The - I'm so scared i cant be excited yet -Thread

[Minimin]

Thanks for the PMA ladies- Set of bloods done again lst week show an 80+% rise and they said this was better than the 58%. Still not out of the woods though. Scan at 5w + 4 showed a GS but no yolk sac. Still could be an EP if it is a psuedosac. They cant rule it out until they can see something in there. Another scan on the 1/4- Fxd!

Missy Mojo- Did you have a post somewhere about orangey/toffee brown discharge? I think I had some last night and wonder if it is because of the scan I had done- it was a little uncomfortable

 

[LunaBean]

Just thought Id pop by before I go mad...been getting faint positives since 9dpo..I'm 12 dpo today and they've started getting fainter already I cant seriously lose 3 pregnancies in 6 months. I've tried to be calm and rational, it's still early for the lines to be getting much darker, but they did between 9 and 11dpo, now they are practiaclly blank this morning. I wana sceam my head off at whoever keeps taking my babies

 

[Megg33k]

Min - Mine that measured 5+2 looked "perfect" and there was no yolk sac yet! Don't give up hope! 80+% is still good!

Lizzie - to you, honey! I hope they just haven't gone dark yet while beanie snuggles in!

 

[Drazic<3]

im still finding it hard to be excitied and im 17 weeks tomorrow, i dont think the fear ever really goes, maybe when im viable i'll be a bit happier, im not buying things till then tho! each day we pass is a day further into our pregnancy and our baby is getting stronger and stronger..... i have had 5 miscarriages in a row with no real cause identified, i did nothing different this time so i guess it could of really just been v. bad luck, at least i kind of hope it was!
i wish i could let myself get more excited sometimes, i think i keep myself from planning for this baby too much as the pain is so much worse when you think of what was meant to be.....i duno, im going on now.
here's to happy and healthy pregnancies for us all
xxx

I feel the same hunny. There is only a day between us and I don't think I feel better at all. The only thing which helps is the doppler but really I only feel okay for the few seconds I am listening to the heartbeat and then I am back to terrified. I wish I could be buying prams and clothes like others in second tri but I am just too, too scared. It was hard enough before, It would kill me to get this far and it be over again.

all round -x-

 

[Jox]

Hi all, thought i would pop in and say hi.

I am very very anxious but unfortunately know that it will not fade for me until I hold a screaming baby in my arms in 7 months time.

As anxious as I am now I know this is only the beginning and it is only going to get worse...alot worse

 

[MissyMojo]

yeah it was me who had peachy ornage cm - had nothing since and no pain or anything nudger is still there making me ill xx x

 

[beachlover1]

Guys, I dont think the scared feeling goes til LO is screaming its little head off in the delivery ward. Im now almost 23 weeks and I have to say each day it really does get better....I put my hands up and admit I bought some nursery bits last night (the discount voucher for them expires tomorrow) I did resist some darling clothes in the sale in GAP today though!

I am struggling to be like some of the others in 2nd tri.....some have bought almost everything!! I just cant do it yet. for those that dont know my story...I had 2 MCs back to back pretty much last summer/autumn.

But for those of you guys still in early days, it really really does get better i promise....each day brings a stronger kick now, and the doppler is gathering dust because of it!

I promise no one is alone in feeling scared....but hey, lets enjoy what we have xxxx

 

[Megg33k]

Kicks will make me feel better... but I'd take a heartbeat. That would make me really, truly happy! I know... no such luck yet! LOL

 

[LunaBean]

Id take 2 good solid lines at this stage, not faint eye squinters I keep getting, on 4 different brands!

 

[Megg33k]

Id take 2 good solid lines at this stage, not faint eye squinters I keep getting, on 4 different brands!

That's as good as it gets for me! How do you think I feel? LOL

 

[Chimpette]

I'm having a scan on 1st April I'll be 7+1, so I'm hoping to see a nice beating heart with a dancing baby... keep your fingers crossed for me please ladies, not sure I could deal with another MMC.

xxx

 

[Megg33k]

FX'd Chimpette!

 

[Minimin]

Fxd Chimpette, I am also going for my scan on the first and will be 7wks. I can not face another Ectopic or MMC- so keep praying and keeping everything crossed.
GL
Minimin

 

[Chimpette]

Hi Minimin,

Sorry to hear about your previous losses. I'm keeping everything crossed for us on the 1st... can you believe we're having our scans on April Fool's day... Whats the chances...??

Looking forward to seeing your a little baba picture after your scan!

xxx

 

[Minimin]

LMAO- April Fools day and my SIL birthday! I hope it is a good lucky day for us! Looking forward to your pic too- do they give you a pic at this stage? I am not sure mine will

 

[AngelSerenity]

Hi girls, can I join you? I only got my BFP 11 days ago on CD58, 41DPO! (BFN 20DPO so thought that cycle over).

I have PCOS and had a MMC in Dec 09, discovered at 12 week scan, buds probably died at 9-10weeks. We had a scan at 9 1/2 weeks and things were fine, I think buds actually measured at 8 1/2 weeks then if I recall which explains the timings and even my late BFP now?).

Well here I am at 9 1/2 weeks and I still have not got a booking appointment. It's been 10 days since I went to the GP. I'm getting really anxious and nervous as Easter is looming and with timings I might not get seen until I'm about 11 or 12 weeks for booking appointment as they normally occur on a Monday or Tuesday where I live, never mind arranging a 12 week scan.

We obviously would love some peace of mind before the easter holidays so I'm prayin I hear from the midwife over the next day or so. In the meantime I'm over symptom spotting, anxious they don't disappear or have symptoms I had of a MC like I did before (which I now know were my face breaking out in hormonal lumps, my tiredness and constipation disappearing virtually instantly )

Is anybody else in the same situation? I know all I can do is remain relaxed and eat healthy to keep my sugar levels as even as possible, and just pray but not getting anywhere until 12 weeks is killing me, especially when woman who have had previous MCs in my area usually get more frequent scans etc.

I was thinking of ringing the midwife on Tuesday if I hadn't heard anything, do you think this is too forward?

 

[Chimpette]

LMAO- April Fools day and my SIL birthday! I hope it is a good lucky day for us! Looking forward to your pic too- do they give you a pic at this stage? I am not sure mine will

Hi Minimin,

Well it's got to be lucky if it's your SIL's birthday surely..

I think they will give a picture but I dont think you'll see much on it, from what I've seen of others it just looks like a jelly bean, but I'll probably get one seen as it's the 1st picture of beanie.

Good luck to us, keeping my fingers firmed crossed that everything is good for us!

xxx

 

[Chimpette]

Well my reassurance scan turned out not to be so reassuring....

I suppose to be measuring 7+1, but sac only measuring 6 weeks and no fetal pole, they not sure if it's too early to see it or not, I have to speak to my doctor and then guess make another appointment for another scan....

 

[MissyMojo]

it may be that u ovd a little later? or the sperm were that bit slower in fertilizing your egg? dont lose hope yet babes its totally possible that you just cant see much at this point - organise another scan for a weeks time, and keep hope darlin xxxxxxxxx

 

[Minimin]

Hey Chimpette- I am also sorry to say unfortunately I have bad news- My sac is empty as well- they think it is a blighted ovum and I have to go back in a week- it is too small to operate and hopefully in a week it will be bigger and we can make the decision. I want it over with so probably opt for a D & C. Third pregnancy in 8 months.. there are no words to express this..
I am 7 weeks today. I chart and monitor ov so I know my dates are right. Have you made your appointment?