Team 'Pingu' is changing/relocating

[Cocobelle]

Well done Nicky, let the count down begin!

 

[NickyT75]

Where have all the TTC Pingus disappeared to?

we want to hear about how you are all getting on... xx

 

[LeaArr]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

edited to add: I didn't say that to make anyone feel bad about being here. We are all Pingus and this is a great thread with great people

 

[NickyT75]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

Where have you asked a question that has been overlooked...?

I for one would NEVER not answer anyone who asked a direct question

It saddens me that you feel this way xx

 

[majm1241]

Here is my progress so far. I hate pic 5 Weeks because those jeans are horrible and make me look weird! In pic 6 Weeks, excuse the poor lighting in my room and messy nap hair.

https://i10.photobucket.com/albums/a110/aprilandjace/Journey%202%20My%20BFP%20and%20Beyond/photo-44.jpghttps://i10.photobucket.com/albums/a110/aprilandjace/Journey%202%20My%20BFP%20and%20Beyond/photo-7-1.jpghttps://i10.photobucket.com/albums/a110/aprilandjace/Journey%202%20My%20BFP%20and%20Beyond/photo-6-1.jpg

 

[majm1241]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

edited to add: I didn't say that to make anyone feel bad about being here. We are all Pingus and this is a great thread with great people

I'm sorry.

 

[petitpas]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

edited to add: I didn't say that to make anyone feel bad about being here. We are all Pingus and this is a great thread with great people

Booboo on us for ignoring you!!!!

Which reminds me, how are the stakes at the moment? Have you had any news yet? ...will wander over to your journal...

 

[LeaArr]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

Where have you asked a question that has been overlooked...?

I for one would NEVER not answer anyone who asked a direct question

It saddens me that you feel this way xx

It's not too big of a deal, I was always able to find answers. I can understand with all the excitement in here that a few posts may, without intention, go overlooked.

 

[LeaArr]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

edited to add: I didn't say that to make anyone feel bad about being here. We are all Pingus and this is a great thread with great people

I'm sorry.

No worries hun

 

[LeaArr]

TBH with you babe, it's hard to come in here some days. I am really happy for you and your pregnancies, but it's hard to read about sometimes and I have found when I do ask a TTC question, it tends to get overlooked.

edited to add: I didn't say that to make anyone feel bad about being here. We are all Pingus and this is a great thread with great people

Booboo on us for ignoring you!!!!

Which reminds me, how are the stakes at the moment? Have you had any news yet? ...will wander over to your journal...

I wish I had news for you. I have one more blood test then I need to make an appointment to go over all the results with the FS. The only thing I have been told so far is that I don't have an immunity against rubella and I had to get my MMR vaccine.

 

[LittleMermaid]

Sorry Ive not be writing anything of late ... mega stressful at work recently and just trying to get through this week in the ever impossible vein hope of something becoming positive iykwim! Ive been dipping in/out and reading/making sure all are doing ok, but just not felt like posting much - sorry - but I am thinking about you all!

But like LeaArr said its just diff sometimes

That I guess and and Im still reeeling from being fobbed off by both FS and GP! (... take a holiday, my arse !)

At least I have my acupuncture sessions now and Im topping up on lots of herbs and vitamins!

9 dpo and counting ...

 

[Su11]

Hey Pingus :wave:

Sorry ive been absent for a while.

Hope everyones ok.

Lots of to you all

 

[NickyT75]

Big to LM and LeaArr xx

Hiya Su babe its great to see you

April you look fab hun

Hi Petitpas how are you getting on? xx

 

[Lyns]

Well, I've been a bit quiet....same reasons really. I've had a lot of problems going on healthwise, and just don't seem to know that many people in here anymore, so when I have popped and said hi, only really the real oldies (bless you guys....I don't mean age-wise and you know that) have responded back. And I guess that because so many have joined, got pregant, moved on and even more joined......that no one knows me anymore.

Sometimes, for me, it is hard coming in here, cos so many of you are pregnant now, and we have been trying so long, and lost so much, and now not even being physically able to try at all at the moment...well its truly not that I resent anyone for what they have, but it can make me quite upset at what life has done to us. I don't want to turn bitter.....and sometimes it feels as though I'm just a stones throw away from that. I would hate any of you to think that I was targetting that at you.

Pingu's is and always has been the best support thread there is....but sometimes I just can't face the boards in general! But I do miss the good times xxxx

 

[NickyT75]

I really wish there was some way to make all you poor ladies feel better

I know its hard watching others join... get preg... then have their babies while you feel like you are being left behind... it happened to me for a long time too remember so I truly DO understand

but by not posting in here - YOU are distancing yourselves from what has been a valuable support network

Im not sure if I should even write this as my hormones are all over the place but I hate the fact that TTCers feel like they arent part of the thread any more - just because lots of us were lucky enough to get pregnant

we all have different stories to tell and for the most part this hasnt come easy to any of us so as difficult as it may be for you... if you try to look at it from our perspective we are being shunned because we were lucky enough to get what we've wanted so much...

but in reality - none of this means we have changed our feelings towards any of the ladies who are still struggling on and trying to get pregnant iyswim? we are still the same people & we still care about what goes on in our friends lives

We havent done anything wrong... yet it kinda feels like we have

I started this thread a long long time ago and up until recently all the members have been supportive & happy for each other, wanting to know details of each others pregnancies as it gave TTCers hope but all the PMA has vanished and no matter how hard I try to keep things afloat it seems you have all lost interest

I dont expect any of you to be able to understand any of this but once you get pregnant and you think its gonna be the happiest time of your life you will realise that people you thought were your friends will avoid you & resent you which will leave you feeling very bewildered and lonely

Its fantastic to get your long awaited but it certainly comes at a price xx

 

[LeaArr]

I feel really blessed to have you as a friend, and I can't express how happy I am for you and your pregnancy. You deserve this so much Nicky!

I hope you don't think I am wandering because I don't share your joy. I didn't express myself very well in my post, I have to admit.

I am going to try to make more of an effort to come in here, not only to share my story, but hopefully to encourage more TTCers to come in to/return to this thread.

Lyns, you have been through so much. You are so strong, much stronger than I think I would have been in the same situations I understand your need to keep distance and balance in your life right now.

 

[Lyns]

I thought really long and hard before I posted Nicky darling, because the one thing I really don't want, is you or anyone to feel it's because of them, that I don't come in so often....it isn't. It's because of me. But sadly that doesn't mean I can switch it on and off, because it just doesn't work like that...much as I'd like it too.

I guess the best description I can really give, is the old phrase "If you can't stand the heat, stay out of the kitchen" Well, for me....I guess its just a tad too warm for me in here nowadays.....not because of anything that you, or the other girls do, say or don't say....but because things and feelings have changed for me.

OK, I could try and swallow it and come in....but I know that then, I would end up feeling bitter towards some people who truly didn't deserve it. So by staying away, I'm trying to stop something unfair happening....thats totally down to me.

When I was pregnant with Morgandie, my SIL lost 2 babies, 1 mc and 1 ectopic, in pretty quick succession....and was told not try again for at least 6 months. She phoned me and apologised and said she loved me, but she couldn't cope with seeing me. It upset her too much. All she wanted was her babies back or to be pregnant again, and she couldn't have either. Yet I had what she wanted so badly.....and she wanted to love me, and love the baby...and the best way she could do that was by staying away. I didn't see her again until I'd given birth...but that was OK. I feel like that now.....I'd rather love you all from a slight distance that somehow be bitter towards you all by forcing myself to be close to it all. I so hope you can understand that.

Please please know.....the very last thing I ever want is anyone else to feel bad.....but I can't make myself feel even worse in the process of trying not too....with all I am coping with right now, I just wanna be able to chat to those closest to me, when I feel the time is right for me. I suppose it may seem slightly selfish.....I think of it more as self-protection!

I hope you know I still love you so much and am so looking forward to meeting your little miss....and the rest of you xxxxxxx

 

[NickyT75]

Have PM'd you Lyns babe

Your situation is an entirely different kettle of fish & you now know that my post wasnt aimed at you

I think of you every day babe & would much prefer us to keep in contact privately via txt/PM as we have been doing so even tho the others might not see you posting very often I still know you are OK

Love you loads xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[LittleMermaid]

Didnt mean to upset anyone here ... I just havent had anything to say lately is all

As I said work has been kinda stressful of late, and ive been so tired of it tbh, and I guess just dipping in/out has been enough to keep me updated on everyone even if not feeling like talking (hmmm diff to explain, but Im sure you understand, or I hope so anyway)!

Note to self: "must try harder"

xx

 

[petitpas]

Big to LM and LeaArr xx

Hiya Su babe its great to see you

April you look fab hun

Hi Petitpas how are you getting on? xx

OUF! I feel a little awkward posting in the midst of such emotion... but hey, someone's gotta break the ice...

So yep, not much I can report on at the mo except that work is really stressing me out and the more tired and stressed I get, the more vile the vomit taste in my mouth becomes. Plus, it doesn't help that I am having to fold the tops of my trousers down because I can't close them. It's all fat and no bump, though!

I am awaiting a number of appointments at the moment. Tomorrow I have an appointment at the hospital with a haematologist. I need to go on heparin injections due to my clotting problems. The main advantage is that it can save my life by preventing another Pulmonary Embolism. If it only prevents a DVT, that stops me from having to go on the pesky Warfarin for life. And hopefully it will help keep this little donkey safe because my genetic clotting factor gives me double the risk of having an m/c.
Next week I am seeing the midwife again. Does anyone know whether they have dopplers in their office and whether it is worth me having a cheeky cry on them to get them to try and hear a heartbeat?
The week after that it's the obstetrician to discuss my 'risky' care.
Then finally, the next week on the 28th I have my first scan. Seems like an age away!

How are you doing? Any more mid-night twinges?