this is it

[twinkle]

Well guys i have realised that at the grand old age of 43 and having been trying for 2 and a half years now...that having a baby is not going to happen. I have had all the tests done...lap and dye etc...everything is perfect...my 21 day progesterone test came in at 28...apparently you need to have a level of 30 to signify ovulation. I have had 7 rounds of clomid....3 of them i took 2 years ago and the other 4 i have taken this year...when i take it my blood tests show a level of 64 which is great. I have had a lot of stress over the last 2 years and have virtually put my life on hold....not changing career etc. So i have decided that in January i will start the last 2 rounds of clomid and then be done with it all....i am just going to concentrate on me and dh for the next couple of months....we dont get much time together as he works shifts. We have a holiday in the maldives at christmas to look forward to...we went ther for our honeymoon last year in nov...sadly my mum died this year and left us some money so that is why we can afford to go again. We did look into using the money for ivf..but the statisitics for somone of my age are incredibley low...i couldnt cope with the dissapointment. We have bought a house which will be ready in march...i cant wait to be settled....it has taken me a long time to find the right man...i was in a very violent marriage before this one. I feel that i am not meant to be a mum...although it hurts like hell...i have to accept that now...and move on into our future together.

 

[oliveoyl]

Hugs twinkle.
Hoping the new year brings you the happiness you deserve
xx

 

[amylk87]

i wish you all the luck in the world for the future, and hope you find happiness x

 

[Clueless]

hope everything works out for you

 

[bek74]

I feel that i am not meant to be a mum...although it hurts like hell..

Hun, everyone deserves the opportunity to be a mum if that is what they want.
Yes your 43 and yes it does lower your chances at IVF, but since there isn't anything wrong with you other than the ovulation, which they give you meds for, I would give it ago. I wouldn't hang my hat up until I had explored every possible avenue. You are 43 and if being a mum is really what you want, then me personally I would need to know inside that I had tried everything, I wouldn't want the regret.

Hun, It is your choice and if you have come to the end of the line for what your willing to do and your content with that, then so be it. I wish you all the very best, but please don't think your NOT meant to be a mum, some things in life are just harder to get.

All the very best babe

 

[tansey]

Your holiday and new house could be just the tonic - i really hope you're one of the lucky ones who don't try and have a lovely surprise!

I know what you mean about life on hold!