Megg33k
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The title spells it out... I'm starting my first cycle (2nd attempt at 1st cycle) of IVF within a few days. I was supposed to have started already, but I had to have a D&C to remove a minefield of polyps and needed time to heal first. I have no choice of when I find out if the cycle was a success... They will have me do betas at 8dpt and 10 or 11dpt (don't remember which). Then, I will get a call with the results. This will likely be around Dec 21-23. Unless you live under a rock, you know that it will basically be Christmas when I find out. While a BFP would be an amazing gift, a BFN would crush me 1000 times more being so close to the holidays.
Last year, I had an 11 week scan on Dec 1 and was diagnosed with blighted ovum. We did a follow-up 1 week later to be sure, and the 2nd scan verified it. My bleed began on Dec 15. Christmas, needless to say, was difficult... at best. This could be even more devastating. I just need a new perspective.
I know the saying "Expect the worst but hope for the best"... but I can't. If I don't believe it will work, then I can't put myself through this. But, if I believe it will work, then it will be exponentially harder if it doesn't.
Is there anyone who can give me some idea of how to think of this? How to stay positive but still realistic?
And, not to offend, but I'd prefer to avoid any religious-oriented thoughts ("if its meant to be"... "in god's time"... "have faith")... I'm not religious and don't intend to make this a religious debate. I just need something that will work for me... and I know already that those thoughts don't help me at all.
Last year, I had an 11 week scan on Dec 1 and was diagnosed with blighted ovum. We did a follow-up 1 week later to be sure, and the 2nd scan verified it. My bleed began on Dec 15. Christmas, needless to say, was difficult... at best. This could be even more devastating. I just need a new perspective.
I know the saying "Expect the worst but hope for the best"... but I can't. If I don't believe it will work, then I can't put myself through this. But, if I believe it will work, then it will be exponentially harder if it doesn't.
Is there anyone who can give me some idea of how to think of this? How to stay positive but still realistic?
And, not to offend, but I'd prefer to avoid any religious-oriented thoughts ("if its meant to be"... "in god's time"... "have faith")... I'm not religious and don't intend to make this a religious debate. I just need something that will work for me... and I know already that those thoughts don't help me at all.