~. The psychosis thread .~

[Haylee.]

Sounds like you had a good day overall topsy! Well done for going. Be proud of yourself that you went and LO enjoyed himself x

Pinklightbulb, they won't take your babies away hun, I am most sure. It doesn't work like that here. I can assure you x

I am definitely OCD myself I've just never been assessed x

Hugs to you both..

 

[topsy]

Thanks hun

Sorry you struggle with OCD, I have never really had it, but after LO was born (he was 5lbs 2oz) I was so worried about keeping things clean and hand washing and sterilizing, I am lucky that calmed down.

Had another good day managed to get to the local shops with my auntie and LO.

Pinklightbulb, I hope haylees post reassures you a little hun.

take care everyone HUGS xxx

 

[pinklightbulb]

Big hugs to everyone. I feel a little bit better today. How is everyone else?

 

[topsy]

Glad you feel a bit better sweetie xxx

 

[pinklightbulb]

Started a cold last night and now it's worse, couldn't sleep half the night because swallowing was so painful. Had Eamon up with it and now he has a nosebleed as well. It will be a tough day for sure here.

 

[Tink_]

Hey,

I hope you don't mind me joining in here. I have complex PTSD so whilst I don't particularly experience psychosis, I can dissociate and stuff like that.

Hugs for you all x

 

[topsy]

Pinklightbulb, sorry you are feeling rough with a cold Hope you and your little man get well soon.

eEy Tink, glad you have found us. Hugs xxx

 

[Haylee.]

Hi everyone! I have been MIA because I've had a cold too so worried ds will get it... Sorry you and Eamon have been poorly plb. And welcome Tink_.. Glad you ahd another good day topsy x

I've been taking st John's wort the last few days and it seems to be helping with my anxiety. I have been feelinbg a lot better in that sense. x

 

[pinklightbulb]

Hi everyone. Thanks for the well wishes, it means a lot. OH has been no help at all and it's been tough. I couldn't handle it for some of today but I pulled myself together. Poor boys need better than me sometimes I think

Hi Tink

Haylee that's great about the St Johns wort. I've heard good things about it and anxiety but never could take it as I was on the pill.

 

[topsy]

Hi guys

Sorry you have been poorly Haylee hun, hope LO dosnt get it. i have heard good things about it.

pinklightbulb, sure you are a fab mum and your boys love there mummy lots hun. Sorry your OH hasn't been much help. does he know how you have been feeling sweetie.

My days been ok but med change soon, in for rough ride. xxx

 

[topsy]

Bumpy day have no motivation, I am not even up and dressed yet, just cant get going xxx

 

[Haylee.]

Oh plb I cant so relate to OH being no help! He is a great dad but cant seem to enterrain ds for longer than a minute and ds will start whinging and I just feel like I never get a break! Men are serioudly useless! I hate it how he has all the time in the world to go out and have a ciggie and play in the garden when I have LO but when he has LO I am running around doing the house work so its technically not a brake arrggg they just dont get it sometimes! My OH has been annoying me the last few days too!!

ETA: you are a great mummy and obviously care about your boys so so much. Don't feel like you aren't good enough for them because you are a great mum and ican see how much you care that's wise coming from me because I feel the same quite often but I guess you could say it takes one to know one? X

Topsy don't feel bad if you don't get dressed up every day! I have a lot of days where I am in my pjs all day! I did it today! I hope your med change isnt too bumpy. remember we are here and if you need to talk, please talk away. I'll listen.

Well girls its 3.30 am and I cant sleep... I am just going to blame the full moon! Nite x

 

[topsy]

Haylee hope you get some sleep, my sleeping patterns rubbish, I am awake when I should be asleep, till the early hours and asleep when i should be awake! I dont always get dressed either.

Sorry your OH arnt helpful, i must admit mine is fantastic so I cant complain at all, but it must be so frustrating for your girls.

Well I think it was 4pm ish by the time I got dressed, we tried to go in the city to do some shopping-we planned on going in 3,30pm when we thought it would be quiet ish, nope 4,20pm we went in and the normal car park in our mall was full, there were so many people about my heart was beating so fast and even though we were in the car it was like everyone who was walking past I could here there conversations and everything was so loud. so we went to a supermarket wayyyyy out of the city was quiet, and then had McDonald for tea cause I couldn't be bothered to cook. Am back in bed and I just want to sleep but know I wont, its like I just want to hide away. LO has just gone down. DH is clearing up downstairs.

 

[Haylee.]

Thanks Topsy! I ended up in bed at 4.50am and up at 9.15 with ds. I was so tired when first waking so I ran a bath, and jumped in it with ds and we were in there for half an hour! We had a lovely cuddle and he fully relaxed. As soon as I got out and dressed him he was asleep again

Sorry the shopping trip didn't go smoothly, but st least you went to another shop and just didn't run away! We had mac d's for dinner on Friday night, I rarely eat it but its better than not eating at all! I've been struggling to keep weight on. I'm close to 5 kg below pre pregnancy weight. I just don't have an appetite at the moment

I'm glad to hear you other half is helpful Hun. OH is great sometimes.. it's when ds is going through a rough patch (whether it be sleep regression, teething, his first fever) that Oh struggles. He has a hard time trying to settle a grizzly baby.

 

[topsy]

Hi sweetie, Aw sounds like you had a lovely relaxing morning bathing with bubs, glad you got a little sleep. I miss bathing with LO, he wont stay still. last time I did it was when I was in hospital so he was 9 ish months and they had a massive bath.

Last night we were up from 12.10am-4.30am no idea why LO, would sleep on us and every time we put him down he screamed! I tried to give him some milk-he wouldn't take it, took his temp, no temp, rocked him for 45 mins ( something I haven't done since he has been a yr) put him down, he screamed and screamed, left him 10 mins, i then panicked cause I realized I hadn't checked him for a rash ( I have a real fear of LO getting meningitis) so went back into him brought him in our room, checked him all over no rash, took temp again, changed his nappy rocked again for 20 mins (ish-times are a bit blurry!) he fell asleep put him down he screamed Dh got up gave him some calpol, at which point I gave him to DH and managed to fall over clothes on landing ( I take a sleeping tablet so am not a my best) burst into tears as I stubbed my toes DH put the tv on and LO quietened now. I held him and DH put me in the spare room, I couldn't focus my head was banging Dh was up with him from 1.45-4.15am when he left him to cry himself to sleep for 10-15 mins. He woke up @7.30am full of beans and has been on fab form all day.
Totally thrown me for the day.

We took Lo to play place then had lunch out with MIL and FIL, they were great with LO at the play place me and Dh were so tired. LO is at my parents tonight so we can get some sleep. i would be sooooo lost without them they are amazing.

Aw sorry you are struggling to eat hun you need your energy.

I struggle when LO is grizzly, i got told its part of my PND as I still cry when he gets upset glad your Dh is helpful some of the time sweetie.

Hope your day has been ok and maybe you got to catch up on a little bit of sleep.

xxx

 

[topsy]

Ok back to drs with LO he still has double middle ear infection, back onto a different antibiotic, for 14 days, we saw a lovely Greek Dr, he interacted more with LO than any other dr I have every seen.

I am wobbly took Lo with a friend to a play center, I lasted an hour, LO wasn't well just wanted cuddles, so my dad had to come and pick us up, that was then I booked a DRs appointment.

DH had just put him down to sleep, hes crying might have to go back in and settle him poor bubs.

Hope everyone else is ok xxx

 

[Haylee.]

Hi lovely,

Sorry I havent been around I've been a little busy Sorry to hear your LO is still poorly with an ear infection. It must be so painful, for you and him. It's hard when they dont want to be put down and nothing will settle them, and how you wish sometimes they could just tell you what was wrong, especially in the middle of the night. Sorry you guys had a rough night xx

We have had a few good days. OH is back at work and I think I needed some time away from him so ds and I have had a lovely few days together. Mum came out yesterday after and looked after ds whilst I made pasta, then lasagne. It was a nice afternoon. I am going to town with her on Thursday so that will be nice. We will go shopping with ds, looking forward to that xxx

Hope your having a nice day ladies

 

[topsy]

Thanks hun. xxx

Poor LO, has been screaming on and off today, but cuddles sort it went out with a friend 10-2 to a play park. Had a really lovely time. We talked lots about babies. Its the first time I have felt sad that we wont try for another one. Its weird when i hear other people talking about there pregnancy and birth. I kind of feel detached from it all.

Glad you had a lovely day and got some bits done, and have some nice plans for later in the week.

xxx

 

[topsy]

So streesed I just keep crying NOT having a good day. xxx

 

[topsy]

just started meds change have a banging head. had a full blown panic attack the other night its been ages since I had one I thought that they had gone xx