may add is that your hormones are going to play a LARGE roll in your feelings. Believe me. I LOVE children, I love being pregnant, but some days I feel SUPER depressed and I just don't want to do anything. I also feel like I am going to be a horrible parent. The thing I do is look forward to the day that those hormones will be M.I.A. Because they WILL! You will be thinking "wow, I sure was going crazy for nothing."
You will do great because that baby and fate chose you to be its mother. Try and be happy because babies can feel their mothers emotions. Also, try not to stress. I have learned the hard way that no matter what, things always fall into place.
I hope I helped! If you need anything, message me.
