TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[BelleNuit]

Puma and Z I am right there with you! If it weren't for you ladies I think I would have gone completely bonkers by now!

D'awwww. Your chart should be featured on FF. LOL! What are you doing woman!

Puma, I can only hope my chart continues to looks nice! I fell off the bandwagon this weekend as was camping. Ready to get back to it!

Golden, I'm sorry your friend had that response. TTC is very difficult and brings out the worst in people sometimes. One of my friends is pregnant and due in September. She got pregnant her first month trying and I had already been trying a few months by then. I can't even look at her right now. Not because I don't care about her. I'm very happy for her. But it is so painful for me that I can't bear it right now. Where I used to assume that I WOULD one day have a family. Now I find myself saying "IF we can have kids." I'm not sure where along the line that shift took place. Either way hurts.

 

[BelleNuit]

Z, I can't see anything but that's because my phone is crap lol. I'm sending positive vibes your way!

 

[OhHappyZ]

Thank you belle I need it. This cycle has been thoroughly frustrating. I just want it to be over already, either with bfp or af. Bfp preferred of course lol

 

[puma1986]

Puma and Z I am right there with you! If it weren't for you ladies I think I would have gone completely bonkers by now!

D'awwww. Your chart should be featured on FF. LOL! What are you doing woman!

Puma, I can only hope my chart continues to looks nice! I fell off the bandwagon this weekend as was camping. Ready to get back to it!

Golden, I'm sorry your friend had that response. TTC is very difficult and brings out the worst in people sometimes. One of my friends is pregnant and due in September. She got pregnant her first month trying and I had already been trying a few months by then. I can't even look at her right now. Not because I don't care about her. I'm very happy for her. But it is so painful for me that I can't bear it right now. Where I used to assume that I WOULD one day have a family. Now I find myself saying "IF we can have kids." I'm not sure where along the line that shift took place. Either way hurts.

Alright lady, I totally know what you mean, but you cannot resort to "If we can have kids". I do the same thing - I read statistics. I know that by the 6th cycle, 60% have successfully conceived. I find myself counting down to the 6 months and thinking there is something seriously wrong.

WE HAVE TO STOP.

I know you're on cycle 9 - and I totally get why you'd be tempted to do negative self talk - but I want to let you know something that will help.

Our DH's sperm quality is based on 3 months prior. Meaning - my DH has been taking vitamins, drinking water, hasn't smoked - and has done everything by the book for 2 months - but we haven't conceived. THAT'S OKAY! It takes a couple months for your DH's sperm quality to improve. This doesn't mean to stop trying, or to give up hope, or to get angry with him.

It simply means that 9 months is a very small amount of time in the whole scheme of things - and you want the very best and healthiest sperms for your baby. Period. So if it takes a little longer than expected - don't get down on yourself. Your body is VERY picky about the sperms it will allow to connect with your precious egg. Trust your body and it's ability to know what will produce a healthy baby - and trust that your DH's sperm quality WILL improve and to just give it a little bit of time.

PERFECTLY HEALTHY couples who don't smoke or drink or do anything except eat healthy and exercise with minimal stress can easily take 6 months.

I love you lady! But I refuse to acknowledge that statement and insist that you correct it immediately!

 

[GoldenRatio]

Bella I know exactly how that feel because my sil got pregnant first month trying and when she was three months pregnant we started trying so entire time that we were trying I watched her belly grow and my niece is already three months old and I just got pregnant. It was hard for me to watch it but I was so excited to have a niece at the same time. Such a weird feeling.

But I thought it would be different with that friend since we both ttced for long time, and she would not treat me like I got pregnant first month trying and I donno what ttc is.

 

[BelleNuit]

You're totally right puma. In the grand scheme of things 9 cycles isn't that long! It just seems like eternity when you are in it and cant see a way out.

Thank you for making me feel like my body isn't being a complete screw up, it's just being selective. I wish I could have harped at DH a lot harder 3 months ago! Ha-ha. I really do appreciate that reframe though! This was a tough weekend with a wedding and lots of baby talk. Time to get back into a positive mindset again!

Golden, I'm sorry your friend sucked! There does seem to be a big divide on these forums between those still trying and those who are on to the next stage. That's why what we have here is so special

 

[OhHappyZ]

It is super hard to to mentally abuse yourself in this process. I am only 2 cycles in and I'm already questioning if I'm fertile. Of course I am! I just have to calm the eff down and let it happen when it is meant to happen. It is so hard, but it will happen. We will all hold our babies one day. And when we do, the journey to get there will fade in the past. Just enjoy the process of making your baby. It includes hot sex with a sexy man that loves you and wants to make children with you. That is a beautiful thing. We will get there.

 

[BelleNuit]

You are wonderful Z! The fact that your LP is typically 11 days, and you are now 13 dpo is a great sign! I'm hoping you'll get a strong clear BFP soon!

 

[OhHappyZ]

It is driving me insane. I'm going on a 40 day cycle. That means less trying time and more waiting time. Grr

 

[BelleNuit]

Ya, I would definitely start feeling impatient with a 40 cycle. The longest cycle I've had that I can 100% verify was 27 days. My cycle length really doesn't shift around a whole lot. So I suppose I should be thankful for that!

 

[BabyC4Me]

AWWWWWWWW!!!!!!

All my wonderful TTC ladies!!!! Im soooooooo grateful that I created this thread a couple months ago.

Who would have known that we would grown such strong bonds during our journeys???

And Goldne yes we do appreciate you hangin around with us empty womb chics



We all have different personalities and different lifestyles but we ALWAYS find a way to connect and discuss the updates with our lives and the TTC process.... Y all have helped me realize that each person on here WILL get preggo , but its just in their own time....

Puma thanks for the clinical guards link at amazon...I just ordered a 50pack of OPKs and a 20pack of Preggo Tests. July 11th is the delivery date..AF is due July 6th....hopefully i wont need the OPKs lol

And Happy Z....that is def a faint line!!!!!! Those FRERs are torture! You want to believe what you see... but just be careful of the deceit

Hoping the line gets darker tomorrow!

 

[OhHappyZ]

Mine typically doesn't either except this one. I want to blame the fertilitea for pushing my o three days late, but I don't know what the heck is going on. I'm just so glad that we have such a supportive group here. We can seesaw off each other.

 

[BabyC4Me]

Belle---how was camping???? I havent done that since i was like....10!

sounds like fun and yesterday . here at least. was GREAT weather! I went to an outdoor wedding and it was amazing!!!!!

 

[BelleNuit]

Not long to wait now BabyC! I'm hoping the 6th will come and go with no AF!

Z I've heard other people say that fertilitea made their cycles longer, its probably the vitex in it

 

[BabyC4Me]

I havent had many symptoms, but I dont know if " feeling pregnant" is even something ppl should be saying

Things Ive noticed since suspected O

random oily skin on face all week
dullness.cramping in lower tummy off and on for the last 5 days.
SUPER sleepy today...just wanted to lay in bed...not tired just....body was over it all!
creamy/lotion ish CM for about 5 days.

WE SHALL SEE GIRLS!!!!

Any July 4th plans?

 

[GoldenRatio]

I was talking to one of my university friend the other day, she just has a baby girl. She was telling me that she had hand full of mcs before her daughter. She said her DNA was causing msc and They called it duplicate balanced translocation chromosome.

I'm just super amazed that she was diagnosed with that! Can you imagine going to a doctor and they check ur dna? No clinic would do that.

 

[OhHappyZ]

Welp ladies. I need some boosting right now. CD1, not happy to see you again. *$*&# *#)#-%*% @#$&$!!!! And still have 4 more hours in the car before I'm home. Oh, and I just got a ticket for doing 85. Yay for going the speed of traffic in a yellow car. So over everything right now.

 

[BabyC4Me]

OH NOOOO!!!!

AF came ??? that fast???? F*** HER!!!!!! man we thought that test was a real line!!!

Girl im glad you are okay, and it was just a ticket! Get home safely and try not to think about it...if you are in the car lone SCREAM YELL CURSE do whatever you have to do.....

The next cycle will be the chance to start over and clear your frustrations!!!!

Dont get too caught up on it. Each month is another learning experience and you baby will pick the perfect birthday for itself!!!!

 

[GoldenRatio]

Sorry Hun, frer is really playing with us this cycle ha

Drive safe and try singing of u are alone in the car, that helps. Oh and stop at gas station and get some chocolate n icecream.

BabyC I'm glad u got some Amazon tests, frer is really annoying!

 

[OhHappyZ]

It doesn't hurt as bad this cycle because I didn't allow myself to think that there was a baby snuggling. So that helped. My lmp was may, so it sucks I missed a whole month because of that long ass cycle.

I'm not alone haha dh is with me, but I still did the screaming cursing thing Then started crying and pulled off the highway so dh could drive. It just sucks, I haven't had a ticket in yearssss.

You're right, each month is new. My baby will be in my arms one day, stressing won't change the timeframe (dh says that to me all the time, smart cookie).

I love you and your support.