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Hardest.Pregnancy.Ever. I am so frustrated and discouraged. This has honestly been one of the most confusing and hard things I've ever gone through...
So here's the long story in a nutshell. Last period was Sept 8th. I got a very, very faint positive on Sat. Oct 4th with FRER and FMU. Called my Drs. office that Monday ( Oct 6th) to discuss going on baby aspirin and progesterone as I was with my last pregnancy ( that resulted in my 2 year old) and I have a history of recurrent miscarriage. My Dr. was out of town so the on call Dr. finally called me back on Weds (8th) and told me that she thought I'd be fine going without the progesterone until I could get in to see my Dr. on the 14th. but to go ahead and start the baby aspirin.
So the next day (Thurs. 9th) I go work out and run to Target to get the baby aspirin. I come home and find out I am massively bleeding. So I call the Drs office, tell them I'm having a chemical pregnancy. Expected period was supposed to be on Monday 4th, so I'm only a few days past that. I bled heavily for 4 days, lots heavier than a period and lots of clots. Things finally lightened up on Monday evening the 13th and I headed to my Drs. appt on the next morning to talk about everything that had happened.
My Dr. didn't really want to talk a lot about things until I had my beta HCG drawn so I headed to the lab. So beta on Tuesday, Oct 14 was 199 and progesterone was only 3. Dr. called me back that afternoon and said the numbers looked like a confirmation of what I was describing with the chemical pregnancy. He wanted them to be re-done on Thurs to confirm my HCG was dropping.
Thursday afternoon rolls around and I get a call back from my Dr. to give me the results from my blood test that morning. HCG had almost tripled to 530(?!) He put me on Prometrium right away and instructed me to go back on Saturday to have my betas re-drawn again. Saturday's betas...930.
So 14th : 200 16th: 530 18th: 930
My Dr. calls me on Monday morning the 20th and says he's happy with the progression but obviously my betas are "low" according to where I was supposed to be with my LMP ( I should have been in my 5th week then). I have no idea when I ovulated. He instructed me to keep taking my progesterone and we would do an ultrasound Oct 28th (yesterday). I should have been far enough along to see something then.
I went to my appt yesterday and the ultrasound didn't go very well. He couldn't see anything in my uterus except for an area with a really built up lining...no sac. Couldn't see anything in my tubes either but said I have a very healthy looking Corpus Luteum cyst on my left ovary. Because that is what supplies the progesterone in early pregnancy he told me he didn't want me to worry that not getting on progesterone earlier had caused the miscarriage. He sent me home with instructions to stop the progesterone and that would probably get the miscarriage moving. He also wanted me to have two more sets of betas done to again make sure they were going down. He suspected my beta was probably already way down from the last draw. He also told me that there was chance I could have a very tiny ectopic happening ( he obviously didn't see anything indicating that on the ultrasound) but to head to the ER right away if I was having any severe pain.
Here's where the mystery continues. I had my blood drawn yesterday morning and my Beta's have again increased appropriately. I believe they were close to 6000 at this point. So from 930 to almost 6,000 in 10 days My next Beta draw is tomorrow but I am honestly just so confused. Especially since if my betas were that high we should have been able to see something on ultrasound. I thought my Dr. said you have to be in the 5000-6000 range to see something.
I went home yesterday convinced for the second time this pregnancy that it was over. But now, I'm not so sure. I'm not "getting my hopes up" and am certainly feeling very logical about everything...but I just really don't know how to feel. Everything is such a mystery. I just want to know one way or another. Sorry for such the long post, I just really wanted to get all of this off my chest.
So here's the long story in a nutshell. Last period was Sept 8th. I got a very, very faint positive on Sat. Oct 4th with FRER and FMU. Called my Drs. office that Monday ( Oct 6th) to discuss going on baby aspirin and progesterone as I was with my last pregnancy ( that resulted in my 2 year old) and I have a history of recurrent miscarriage. My Dr. was out of town so the on call Dr. finally called me back on Weds (8th) and told me that she thought I'd be fine going without the progesterone until I could get in to see my Dr. on the 14th. but to go ahead and start the baby aspirin.
So the next day (Thurs. 9th) I go work out and run to Target to get the baby aspirin. I come home and find out I am massively bleeding. So I call the Drs office, tell them I'm having a chemical pregnancy. Expected period was supposed to be on Monday 4th, so I'm only a few days past that. I bled heavily for 4 days, lots heavier than a period and lots of clots. Things finally lightened up on Monday evening the 13th and I headed to my Drs. appt on the next morning to talk about everything that had happened.
My Dr. didn't really want to talk a lot about things until I had my beta HCG drawn so I headed to the lab. So beta on Tuesday, Oct 14 was 199 and progesterone was only 3. Dr. called me back that afternoon and said the numbers looked like a confirmation of what I was describing with the chemical pregnancy. He wanted them to be re-done on Thurs to confirm my HCG was dropping.
Thursday afternoon rolls around and I get a call back from my Dr. to give me the results from my blood test that morning. HCG had almost tripled to 530(?!) He put me on Prometrium right away and instructed me to go back on Saturday to have my betas re-drawn again. Saturday's betas...930.
So 14th : 200 16th: 530 18th: 930
My Dr. calls me on Monday morning the 20th and says he's happy with the progression but obviously my betas are "low" according to where I was supposed to be with my LMP ( I should have been in my 5th week then). I have no idea when I ovulated. He instructed me to keep taking my progesterone and we would do an ultrasound Oct 28th (yesterday). I should have been far enough along to see something then.
I went to my appt yesterday and the ultrasound didn't go very well. He couldn't see anything in my uterus except for an area with a really built up lining...no sac. Couldn't see anything in my tubes either but said I have a very healthy looking Corpus Luteum cyst on my left ovary. Because that is what supplies the progesterone in early pregnancy he told me he didn't want me to worry that not getting on progesterone earlier had caused the miscarriage. He sent me home with instructions to stop the progesterone and that would probably get the miscarriage moving. He also wanted me to have two more sets of betas done to again make sure they were going down. He suspected my beta was probably already way down from the last draw. He also told me that there was chance I could have a very tiny ectopic happening ( he obviously didn't see anything indicating that on the ultrasound) but to head to the ER right away if I was having any severe pain.
Here's where the mystery continues. I had my blood drawn yesterday morning and my Beta's have again increased appropriately. I believe they were close to 6000 at this point. So from 930 to almost 6,000 in 10 days My next Beta draw is tomorrow but I am honestly just so confused. Especially since if my betas were that high we should have been able to see something on ultrasound. I thought my Dr. said you have to be in the 5000-6000 range to see something.
I went home yesterday convinced for the second time this pregnancy that it was over. But now, I'm not so sure. I'm not "getting my hopes up" and am certainly feeling very logical about everything...but I just really don't know how to feel. Everything is such a mystery. I just want to know one way or another. Sorry for such the long post, I just really wanted to get all of this off my chest.