TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[GoldenRatio]

I talked to TJ on facebook but i dont think she will be around here for a while. I hope that see will get a bfp this month and it will be so special for her.

Puma did u test again?

DH got an interview today so im happy for him, but i decided to get a part time job for evenings and weekends. Didnt tell him yet because he doesnt want me to work but i need to work to provide whatever i want for the baby. Yesterday when i told him that i finally got a scan, he said "im happy for you" ad continued being depressed about work, really bothered me because i called ppl for days to get that scan and he thinks its my accomplishment, instead of saying im happy for us.

 

[BabyC4Me]

Golden. It's a rough time for your husband. Trust me.

My Hubbie was laid off and unemployed for a month. And it really puts a damper on their self esteem and pride as a MAN. Especially if he was the provider for the household AND theirs a baby on the way.

Men take huge hits to their ego when they can't be a man and financially / emotionally be there for the household.

He will find a job soon and his spirits will be back where they belong. Don't blame him for this. He's being a good Hubbie and soon to be daddy

And good luck wit his interview ! That was fast !

 

[GoldenRatio]

Well he is not the main provider, I work too and my salary can cover the mortgage and all the bills. Just wont be enuf to have extra to spend.

We also have savings too so instead of being depressed day 1, he could show some emotions about the baby.

 

[BabyC4Me]

Did you express your concerns with his reaction !

Does he know you were a little upset about his lack of excitement ?

He may not know that his depression is showing all over his face and in his tone of voice and all that.

Try letting him know how you feel and go from there

 

[puma1986]

I tested again. Absolutely nothing on the FRER with FMU.

I'm pissed. I seriously can't take this emotional rollercoaster.

 

[BabyC4Me]

I tested again. Absolutely nothing on the FRER with FMU.

I'm pissed. I seriously can't take this emotional rollercoaster.

Puma. I really hope that something shows up tomorrow !

I can't believe those dumb ass tests.

I hate hate hate FRER!

Try a diff test this afternoon.

Fingers crossed it was a bad test today .

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh puma!!!! I'm actually so angry to hear this!!! Are you testing again tomorrow? Did your line from yesterday show up after the time limit?? That would drive me completely nuts!!

 

[greenarcher]

what?! NO line?! I'm sorry Puma, I hope it's just FRER sucking it up again

 

[GoldenRatio]

noooo Puma! im so sorry hun, did u try the internet cheapies? You may get the line on those and not on frer for a while like mine.

 

[puma1986]

Why does this have to be so heartbreakingly difficult wanting something so bad and having our emotions yanked around like it's a joke. I keep looking at that test and it's definitely positive. The one today was stark white. Its like a glimpse of happiness torn away.

I'll test again in like two days.

Thanks BabyC. I just feel so sad today.

 

[puma1986]

Oh puma!!!! I'm actually so angry to hear this!!! Are you testing again tomorrow? Did your line from yesterday show up after the time limit?? That would drive me completely nuts!!

My line showed up in under 3 Minutes yesterday

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm so sorry puma! TTC is like a horrible joke sometimes! I will hope that it was just a faulty test for you.

 

[greenarcher]

:/ when is AF due for you?

 

[puma1986]

:/ when is AF due for you?

Sunday or Monday I believe

 

[puma1986]

It's okay ladies. I'm sorry for being so negative. Just hard. That's all. And we have ALL been through something similar

 

[BelleNuit]

It's okay ladies. I'm sorry for being so negative. Just hard. That's all. And we have ALL been through something similar

Don't be silly, this is the one place where you can be negative if you need to be! Feel free to rant! We've ALL been through something similar, so we ALL get it and have ranted ourselves lol. I honestly believe the very worst part of TTC is feeling like you have to deny how you feel. You can never let yourself get too excited, and you don't want to get too depressed... its such crap! Let yourself feel what you need to feel to get it out of your system! Otherwise you will just end up hanging on to that negative energy for much longer! We are here for you puma!

 

[puma1986]

It's okay ladies. I'm sorry for being so negative. Just hard. That's all. And we have ALL been through something similar

Don't be silly, this is the one place where you can be negative if you need to be! Feel free to rant! We've ALL been through something similar, so we ALL get it and have ranted ourselves lol. I honestly believe the very worst part of TTC is feeling like you have to deny how you feel. You can never let yourself get too excited, and you don't want to get too depressed... its such crap! Let yourself feel what you need to feel to get it out of your system! Otherwise you will just end up hanging on to that negative energy for much longer! We are here for you puma!

THANKS Belle! I seriously love you ladies.

And man.. Your chart is still so beautiful!

 

[BelleNuit]

There is no way I could have gotten through these last few months without you ladies! You've tolerated my mood swings and give me a boost when I need it!

And thanks puma!! My chart is so beautiful I'm almost afraid to mess it up! But a beautiful chart doesn't guarantee anything though. I'm hoping it means my cycles are becoming more balanced and those lifestyle changes I've been making are finally starting to pay off!

 

[BabyC4Me]

I completely agree with Belle. We have all been thru shit with this Process. It's taxing on our minds. Emotions. Our physical selves and our faith.

We just have to hope for the very best and can't rely on charts. Cm. temps. And all these things that may give us false feelings.

It's honestly not up to us.

Our lives are pre destined. Puma I really hope your test is positive before AF. And if not. Get mad. Throw something. Rip a pillow. Slap someone. Anything lol and then get re fueled for the next month.

Or ....take a break ! Enjoy the beach or something.

But def never feel ashamed for coming on the thread and saying what you really feel.

Where else can you do it ? Lol

Exactly ! NO WHERE !

 

[puma1986]

Yep. You guys rock. That's simply all there is to it! You both are totally right. And today and tomorrow I might feel pissy, but this weekend I'll be refreshed and excited to begin a pretty chart like Belles! Maybe! If I'm lucky! Lol