I'm really struggling at the moment.....
On monday afternoon we get the postmortem results from Charlie..
Whilst i've wanted to know what happened to my little boy, i'm also dreading it abd not sure i do want to know....I'm affraid of what they are going to tell me... I hate the idea that there was something wrong with him, but i also hate the idea that he died for no reason.. I'm so confused how i feel. I'm not sure i'm strong enough for this, i'm crying such a lot at the moment and have pain in my chest... i never knew grief could hurt so much...
On thursday is Charlies Funeral and cremation... its the closure i need , but again i'm dreading it as it is my final goodbye, and i'm scared how it will feel seeing his tiny coffin and then having to say good bye again...
Then on sunday i have some family coming over to plant Charlies tree in our garden.
Just feeling like this week is too much. and then when its over.... its all over not sure i'm making any sense. just want to get how i feel off my chest..... hope u don't mind.....
iIf anyone has any tips to get thru all this i would apprieciate it!!
On monday afternoon we get the postmortem results from Charlie..
Whilst i've wanted to know what happened to my little boy, i'm also dreading it abd not sure i do want to know....I'm affraid of what they are going to tell me... I hate the idea that there was something wrong with him, but i also hate the idea that he died for no reason.. I'm so confused how i feel. I'm not sure i'm strong enough for this, i'm crying such a lot at the moment and have pain in my chest... i never knew grief could hurt so much...
On thursday is Charlies Funeral and cremation... its the closure i need , but again i'm dreading it as it is my final goodbye, and i'm scared how it will feel seeing his tiny coffin and then having to say good bye again...
Then on sunday i have some family coming over to plant Charlies tree in our garden.
Just feeling like this week is too much. and then when its over.... its all over not sure i'm making any sense. just want to get how i feel off my chest..... hope u don't mind.....
iIf anyone has any tips to get thru all this i would apprieciate it!!