Hi ladies!!!!
Oh my god this thread is active again and everyone is preggo or ttc how exciting! a massive congrats to everyone!!! I have missed you all & thought about you tons. it has just been too painful to come on here after my realtionship breakdown etc and after the move I was without internet for 12 weeks. Me & Jack's father seperated last October after his refusal to deal with his abusive alcohol problem, I didn't manage to find a safe place for me & Jack to move to until March and it was months of hell. But we have a nice 2 bedroom flat and I am working very hard to pay the bils & keep us both safe and happy - it is working
I am in a new realtionship, it has shocked me. After the break up I was so hurt, I lost tons of weight and was in a bad place, swearing never to have a relationship, child, marriage etc. The guy I am with now was by my side the whole time despite me saying nothing will ever happen. He hugged me when I cried about my break up, he made me laugh, he played in the park with me and Jack (he is a family friend - my sister's brothe in law in fact - oops!) then one day I looked at him with so much love, I said let's give it a go. We haven't looked back.
I have had such terrible, short, painful cycles since all the stress etc & had a gyne app for tomorrow to discuss a lap & suspected endo, my OH was told after a horrible ordeal years ago that he has ruptured testicles & may never conceive naturally. Sorry for TMI but we have ALOT of sex. Being careful around ov times etc (or so the OPKS were telling me) well..... all week I have had tampons in my pocket due to severe AF pains... my boobs have swollen to twice the size and I have been an emotional wreck.
Our miracle is due March 4th.
I am still in complete shock and so so scared. With Jack I tried for 20 months and craved being pg so much. This has stunned me. But I feel it is meant to be and has happened, against all odds, for a reason.
Sorry for the essay -
so happy to be able to catch up with you ladies again.
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