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[peacebaby]

Hi ladies

Hopeful i'm totally with you on finding out news like that, its always hard even though you're glad for the person. Hoping you will joing your friends soon

LL, so very excited for you You're doing great and i'm keeping everything majorly crossed for you.

Ready, I was prompted to look at your journal and read the upsetting post. Glad I did because I see you're considering an HSG. I know what you mean about wondering whether the outcome will actually change anything, it's just so hard deciding whether to put yourself through another intervention. I hope and pray that you do get some answers out of it and a way forward.

Bmom congrats on your amazing weight loss I wish I had half the discipline and will power.

Suki, i only tried EPO for about 2 months and was too scared to take it all month long. But then all I was relying on was stuff I found here and i'm sure Marilyn Glenville is much more the expert.

Crystal, hope the eczema has cleared up and you're feeling better and geared up for Ov

Ladies, i really dont want to upset anyone,selfish update alert:

EDIT: spoiler removed by request
So af didn't show. Had a beta Monday morning, got results yesterday and its positive but low hcg for 20/21 days dpo. Had a second test this morning and will know the outcome tomorrow. I am a nervous wreck, shaking even as I type this. I know that I have no reason to complain and I am very grateful and thankful for the bfp but at the same time I am completely terrified of the outcome. I dare not be hopeful. I've had sharp pains and lower back ache so am on "ectopic watch". Its too early to tell yet. I'm seeing my recurrent loss consultant tomorrow but the immune dr has been straight up with me and basically said I have about 100 hurdles to get through before he will feel comfortable to sign me off, he's worried about the very late implantation since i got 2 clear bfns at 12 & 13dpo. My critical period is 4-8 weeks, thats when my body trips up and it all falls apart so hope you will all understand why I can't celebrate just yet. I'm struggling to hold even one positive thought, I have no "symptoms" to speak of which is usually a bad sign for me. I know how quickly things can fall apart so I can't muster the strength to be optimistic just yet. Even DH is nervous, he emailed me yesterday saying he has learnt not to get his hopes up

Sorry if my news upsets anyone, i understand that too
Thinking of you all and praying for you all..keep us in your thoughts & prayers xxx

 

[LLbean]

Peace hoping everything goes well FXd!!!!

will be thinking of you!

 

[Bravemom]

Hi ladies

Hopeful i'm totally with you on finding out news like that, its always hard even though you're glad for the person. Hoping you will joing your friends soon

LL, so very excited for you You're doing great and i'm keeping everything majorly crossed for you.

Ready, I was prompted to look at your journal and read the upsetting post. Glad I did because I see you're considering an HSG. I know what you mean about wondering whether the outcome will actually change anything, it's just so hard deciding whether to put yourself through another intervention. I hope and pray that you do get some answers out of it and a way forward.

Bmom congrats on your amazing weight loss I wish I had half the discipline and will power.

Suki, i only tried EPO for about 2 months and was too scared to take it all month long. But then all I was relying on was stuff I found here and i'm sure Marilyn Glenville is much more the expert.

Crystal, hope the eczema has cleared up and you're feeling better and geared up for Ov

Ladies, i really dont want to upset anyone,selfish update alert:

Spoiler

So af didn't show. Had a beta Monday morning, got results yesterday and its positive but low hcg for 20/21 days dpo. Had a second test this morning and will know the outcome tomorrow. I am a nervous wreck, shaking even as I type this. I know that I have no reason to complain and I am very grateful and thankful for the bfp but at the same time I am completely terrified of the outcome. I dare not be hopeful. I've had sharp pains and lower back ache so am on "ectopic watch". Its too early to tell yet. I'm seeing my recurrent loss consultant tomorrow but the immune dr has been straight up with me and basically said I have about 100 hurdles to get through before he will feel comfortable to sign me off, he's worried about the very late implantation since i got 2 clear bfns at 12 & 13dpo. My critical period is 4-8 weeks, thats when my body trips up and it all falls apart so hope you will all understand why I can't celebrate just yet. I'm struggling to hold even one positive thought, I have no "symptoms" to speak of which is usually a bad sign for me. I know how quickly things can fall apart so I can't muster the strength to be optimistic just yet. Even DH is nervous, he emailed me yesterday saying he has learnt not to get his hopes up

Sorry if my news upsets anyone, i understand that too Thinking of you all and praying for you all..keep us in your thoughts & prayers xxx

Aww sweetheart I am happy and sad for you as I think such a wonderful lady only deserves great things I am sorry you are so nervous but can completely understand it ,god willing you will progress Love and prayers

 

[alison29]

So much has happened on here. Fingers crossed for you peace.

Ready: do they put your under for HSG? I am seeing a new gyn Couldn't get into her until nov 6th i was wondering about doing one. Or what she could do for me other than IUI. I was hoping for femara and hsg and ultrasounds of my stuff in there. DH does not want to be involved in med route as he feels it should happen on it's own if it will. I am kind of a coward and have not pushed the idea for a while ughhh!

 

[More4mom]

absolutely LL.

But, IF I ever get pregnant again, I will absolutely not pop into someone's journal to give them unsolicited advice about how mine worked. It's so insensitive.

Wow!! That's pretty ballsy!!! Funny how some people realy just don't see how that could come off as bragging, or like rubbing salt in an open wound. Sheesh!! Ready

 

[More4mom]

Thoughts and prayers Peace!! Keep us posted... Hoping for wonderful sticky news from you, for you!!

Suki - what about you?? How are you??

 

[More4mom]

Geez Bmom.... How did you do that??? That's awesome. Were you following a program or specific exercise program? I'd love some tips!! Good for you!!

 

[More4mom]

Oh my gosh. I'm like hyper-posting. Sorry about that...

Update: TMI Warning!!

I had my hysteroscopy, polyp removal and D&C yesterday. I was given sedation and local freezing. It didn't help!! I felt every scrape, poke and cramp! It was aweful!! The polyp was 3x bigger than they expected. It was so big, it filled almost 3/4 of my uterus. Once scrapped off, the doctor couldn't get it out, so had to dilate the cervix even more and then try again. It hurt so bad, that I was hyperventilating and my hands and feet started to tingle and go numb. I tried not to make any sounds, and to be calm, so to not make it worse. It felt like I was in labour!!! Honestly!

On the upside, I am still cramping today but only slight bleeding. I'm just so thrilled it's over. I will never do that again, unless they knock me out completely!! Thank God I have a good doctor. She was awesome, apologized because it took so long and was sorry that it hadn't gone as smoothly as she had hoped, mostly because the polyp was so much bigger than she expected. She checked on me three times to make sure I was ok.

I don't wish that on anyone!!!!

 

[Bravemom]

Oh my gosh. I'm like hyper-posting. Sorry about that...

Update: TMI Warning!!

I had my hysteroscopy, polyp removal and D&C yesterday. I was given sedation and local freezing. It didn't help!! I felt every scrape, poke and cramp! It was aweful!! The polyp was 3x bigger than they expected. It was so big, it filled almost 3/4 of my uterus. Once scrapped off, the doctor couldn't get it out, so had to dilate the cervix even more and then try again. It hurt so bad, that I was hyperventilating and my hands and feet started to tingle and go numb. I tried not to make any sounds, and to be calm, so to not make it worse. It felt like I was in labour!!! Honestly!

On the upside, I am still cramping today but only slight bleeding. I'm just so thrilled it's over. I will never do that again, unless they knock me out completely!! Thank God I have a good doctor. She was awesome, apologized because it took so long and was sorry that it hadn't gone as smoothly as she had hoped, mostly because the polyp was so much bigger than she expected. She checked on me three times to make sure I was ok.

I don't wish that on anyone!!!!

Sorry you had to go thru that babes It sounds horrific Glad it's all over and you get to rest

 

[readyformore]

Alison, no they don't put you under for the HSG. It's not the procedure that's the issue. I've had one before and it's not a big deal. I went alone and drove myself there and back and plan to do the same thing again. It's really like a two page essay to describe why I don't want to do it; but despite all of that, I probably will.

M4M- Holy Cow!! I'm sorry you suffered so much during your procedure. That's just not right. Why in the world didn't she stop and ask for you to be put under when she realized that you were in pain and she needed to be more aggressive?
I'm glad you're feeling better now. If it was that large, it really should help with conception now that the massive speed bump is out of the way.

Peace- Get back to us tomorrow and keep us updated. Why would your news be upsetting? It's not like you're a drive-by. You've been here since the beginning and we want to share the journey with you; good, bad and everything in-between.

 

[sukisam]

Peace- Been thinking of you and was worried we hadn't heard from you. Of course we're not upset more than anything we want all the ladies on here to get a BFP that ends in a forever baby. I will be keeping everything crossed for you- I totally understand you can't get excited yet it's self-presevation. FX this is your take home baby

Hi everyone else . Found myself looking at the adoption + fostering websites on my local council - all roads seem to lead back there. Got some thinking to do, I feel like I could happily give up ttc and move on with my life. i know we could offer so much love to children who need it. Thinking cap well + truly on

Take care lovely ladies

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[Bravemom]

Sulk I think that's a wonderful idea but as you say there's a lot of thinking to do ❤

 

[readyformore]

I was thinking about thinking about it........

My husband is a complete road block there so it's a no go for me. I know it's easy for me to say because I've been pregnant before, and I hope this isn't offensive. But, I really don't care about being pregnant. It's the child I want, not the pregnancy. Adoption and fostering would be just right for me, (maybe?) but not my husband, so oh well.

Suki- it would be a great thing to do. You'd make a lovely home for a fostered or adopted child.

Happily giving up ttc and moving forward sounds lovely. I hope to be with you there soon. I'm kind of craving it!

 

[Milty]

Peace I'm do happy for you and sad that you are worried about upsetting us. We love you and are here for you. Also I know you havnt cleared all the hurdles but I think it's amazing your now on the track. I'm praying for you sweetie.

M4M: Oh my word I would have been traumatized. I'm with Ready though I'm hoping for good news soon now.

 

[peacebaby]

You girls are the best ever Thank you for all your love and support

I know we're all thoroughly supportive, understanding and happy for each other but I think that on any given day someone may be having a "down day" for a personal reason, it could be anything like feeling sensitive or sad about a due date, anniversary of a loss, memory trigger of a procedure that didn't go well, a crap doctors appointment and it can feel a wee bit upsetting and too much, that's why I mentioned it, I didn't want to add to that feeling in case one of us was having such a day. We've all been through too much.

More4mom, poor you It must have been 10x more painful then what you wrote.What a massive polyop, did you ever feel any discomfort from it? I agree with Ready, that's a massive block out of the path. It was probably preventing just about anything from happening. Can you ttc this cycle or does the dr want you to heal first? Fingers crossed for you.

 

[H0pefulagain]

Peace? Did you really apologize for that?!? You are ALWAYS there for ANYONE on here as far as I've seen. I'm beyond thrilled for you! I can't even find it in myself to begrudge you. I'm so sorry you have to even worry about any of us being upset over your wonderful news. I hope and pray this one goes all the way and in 9 months you can be proudly boasting on belches fit for a man, messy diapers, lack of sleep, etc. Unhide the spoiler thingy! Stories like yours give the rest of us waiting our turn hope...real hope. Isn't part of the reason we post to each other here so we can share these things where no one else will necessarily "get it"?

I guess I'm a shameful ole' hussy because when a friend or loved one is popping out babies left and right it really hurts. When it is a fellow LTTTC'er, it just thrills me to my socks! How hypocritical is that?

M4M, you are my newest heroette! I am not sure I could have done it without being knocked out completely! OH....MY....WORD....OUCH!! I'm so glad it is over and hope it is all you needed to get your BFP sticky bean!

 

[peacebaby]

aww hopeful lol ok I'll take them out

Actually I think most of us like you are thrilled to bits for each other on the forum but with people in real life it is so much harder to hear. I guess its because we share all the intricacies with each other here. I mean I wouldn't discuss the details of LTTTC with family but here we do, its a natural bond.

I don't think you're hypocritical at all

I have a nervous hubby here asking me if I've pee'd on a stick today. LTTTC and RPL has turned him into a POAS pusher!

 

[crystal443]

Good Morning Ladies

Peace- Please don't think you'll offend anyone with your news, if anyone were offended I think I'd be pretty pissed off. We're here to support through the good, bad and the ugly I know that anxious feeling where every little tug, pain or cramp sends the heart beating crazy with fear It is no fun so please feel free to type it out if it helps ease the anxiety You've been here for all of us and yep I know this could be your forever baby or it could be a step to your forever baby but whichever it is I'm here Hang in there Peace

More4mom- I was totally put to sleep for my D&C but that was for a mmc I would think a D&C would be awful to go through awake Actually I wasn't scraped, I had the suction where they suction everything out. I bled for about 2 weeks lightly and was fine after that. Glad the polyp is gone and fx'd your BFP is just around the corner

Ready- I do want the pregnancy part as well as the baby but maybe because my kids are older and I really don't remember alot of it It is so difficult to adopt here, we would have to agree to stop TTC altogether and no IVF..I'm not ready to do that yet Fostering would be fine except I don't think I could deal the parents of the kids No patience for neglectful parents. We have looked into different options but we're just not there yet in our journey

Milty- good morning, how are you feeling?

Suki- Fostering or adopting would be wonderful for you I sometimes wish could say I'm finished with TTC but just not there yet

Bmom- Good morning lovely

H0peful- Good morning, hope all is well with you

 

[More4mom]

Thanks ladies!! It was awful (and shoking!!) and yes, I've been feeling extra cramping, pain and mid-cycle bleeding for over two years now, so I suspect that the polyp has been there for quite a while. On one hand, it makes me mad... what a waste of two years of TTC. On the other hand, now that I'm feeling a bit better today, I'm sort of excited because the road block has been removed, so who knows...

I have to wait two weeks to BD (yikes!!), which bumps me into the next cycle before I can TTC again.

 

[H0pefulagain]

Peace - how dare your hubby be a POAS pusher! We would NEVER advocate that here...no way!

M4M - tell hubby he has 2 weeks off and then you plan to use him thoroughly so enjoy the respite now!

I'm so excited for the both of you. Now I must go feed my family....they have this weird notion that they should eat 3 times a day. The nerve!