Suddenly scared to death

[Tatertot]

Oh my. I'm a little over 30 weeks pregnant. My baby has some significant heart problems and also a problem with his brain. Literally, until today, I felt okay about all of that. I felt that the problem would be fixed with surgery and that all would be well eventually. I'm now panicking about him dying at birth. I have several doctor's appointments on Wednesday at which time I can ask all kinds of questions and get some more information. My question is, how do I cope until then? On top of all of that, I will only be allowed to have 12 weeks off from work for the whole year. He will have surgery when he's born and then another one a few months later. I'm filled with guilt because I will have to go back to work when he needs me most. If I don't go back, we won't have insurance which is not an option. I feel like things are falling apart. Just needed to get that out. Thanks!

 

[Tegans Mama]

Take it a day at a time. The way you're feeling is completely normal.

 

[ktsl123]

I am sorry you are going through this. Do know that most Mom's fear that their baby not survive birth. Try not to be scared, you and your baby will be just fine.

 

[tricky nicky]

speak to your doc about your concerns they will put your mind at rest
good luck with the birth and dont forget to show your lo off when they are here

 

[BBonBoard]

hope your little one will be ok. good luck with the doctors appointments.

 

[Tatertot]

Thanks for the support everyone! Tomorrow's the big day of appointments. I have almost two pages of questions to ask ranging from the big to the little weird questions. Hopefully I'll have some answers tomorrow which will help me to worry less. I thought of an upside to all of this. I got to have a 3d ultrasound that was paid for my insurance. I wouldn't have had one otherwise. I guess that's a good thing. Of course I would trade that to have a healthy baby, but I'm trying to think of something good in this whole mess.

 

[DeeDee2009]

good luck with your appointments. it's good to have lots of questions and hopefully you'll get the answers you're looking for and put your mind at ease a little.

 

[Tatertot]

The appointments went pretty well. Didn't really learn anything new. We met with all of the doctors including the one who will be delivering that baby. He wasn't particularly nice. He's not my usual doctor since I have to go to a bigger city/better hospital to have the baby. I'll have an MRI in a few weeks to confirm that the baby has a brain issue. I'm sort of confused about how that will work, but apparently it is better than waiting for him to be born because of the other issues. I found out that he is currently 3 pounds 5 ounces. That seems okay to me (I'm 32 weeks). All in all it was an okay day. Lots of fears were lessened by meeting with people. I am of course still terrified, but a little less so because I have more information.