TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[Illa]

I have never tracked anything and this is my first cycle temping. SO I am not sure what the norm is, I thought it hits the lowest when ovulating and then go up. Cm is still EWCM, I can get a BD in tonight but I don't know if that would be too late
Thank you Green and Mnelson, you guys really made me feel better. I guess I would have to wait for a couple of days to know for sure if I did ovulate.
Never realized how stressful TTCing is.

 

[Illa]

Damn, sorry to hear Belle.

If your temp is still low, Illa, you might not have ovulated yet. Still time to BD.

I think Im around 7 dpo, and other than being an emotional wreck yesterday, no signs here. Work is stressing me out.

Yesterday a whole family of adults (like 6-7 adults) went around trick or treating with a little girl who had obviously just started walking. It was so friggen cute! I am looking forward to that

Sorry to hear about your work..
Be hopeful.. I am keepign my FXed for you!!!

 

[mnelson815]

I have never tracked anything and this is my first cycle temping. SO I am not sure what the norm is, I thought it hits the lowest when ovulating and then go up. Cm is still EWCM, I can get a BD in tonight but I don't know if that would be too late
Thank you Green and Mnelson, you guys really made me feel better. I guess I would have to wait for a couple of days to know for sure if I did ovulate.
Never realized how stressful TTCing is.

As far as I know from my charting, my temp stays low the day you ovulate, but it usually isn't my "lowest" temp. I usually hit my low a day or two before O, then it climbs a little the day I O, and then A bigger spike a day or two after once the progesterone gets pumping. I think you definitely still have time. And remember - the egg lives 12-24 hours so even if worse situation was you ovulated today, you can probably still catch it. Although, I would think you probably still have another day or two left anyway! Good luck!


Ugh Green, just another stress to add on to things hey? When does your Hubby hear about the job in NY?

 

[Illa]

Thank Mnelson! You relieved a lot of the stress that was biulding up in me since this morning.
Will keep you guys posted.

 

[greenarcher]

Yay! Go Illa go!

Mnelson, the interview is in 10 days, then after that, I really don't know. We will see!

I ordered some wellman vitamins from overseas because they're affordable and only a single pill a day. I'm hoping I'll be able to convince OH to take them, especially as he's been on the fence about kids again lately.

 

[Illa]

I felt bad cramping pains this morning and I thought they were ovulating pains, although I've never had them before. Also found myself spotting, which once again I though was linked to ovulation. But it just seemed to get worse to the point I couldn't stand it any longer. So went to see the doctor and I have a uti. I told the doctor I was ttc so she gave me an antibiotic that would be safe, but I still think I'm out this month. Good luck to everyone else. We need a bfp

 

[BelleNuit]

Green maybe just don't tell him the vitamins are for fertility haha.

Officially CD 1 today.... on to cycle 15 :/ AF due Nov 27. This is my last cycle to complete 1 year of TTC #1. Good God I hope it doesn't take another year. I just feel numb now and I'm thankful for that. I really truly believed I would already have a baby by now. Now I wonder if I will EVER have a baby. If all the ingredients are there to make it happen and it still doesn't happen why should it ever happen?

 

[mnelson815]

I totally understand where you are coming from Belle. Especially after a year and no real reasons or explanations can be the most frustrating thing on the planet!
However, since I am following right behind you here and into another cycle or hopelessness, I am going to try to have a more positive outlook. I am a very pessimistic person, so being optimistic is quite a stretch for me. However, no amount of "preparing myself" or anything for another cycle not working is really benefiting me at all. I am going to try to really believe that this might happen for me and see if the positive thought process can have ANY impact on this. Since obviously, nothing else has worked thus far... and it definitely can't hurt.

Its going to be so hard to feel that way, especially after months of disappointment and this last cycle reverting to being one of my worst so far even on fertility drugs, I mean I have nothing else to lose at this point and positive thinking can only really help increase my odds, so here we go with that...

Im a pretty anxious person, and pretty OCD. So I feel its going to be a huge challenge to let go and not freak out every time I get some spotting, or my period is too short. But hopefully, its going to make my body in a more peaceful place to let baby try and make a home. Easier said than done, but maybe something you might be interested in trying? Although, I am sure you probably have before. We all start out so optimistic, dont we?

 

[greenarcher]

Belle - I might try that....

Man I'm sorry to hear you're back on CD1 again. Unexplained must be the most frustrating thing in the fucking world. Two more cycles unmedicated, then starting on Femara, right?

I have a suspicion that, since neither of us have had a chemical, our problems are our OHs or lining. My OH has a low count, and if yours was still smoking, maybe you just need 2 months for his guys to recover.

Agreed on no more OPKs. You're super consistent.

Mnelson, yes, we do all start out so optimistic. I know you think you're out, but I'm still pulling for you. At least your LP is at least 11 days! That's long enough to implant, for sure. Positive thinking sounds like a great idea, and I really hope you can stick with it. I wish I could just forget entirely that I was trying to have a kid.

Going through your FF cycles, it looks like you have a pretty solid track record. Good temp shifts, long leutal phase. If this isn't your month, I think once you figure out what shape your uterus is, you'll be in good shape

AFM - 8 DPO. Eating WAY too much candy. No symptoms. Voted today. Not much going on!

 

[mnelson815]

Oh right, I forgot you are in the US!
So I am guessing you did early polling? The election is on the 8th right?

Really hoping this is your month Green! Your bd coverage is always fantastic!

Yeah, I used to have a great LP, and my spotting was getting less and less each month... until this month from hell haha. So here is hoping unmedicated next cycle will be better!
I definitely am out. I am spotting constantly from dark brown to red, just not heavy enough yet to call it full flow. Although I dont want my period to start just yet (trying to hold out for a 12 day LP), I really want CD1 to be here so I can call the clinic for the SHG. Our appointment got moved up to Nov 30, the wait is killing me!

 

[greenarcher]

Yes, early polling is the way to go. The lines are going to be insane on the 8th.

So you're doing unmedicated the next cycle? I think that's a good idea. And it sounds like you found a cancellation! Excellent! I'm really excited for your SHG. Which result are you hoping for? Bicornate, so you don't need surgery, or the other one, so you can fix things for good?

 

[mnelson815]

Definitely hoping for a septate so they can cut the little asshole out and I can go back to having a normal uterine cavity like the rest of the planet! Your fertility greatly improves with the surgery and it is minimally invasive with hardly any complications. I really hope that is it for me!

Yes, my annoying persistence paid off and we got the cancellation!

I can only imagine what it must be like on the 8th! At least people are getting out and voting!

Are you going to be testing early green? Dont you normally start testing around now?

 

[greenarcher]

I do, but I don't have high hopes for this cycle, so it's easy not to test. Last cycle I was really hopeful because OH had stopped baths 2 months ago (so recovery period was over), and we used preseed for the first time.

I'm going to test Friday (10 dpo), morning or after work, not sure. AF due in 3-7 days.

I also usually start spotting (very light brown) a few days before AF, so if I see that, I may not test.

 

[greenarcher]

Although GOD I'm starting to obsess again. I might just test tonight to get my mind off of it.

 

[mnelson815]

Why aren't you very hopeful about this one? All your coverage is great and some fertile cm! I think you can definitely be in luck this time around! Seriously... the law of averages, someone in this group HAS to get pregnant. Its just math! Haha.

 

[greenarcher]

Well, just because it's already been 7 months and we've had no luck. I just think we've got something going on that we don't know about yet. My OH is not very healthy... he eats like one meal a day (his adderall kills his appetite), and it's usually something horrible for him (pizza or hotdogs).

And technically, Sil got her BFP (or was that last month?).

I dunno, it's easier to deal with disappointment when you expect a bad result anyways. I'll keep my hopes up for you, and you can keep yours up for me

 

[mnelson815]

Deal! Much easier when doing it for someone else!
Has he done an SA?

 

[greenarcher]

I bought this one and did it at home (he's not yet willing to go to a doctor and give a sample there).

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Micra-Sperm-Test-Motility-Microscope/dp/B00I0AIBQM

I ordered it from Korea. It looked like he had decent motility (though nothing very fast, just moving forward) and morphology, but his count was borderline low (20m/ml), and that was after 4 days of abstaining.

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks mnelson. I did the positive thinking thing over the summer. I practiced positive self affirmations every day in the shower and every time I drove "I believe I will get pregnant, my lining is thickening, my ovaries are healthy, my eggs are perfect, etc etc). If there is really something going on preventing you from getting pregnant positive thinking or negative thinking will do squat all. We can't cause a miscarriage with our minds just like we can't cause implantation with our thoughts. That being said I did find my mood improved with the positive affirmations and the daily grind was easier to tolerate. I hope it's helpful for you!

I'm just going to try not to think about it at all, or as little as possible. I'm not going to hope for a successful outcome, but I'm not going to be depressed either. I'll just be numb to it all which will be a nice reprieve. Hope and despair wear on you after awhile.

Green I think you might be right on it coming down to either lining or a SA problem in our cases. There might be just enough little things that are adding up to make it really difficult, even though there is nothing majorly wrong.

Ironically we will be arriving in Boston the day of the election! Hopefully it'll all go well lol

Mnelson I will hope for septate for you then so you can have that surgery and get on with your life! Thats the worst part of infertility, feeling stuck in limbo

 

[BelleNuit]

Green with my short cycles I'll have 3 cycles to go before January and starting femara. (Otherwise I would be starting femara right over the Christmas holidays, screw that). So I'll be looking to start it around January 19th on my 18th cycle. We'll do that for 3 cycles which will bring us to April. I'll see how we feel then if we want to start IUI right away or if we want to wait until June. Only reason I'm thinking of holding off is my brothers wedding is the start of May so there will be extra stress/ alot going on around that time so I may not want to start IUI then